How can I face the unthinkable? Is it wrong to pray that God will let me die?

Question

Everything and everyone I ever cared about is gone; I don't want to go on.

Sammy - thanks for empathizing
Americaz - so grateful for your prayers & encouragement!
Russ - plz send money for counselor & vacation
Eternal - your call to reason much appreciated!
Dagon - thanks for your encouragement!
Olivia - thanks so much for the fresh (to me) perspective
Nikki - bless you for the light at the end of the tunnel
Wanna - the kind blessings received with much gratitude
Angltin - LOL, i AM on good meds
Douglas - the moment i read your response, i knew i'd be OK - i’m terrified of deep waters but my new ambition is to scuba off key west before i die. from the bottom of my heart thanks for the challenge to live with joy!
Wally - thanks :)
Blue - i really appreciate your thoughtful & sensible response!
Knotty - thanks for your gentle reply to my great distress & for sharing your peace with me
Rock - thanks for Job
Tuberoot - can’t thank you enough for sharing the life-giving Word, reminding me who I really am

truthbox - thanks so much for your encouraging words of wisdom
Salzgirl - thanks for the blessing & positive perspective
SquirtAM - you are so awesome - thank you for rising to my defence!
Coty - your heartfelt & very practical advice moved me to interact with others this week instead of withdrawing
greatseeker - perhaps you’re right; I’ll give it a try
lionjester - thanks for the reminder to trust
Andre - deeply appreciate your warm & sincere encouragement, bless you!
Lion - destiny or density - sometimes I wonder, but thanks for the prophetic word
Minnie - thanks. A belated merry Christmas to you, too!
Words4birds - many many thanks for the words & blessings.
LukeR - thanks so much for the tremendous outpouring of empathy!
Lula - thanks
Overseer - thanks
Lifeonloan - thanks, dear prayer warrior, for lifting me up & comforting me in my hour of need

Sonja - thanks for the encouragement to carry on!
HitpigAM - thanks for the puppy idea
Wise1 - thanks for sharing His love with me
Lachancedj - thanks for your caring response & advice about community theatre
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VirginiaB - greatly blessed by your caring comments, prayers & friendship!
Whyteangel - thanks so much for the blessings & encouragement…
Beebee - thanks for your wonderful caring & prayers. J
Mags - thanks, dear one, for the well wishes. (belated) merry Christmas & a delightful new year!
Adam - your expression of loving concern touched me deeply - thank you!
Atheist - thank you for the beautiful & comforting poetry
Pamela - thanks for the friendly welcome & prayers.
Mable - you’re a blessing!
electroprayer - thanks for your faithful prayers
Teetee - thanks for the encouragement to get up & get going
Conny - thanks for the wonderful answer - big hugs to you too!

Elaine - thank you for the kind words
Atom - thanks for the sensible thoughts!
make me - thank you
grafted in - your thoughtful answer is most helpful

THANKS EVERYONE for offering so many good alternatives to the "dead end" in which i languished on christmas eve. bless you all; i am very grateful.

and my apologies to the person who was offended by my previous attempts to thank you, and reported me to the yahoo police. being new to this, i inadvertently violated the rules. so very sorry...

Answer 1

God wishes that we cast all of our concerns onto Him. If your life is unbearable and void of hope..........please tell Him this.

Many years ago as a young Christian, I had to lay my own little baby into her grave........I had heard other women say one of life's greatest sorrows was to outlive your children. At a young age, I learned from personal experience what they meant. I BEGGED God "take me too", but He still has not.

My prayer was outside of His will for my life.........and He allowed me to struggle on and on. Eventually, I had two more healthy babies. My children are grown now, and it was only in the last year, that I truly found peace and began to realize the compassion that born from my loss. There are days of pain and loss.......her birthday, the date of her death, when I think of the young woman she could have been and her placement among my other children. How would she be like them, how would she differ? What path would she have taken.......

Oh, yes, I do believe in prayer to God......nothing will shock Him. There is nothing you can admit to Him that He doesn't already know........He simply asks that you turn to Him.
God will do nothing for us until we turn to Him. Prayer opens the door for Him to intervene in our lives. Open your heart, pour it all out, cry if you need to, get angry if it helps, whatever it takes for you to release it to Him, do it, He will bring you to a brighter and newer day.......

