I'm afraid to tell this to anyone I actually know, so maybe here...
I like doing something crazy, but I'm also scared out of my mind that I do this. There's a tree in a field some distance from my home. Nobody ever comes by this place, and it's well protected from local roads, etc. I like to go there when I'm alone during the day with some ropes. Then I throw the ropes over a couple of tree limbs, take off my clothes, and stretch myself out, tied with slip loops around my wrists. I stand there for about 15-20 minutes, struggling against the ropes and imagining that I'm being violated.
I don't know how to explain this. It feels wonderful, but also scary. I'm shaking just thinking about it. What if I ever get caught????
WHAT AM I DOING????????
I can usually get free within a couple of minutes, once I really try.
2006-08-14 10:00:13 · 18 answers · asked by Michelle C 4 in Health ➔ Mental Health
NOT a hooker! If anything, not enough real experience!
2006-08-14 10:15:02 · update #1
to jerry s ... relief. And embarassment.
2006-08-14 10:44:53 · update #2
This is a dangerous sexual fantasy, of course..what is very bad though, that even though this might be a 'turn on' to you,...someone not quite so nice is going to follow you and either rape you or rape and kill you to keep from getting told on...This kind of irresponsible behavior has to stop..Please pray on this one before something happens to you...you are obsessed with a dangerous fetish for what ever reason...I can't say if this happened to you early on in your life or you saw something on television by mistake when you were a little one, but you saw this somewhere and it left quite an impact on you...Please, do not do this anymore, I am very worried about you...GodBless
2006-08-14 10:24:30 · answer #1 · answered by MotherKittyKat 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
What you are doing is acting out a sexual fantasy that a lot of people have. However, you are also doing it in a very unsafe way. There is nothing wrong with the fantasy but the way you are acting it out can get you hurt both physically, socially, and possibly legally. I assume you are young and do not have access to a private safe place to do this in. My advice would be to try to keep the fantasy in your mind only until you are old enough to have a partner and an environment that will protect you. I know that that is easier to say than do. But I fear that you will come to some harm over something that is not a mental illness or anything that you should be worried about. No thought or fantasy is dangerous. However, some actions are.
2006-08-14 17:11:57 · answer #2 · answered by oldhippypaul 6 · 3⤊ 0⤋
Man, that's dangerous. I'd be afraid to use slip knots. You could get trapped permanently that way, and you WOULD eventually be found. Like someone said, it could even be an 'animal'. You need a much safer place to play. And you should really find a play partner. Do you have a boyfriend? Tell him your fantasy. He might enjoy helping, and WOULD be much safer than some stranger. Find a garage or bedroom to play in. You don't need to take that kind of risk!
Take care.
2006-08-14 22:58:09 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
If you ever get caught you will be charged with public indecency. It is a misdemeanor as far as I know, but your court appearance will be embarrassing to say the least.
What you are doing is playing out a bondage and rape fantasy. It is considered normal by most studies, but the way you are doing it is dangerous. Only one perverted individual with rapist tendencies needs to witness this to make your fantasy [which you do not necessarly want to happen] become a stark reality.
I suggest you stop this immediately. Now that you have done it, revisit it in your mind in the comfort of your own home. You can safely tie yourself up there.
2006-08-14 17:11:08 · answer #4 · answered by Chris 5 · 2⤊ 1⤋
There is a multitute of possibilities here. You may have an impulse control disorder, a paraphilia (sexual arousal by normally non-sexual objects/experiences), or perhaps even OCD. OCD would be a consideration if you feel the absolute need to perform this act to relieve anxiety of some intrusive, unwanted thoughts. It does sound like one of these is the likely culprit, but you may also wish to consult your doctor before or in addition to seeing a psychologist.
2006-08-14 17:28:31 · answer #5 · answered by Police 3 · 0⤊ 1⤋
It sounds like you're acting out some form of abuse that's been perpetrated on you. What if the day comes, and you can't get free--it could very well happen. Stop this immediately and see a therapist, you have a serious problem.
2006-08-14 17:11:16 · answer #6 · answered by Chatelaine 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You're playing with fire. You need to talk with someone, preferably a licensed counselor or psychologist. May be completely harmless, but sounds sort of out there.
2006-08-14 17:06:34 · answer #7 · answered by Julep 3 · 1⤊ 1⤋
It is probably just a sexual fantasy.. we all have them. You probably get pleasure out of bondage type stuff. If you're going to do stuff like that, do it in your room or something. And not out in the open!
2006-08-14 17:20:32 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
I feel that depicts your state of mind...like something is holding you back and you're struggling to set yourself free.
I dont know what's going on in your life...but something is definitely bothering you...by doing this you feel as if you have set yourself free.
2006-08-14 17:11:43 · answer #9 · answered by Han Solo 2 · 0⤊ 1⤋
How do you feel emotionally - mentally after you have done that? Do you feel for example any euphoria or sexual relief?
2006-08-14 17:24:16 · answer #10 · answered by justme 4 · 0⤊ 1⤋