Loved ones Vs Piro Maniac... This is serious, Please Help me.?

Question

Im a piro maniac, i need to have access to fire at all times. Hence a lighter is fine. Im currently on a suspended jail sentence for burning down a building in South Australia.

Iv tried everything... its not funny anymore, from councellors to physcologists to mental centers. If i dont have acces to fire i go insane, literally insane, its like a drug.

I have been this way since i was 8 years old.

3 days ago i accidently lit my boyfriends hair on fire, he was sent to hospital. And i was sent to a watch house,

They let me out this morning..

I need serious advice, this isent a joke. I cant let go of fire, this is a disease i have and it will never go away.

Iv been thinking... is it worth me being around loved ones, when all i do is hurt them, i try SO HARD, IV TRIED EVERYTHING and i cant change this obsession with fire.

Should i just leave... and hopefully there lives can better without me in it.

Advice please? Thanx

This whole day, i was thinking... am i worth being here, I feel like im a burden on them.

I dont know anymore. This isnt a healthy life.

Answer 1

Cool if this isn't bs. Suprised the psychologist didn't lay it out for you? Ether that are your just not much on listening, or giving them credit. Quite an interesting relationshp you've developed with fire, ever talked much about its history other then what you've done? Such as why the fire? I've had my own love with the flame, but your complete devotion means something powerful makes you reach for it, something along the lines of your purpose, which would be want I'd be brow-beating you about, did those guys just pussy foot around with you? Ether way, you really want some help, I've got an e-mail, I just need you to answer one stupid question, Whats your purpose in life? You tell me that flame, and I'll brow-beat you, be serious, something makes you tick, something makes you reach for that power, so open up tell me. If not, well that would be the reason, your not looking at your problem right.