Since your question was about prayer, I take it upon myself to lift your and your hurt up to God........

May you find the peace you seek.......

I Bow Down Prayer Warrior

Answer 2

But you are still here, and God has a propose for everyone. You are never alone even though you feel that you are - he is always watching over and guiding you. We are human beings that have emotions and feelings and sometimes the heart is willing but the flesh is weak. I believe life is a gift from God and we should cherish it even though at times it seems there is no hope! I also believe that our pain and loss is a part of this precious life that he has given us. The road is long, with many a winding turns, and we have to be strong. You are special in his sight - and that is the only sin, I was told as a child that he doesn't forgive us for and that is taking our own lives. Loosing people you care about is never easy for anyone, but would they be happy if they knew you felt this way? or that you are even thinking this way? Hold on to each and every memory, there they'll be safe and their spirits will give you hope and the will to carry on.

Answer 3

jcsaint ,

people care about ... uhh ... *you*

I can see this from some of the replies you've gotten. I've not really experienced the events leading up to your present misery, but "yes" I've felt fairly close to what you're feeling now, and sorta understand that it's painful and lonely.

but with each word you share, small little bonds of human emotion are formed. That's just the way people work ... I don't really understand it, but I've seen it happen over and over again.

the people that *you* have cared about might be gone for now .. but .. just stick around a while longer, and there *will* be others .... this also is how people work. We're all in this together, even if sometimes it seems like we're each alone.

If you will pray, try doing it without using words ... just use your heart. Curl up under blankets and close your eyes and silenty *feel* ... project your pain and sorrow silenty outwards .. radiate the anguish silently beyond yourself and cry if you must .... but give yourself another day.
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if you use no words you will be heard

if you listen for no words, you will hear
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Tomorrow get up and go about your daily business, whatever that might be.

Do your best to at least be kind to other people, to at least make that effort.

send me email if you want .. and I will reply.

"With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world."


Here's an old piece that sometimes gives me a better outlook when it seems that nothing is worth anything anymore


Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.


Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.


Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.


Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.


You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.


Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.


With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Answer 4

I don't think it is wrong to wish to die. Actually it's a very normal experience when you feel completely alone and without hope for a long period of time.

Death is an old friend to many of us, promising to relieve all pain. However, based upon what I have experienced, I have come to believe that the ongoing anguish we experience may be allowed to occur to foster our strength and wisdom.

Most people believe that once we get to Heavan everything is fine, and we'll sit around in eternal bliss. However, there are several verses in the Bible which indicate that our place in the Universe will be somewhat more demanding. It's a common statement among Protestants that we are expected "To rule all creation with Christ." The Catholic Book of Wiscom says "The righteous shall judge Nations."

If the above is true, what we are experiencing today may be training for what is to come, and enhance what we will be able to do. You are experiencing loneliness and despair, something not everyone has experienced. However, based upon personal experience, if you survive this you will become a far stronger person than those who live a simpler life. Those of us who live in darkness can easily lead those who suddenly find themselves in it. I've found that this belief doesn't eliminate the pain, but it does allow me to dance with it.

Christ felt abandoned on the Cross, and our scars are reminders of what we have survived.

There are other people out there who will need you.

From a practical standpoint it's often difficult to find others who will accept you as you are. If you can do so, I recommend looking into community theater as a means of connecting with other people. Commuity theater literally draws people from the community at large, and no experience is usually required. In theater, you are accepted if you show up on time and perform the role that is given to you. All are accepted regardless of who they are, and many of us find friends there. If you think you can't do this because of lack of experience, send me an email and I can give you a rundown on how to learn lines very quickly.

Community theater gave my family a sense of community after many years in isolation. I got invovled by having one of my stage plays produced and was later asked to do a small role. I've been in a wide variety of shows ever since. You meet many people from many backgrounds. I wrote stage plays to reconnect with my family after the Gulf War.

All major cities have community theater groups, and auditions are usually posted in the local newspapers. Another source of information is the American Association of Community Theaters (www.aact.org), and they can let you know about where audition notices are posted.

I hope that this helps. Mostly, I'm trying to say that you are not alone. Please email if you feel the need to do so.

