Long question but it bothers me relentlessly and i just need help...thanks ahead of time...?

Question

Alright… There’s this girl that quite frankly, I believe I love. Can’t stop thinking about her and she is, at this time in my life, one of the few things that can actually make me smile. Its not that I am obsessed or infatuated, it is just more of my incompetence to be able to do what I need to. I am a sophomore in high school and she is a junior. At the beginning of the school year, I had known her for a year and I liked her during the previous year but I made no attempt to get closer. This year that has changed and my interest in her has increased greatly as I got to know her better. I am doing everything in my ability to get to the point where I can ask her out. One major point to bring up is that to this date, I have never been in a relationship of any sorts. Period. After about three months of getting closer to her I asked my best friend (he had been friends with her since they were young) out of desperation, to call her up, ask if she thought I liked her and what she thought of me (he pretended he had no idea). She said she thought I did like her and that at that time she only liked me as a friend. Now, a month later, I had been talking to her pretty much every day. Both in person (on the bus everyday) and on aim. She was opening up much more to me and every once in a while she will bring up the fact that she thinks that she is fat. Now, I know that this is a big load of bull so I always just explain to her why she isn't and I just try and comfort her. Now, in a much broader period of time, I realized that I was talking to her a bit too much. Realizing this, I backed off, trying to give her some space. As a result, I think she doesn’t feel as pressured anymore, and as a result, when I do talk with her, the conversations tend to be much more engaging and just better overall. Unfortunately, I have gone back to my old habits of being too caught up in the moment and freaked out to ever talk to her in person. At this time, I haven’t the faintest idea of what she feels for me, and what is going through her head. The time I spend talking with her, even the time I spend with her when I don’t talk is an adrenaline rush like none other. I feel ecstatic. All of my worries and negative emotions flood away from me in an instant. I don’t know…. I don’t want to be an inconvenience I just really need to talk about it. Any responses would be amazing. Thank you for spending the time to read this…

Answer 1

Amazing, how with age, this problem never really goes away. You get better with.... handling it? Which is because you become more comfrontable with what it is thats needed in a relationship. Sometimes, not the right things, but atleast your confident about it. Which well be your charm and your downfall. One of the most important things in your life, and trust it is connected to this very real, fight for love. Is purpose, what it is for you to live your life, for what purpose, for what meaning, to what end. This is something people tend to dismiss, to push away as being beyond them, to not give credit to. But this, my brother, is the point of life, this is the meaning of life, this is direction, purpose. THe reason I bring this some what riddled opinion of life, is because your choices are based on this new purpose in your life, to get her, to love her, to know her. And this, my brother, could be your greatest downfall. Its better to fellow your own path, and find others to join you, then to find someone to fellow. It sort of puts people in an ackward position when you for the sake of love, stick your head up their butts, sorry for the selection of words, but he points there. Ever wonder why girls go after bad-guys? Purpose, those little bad-boys have a selfish, personal purpose that makes it so the female fellows them. While nice guys fellow the female. The truth is you should combind the two. You should be a bad-butt about your purpose, just make sure it isn't selfish, make sure it does include you, this world, and her. And you can take advantage of the fact, people like a leader, they can both lean on, and help. I say this again, because in the end, all this game doesn't matter, if the relationship you make doesn't gain a purpose of its own outside the love you share, you most apply that love. Something, youngins like yourself, find out way to late, a fair warning, love is never enough, its how you use it.....