why am i getting these strong feelings when i'm near her or when i see her? and what should i do?

Question

there's this girl i've loved for a year and a halve. she's always known i love her and i've always known she didn't love back. before i start explaining, i think i should mention this now, their is no relationship and "move on" or "grow up" r not answers i'll take. so here's the problem, for about a month and a halve, i've been getting toughs and voices in my head that tell me to call her to tell her to go on msn or to make plans to be alone with me, but the main problem interfering with that is that i made a deal with her so that neither of us say a thing about my love for her, what i mean is tat nobody says anithing about me loving her, so i can't let anybody know and i can't make it look suspicious to others. to me their's just no way to make that happen. everytime i'm near her, i want to tell it to her that i want to be able to have some time alone but i just can't seem to be able to. and the only way i can talk to her about that is on msn but she rarely sings in now.

another 1 of the problems is, not only that we can't tell anybody, but she's always with her friends witch means i need to be a bit more cautious with what i say that is about love

just a message about moving on, i know most will say it's the only thing i can do, i HAVE tried to move on a couple of times and i just can't, i can't let go of her.

and what i don't like is that i can not express my feelings for her, the only time i ever get to talk to her about the stuff is only about once a month, but even then i don't talk about it much. so because i can't and couldn't express my feelings for her, that makes another problem for me

Answer 1

you should slowly start talking more and more to her face to face
then wen u say i love you to her
you wont feel as shy and awkward

Answer 2

She sounds more mature than you. If you don't want hear grow up, can I suggest a spelling tutor?