Answer 5

Im not going to lie and say that I know exactly how you are feeling. However, everyone is bound to have situations in their life to face where they traverse the wrong path or wind up alone. Somber memories of the past seem to haunt our emotional framework, eating it away. I once had a gun to my own head and didnt pull the trigger, my family doctor even looked down from a tall building to the street below but didnt take the step. Most people dont want to go on at some point in their life, and pray to die. However this is normal, but the unhealthy part is harboring those emotions for a long while. Just as there are pitfalls in our life to cause us to cycle our negative thoughts and emotions, humans innately see beauty in life. If you are still on this earth, and you are reading this message, God has a plan for you. Before you were in the womb he saw your life from beginning to end, and knew you. You will never know a better friend than Him, seek Jesus. Personally, I was at the lowest of the low once, and just like a undulating road you have to climb back up a hill to get on top again. Hang on, seek companionship, seek other friends, move if you have to. But all the while keep the Lord near, his will shall continue to be apparent in your life whether you choose to acknowledge it or not. Dont give up, dont pray for death, pray for life. Consider how short our earthly lives are to eternity.

Answer 6

I was dying from Lupus. Months and months of pain. I could not walk. I had to pee in a 64 oz 7-11 cup because I could not bend my knees to sit on the toilet. I had a 14 year old boy - my only child. I was on death's door. What was I going to do about him? I was an Atheist and I was angry. I prayed, as a last resort, for God; if he existed to just kill me already. He did not. Satan's hooves where around my throat and he almost had me. One more tight squeeze and that would have been that. I don't know what "the unthinkable" is in your life, if it was by your choices or not. It makes not matter, Jesus will hear all who call on Him with a sincere heart. He saved my life. An Atheist and the worst Christian hater. Merry Christmas.

Answer 7

It is not wrong for you to pray and ask him to take you away from this pain, although everyone you care about has left, U are still here for a reason. God knows and hears your pain. If it helps, there are many people who have walked your shoes and now have better lifes they could never have imagined. You do not know your destiny, allow God to show you. Life does turn around eventually, U just have to stay around long enough to find out. God Bless!

Answer 8

depends...do you follow the teachings of 'Jesus'. "Jesus" covers prayer in Matthew Chapter 6. A person is not supposed to pray for things they want or the way they want them.

Everything is the way GOD wills it. Trust the SPIRIT. The SPIRIT will provide everything that you do need...hehehee though not always what we want or the way we want it.

One should rememer though LOVE is an energy once created cannot be destroyed. The SPIRIT is EVERYWHERE, always with you; as are all your beloved.

BLAH, BLAH, BLAH...words are not the shoulder you need to cry on, the hug of your loved ones to banish the loneliness, or the hand to brush your tears away.

I've been in a similar situation, so I kinda have clue.

Allow people into your life to aide you in the THINGs you NEED. They are not your loved ones nor will they do the THINGS as your loved ones had, but they are there for you.

Though sometimes there is no one. Perhaps its to see if you truly do care for yourself to give yourself the hugs, hold yourself while you weep, and even wipe away your own tears.

Rant, rage, cry, but also love, care, and live and TRUST.

Answer 9

Remember Job? The only thing he had left when Satan got through with him was a wife that wanted him to curse God and die and 3 friends who were sure that he had sinned somehow and was punished of God. That is all he THOUGHT he had left. God reminded him that He is in charge in his life and then he gave him another family and everything that he lost. I am sure he mourned for his family that was taken away, but God gave him a purpose to keep going until He called Job home. God bless you and wait on Him. You will never be sorry.

Answer 10

Would it not just be better to ask God for his will in your life.?
I can feel the pain, but sweet heart it is always the darkest before the dawn, The devil has you discouraged right now that is his favorite tool, I lost a dear friend and a brother to this discouragement .They both committed suicide, and they both were so wrong. both ,had thought they had lost it all.too. But at their funerals there was more friends than they ever new they had. it was the two largest funerals
our town has ever seen,, and it was all friends . The ones of us they left behind
had done all we could do to talk to them, trying to get them to see this is of the devil. please find someone to talk with . God
Bless and keep you safe.is my prayer.

Answer 11

I'm so sorry to hear that all those you cared about are now gone. I think sometimes people have a hard time understanding how someone like yourself feels unless they've pesonally experienced the pain of losing everyone they cared about themselves. I will be praying that the Lord give you strength and fill your life with His love. God bless you, and I am praying that all of your tomorrows will be better than all of your yesterdays!

A friend who cares,
Virginia