Is Death for me?

Question

Where to begin...

I:
Suffer from clinical depression, ADHD and a host of other problems

Have *OK* grades (except for an F in Pre-AP English) but my parents take them as atrotious and freak out every time they notice on Edline (Big Brother is Watching you) a missing assignment that really isn't worth much and I'm getting a C in that class anyway.

I get a huge work load in school-- 2 Pre-AP classes (incredibly rigorous teachers, one of which it seems is trying to get me to fail her class. would you have guessed it was my Pre-AP English teacher?)

I've just gotten plain bored with life. Even things I thought were incredibly fun are now really boring.

Most of what has been happening is about my parents. Ever since I've started this freshman year, we have been becoming more and more hostile towards each other.

So should I just kill myself and end it all, or should I stick with it, things will only get better. Must warn you, I'm not good at taking other's word.

That One Kid: Video Games is usually how I relieve stress. But this is a shared comp so downloading games and playing them with my parents home (who are a lot less understanding than most people) is sorta hard. They say that the games I play are a waste of memory :(

Answer 1

i feel ur pain im 15 and have ocd,deppression and genralized anxity disorders...for half my life i have felt like i was going crazy and no one belived me no one could see the pain i was in and refused to belive there was something wrong i was tortured in school my grades suffred i repeated b/c of this iv been through hurricane katrina lost my house...my family dieing at a young age ..i wish i was just bored with life..i would pay any price to be normal...iv thought many times if i jsut die this would go away..well those thoughts made everything worse and i figured i would be selffish ..i no theres people worse of then me..and if i killed myself my parents would never forgive themselfs..i want to get better and hopefully i will its hard but its worth living i promise good luck

Answer 2

You are dealing with a lot, do you see a counselor on a regular basis? I really think that would help you a great deal. Also, for the ADHD, there is a great book I think you should see, "The ADD Book" by Sears/Thompson that tells how to really keep it under control with diet, behavior modification, feedback, etc.

Hang in there, learn to relax more; deep, slow breathing, thinking about pleasant things, listening to soothing music.

Get some exercise to work off tension too, everyday. Eat healthy, that will make you feel better if you feel too tense. This is a temporary situation, it will change, hang in there and see. Take care.

Answer 3

Hey there, death is NOT for you, it is for those who are supposed to die! You have a long beautiful life ahead of you, and you came here to do something special with your life. You might not know what it is yet, but you are here because your soul wanted to be here.

What you are going through is strengthing your character, believe it or not, and someday you wil grow up to be a big strong tree. Right now you are the young sapling experiencing some stormy weather and you are getting tossed around a little bit. But don't worry dear, you'll get through this. Believe me, I was soooo relieved when I got out of school, I felt like I could start living my life finally! When you get out into the world, it all changes. So don't worry for now. Most of the people who turn out to be amazing adults had difficult high school days, so you're in good company, most of the people who don't like high school come alive when they're out. If you check out now, you didn't even get a chance to start your own life!

I advise that when you get out of high school, don't go to college right away. I slung on a backpack and traveled around for a while, do it while you're young and your body is able to do it, and see the world a little before you do any school again. You will find yourself!

Here's some vids from Christine Breese that might really help you start exploring what it is you might be here for, and will help you learn how to be in the now moment instead of suffering becuase your future seems bleak http://umsonline.org/SpiritualVideoSatsang/VideoFreeSatsangChristineBreese.htm and if you want to check out some articles that might be of some help to you, http://www.ucmeta.org/Pages/ArticlesDirectory.htm and check out the Life Purpose one especially at http://www.ucmeta.org/Pages/Articles/LifePurpose/LifepurposeDIR.htm

I hope this helps, stick around kid, you ain't seen nothin' yet!

Answer 4

Other than the clinical depression and ADHD, nothing about your life is particularly different from anyone else's. It's just ordinary life. Some years are better than others. Get treatment for your medical problems (since those are the things that are making your situation seem worse than it is), and wait. Life will keep on going, and eventually you'll find yourself enjoying it again.

Answer 5

you need find a way of relieving stress or an escape (i play video games) i used to be like you up until about the beginning of nov. because i had 2 Ap classes, french, alg 2, and drama and i hav to take the psat soon =(

life's a b*tch but there are things that are worth sticking around for

Answer 6

Sheez, stick with it kid, life only starts to get fun by the end of high school. Then college is a blast.

Do your work and don't slip up in classes so your parents don't come down hard on you.

Make friends in school - that'll help you deal with your parents.

Answer 7

I don't know man. I fell really bad myself. I believe in Jesus ,and hope that God will make it all right , but than I feel like it's hopeless. You have opportuinity though man ,and a family that loves you ,and wants the best. My family barely tolerates me ,and I live in my Jeep. I wish I was in college ,but I dropped out in ninth grade. It will get better just dont f it up. If you screw up you will be ten times worse down the road. I'm only eighteen and my life seems like it's over.Video games will make you stupid ,and so does television. Your gonna have to support yourself soon so look into a job that you will enjoy. Your name is airborne ranger? I was going to join the rangers but the Army turned me down because I was a kid like you who went to a mental hospital because I was depressed when I couldn't see that i had it all. Well actually by that time I had f'd my life up reallt bad anyways.Appreciate what you gaot becasue it's all you got. I'm glad my grandparent let me take ashower tonight and gave me some instant noodles for dinner. I'm also glad my uncle is letting me work for him. I know I'm gonna freeze my @$$ tonight in my drafty little Jeep ( it's below ten degrees out) but it could be worse.Be patient. Be patient of school. Be patient to make love to your woman ,and find the right one. Be patient in all things and you will get there. Also have a pure heart.If you indulge or feel evil in your mind it will spread. Also it is just as bad as actually doing it.Be acceptable in thy god's sight.....just in case. ; ) Also if there's a girl you love do everything to get her.

Answer 8

Oh, no! That's horrible! Clinical depression may not be curable as of 2007 but science is making huge leaps and bounds and you are young so there is a chance one day the cure will be found. Please have hope for the future. Please do not harm yourself.