Is this normal?

Question

When I was 15 (2000), I was diagnosed with a mild eating disorder and then anorexia in 2001. I went from 61kg down to 43kg and ended up in an out patient treatment program in 2002. I was there for 6 months, left in 2003 because I wasn't apparantly ready to get better, however from 2003-2005, I sought of started working through a lot of the stuff (very rocky road and a lot of tears).

While I'm not as entranched in the illness as I used to be, I still struggle with a lot of things. I still wouldn't say I eat normally, but what is normal these days? I have had a few moments where I chose to try eating three meals a day, but I always end up reverting to my old ways of cutting out calories and eating as little as possible.

I feel constantly consumed by thoughts of wanting to lose more weight and restrict, but I don't see it as ED behaviour-I don't feel sick. Am I still suffering from an ED? I'm 5'2, 47kg; would really like to hear from any others going through a similar thing

Answer 1

I am not really going throught the same thing, but since nobody else is answering, you might want to read . . .

http://books.google.com/books?id=3NOSxEBt1IgC&dq=%22kept+in+the+dark%22+artificial+light+wiley&pg=PP1&ots=dFkFqMPQbs&sig=k8loWNoF91tHpX2EqUaW78b2j2g&hl=en&prev=http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&q=%22kept+in+the+dark%22+artificial+light+wiley&sa=X&oi=print&ct=title&cad=one-book-with-thumbnail#PPP2,M1

which seems to say (essentially) that *most* "normal" food is bad for you anyway.

She says "normal" (as defined by the majority of human history) is to load up on carbs, etc. in the summer, then sleep a lot and not eat much in the winter. She also rants against fake fats (olestra), low-fat foods (fat is needed to slow carb. absorption), and refined carb's (high glycemic index).