Thinking about killing myself, what the hell is wrong with me?

Question

There must be millions of people with problems much worse than mine, yet I have consistently been thinking about killing myself for quite some time. I'm not a starving child or abused or anything like that fortunately. I think the reasons I want to kill myself are simply because I have virtually no social skills (I'm 20 years old and as hard as I try I cannot make any friends). I can't even do sports anymore because I have problems with my kidneys. I also have social anxiety too, so I always feel extremely inadequate and scared to be in public. I'm too busy in college for a job, so I can't pay for a psychologist or anything (none on campus either). Joined a couple clubs on campus too, but as hard as I tried, could not make friends with anyone. Also I have extremely strict parents and if I had the money and wasn't paying for college, I would move as far away from them as I could. I really don't feel like I have a purpose and I'm sick of being angry all the time. What should I do?Thanks

Answer 1

Homeopathic Remedies for Anxiety / Panic Attacks / Stress / Depression(Bereavment) / Mood Swings (Totally safe, without any side effects or complications of any sort) :-

ANXIETY / PANIC ATTACKS & STRESS :-

Sudden with restlessness and fear of death, Panic Attacks, Aconite 30X or 200X,1/2 hourly (3 Doses)

Prolonged with periodic and panic attacks Arsenic Alb.200X, 4 hourly (3 Doses)

With fainting spells; profuse sweating; worse in the morning Sulphur 30X or 200X 3 hourly (3 Doses)

Makes patient walk fast; due to anticipation Argentum Nit 200X, 3 hourly (3 Doses)

Worse lying in bed and closing the eyes Carbo Veg 30X or 200X, 4 hourly (6 Doses)

Anxiety aggravated by upward or downward motion; going in an elevator; worse till 11 P.M, Borax 200X or 1M, 3 hourly (3 Doses)

Anxious about business even when seriously ill Bryonia Alba 200X 3 hourly (3 Doses)

Full of apprehensions in the evening Causticum 200X, 3 hourly (3 Doses)

Anxiety and fears in the evening with restlessness and palpitation Calcarea Carb.200X or 1M, 3 hourly (3 Doses)

Anxiety worse while lying still. Sad music ameliorates the complaints Manganum Acet 200X 3 hourly (3 Doses)

Anxiety due to fright, fear,exciting news; stage fright; worse while appearing for examination or interview etc Gelsemium 30X or 200X 3 hourly (6 Doses)

Mood Swings, Anxiety due to grief or shock in the subconscious mind Ignatia 200X or 1M, 3 hourly (3 Doses)

Anxiety; better after eating Anacardium Or 30X, 4 hourly.

DEPRESSION & GRIEF(Bereavement) :-

Severe shock due to sudden death of loved ones; restlessness, anxiety and fear Aconite 200X. 10 min (3 Doses)

Prolonged mournings; cannot overcome the loss of loved ones and/or Mood Swings. Ignatia 1M or 10M, 6 hourly (3 Doses)

When the grief is in the conscious mind; patient weeps; does not like sympathy Natrum Mur.200X or 1M, 6 hourly (3 Doses)

For chronic grief and indignation Staphysagria 200X or 1M, weekly (3 Doses)

Depression with suicidal thoughts feeling of worthlessness, Aurum Met 30X, three times a day half hour before meals.


Take the remedy which is similar to your symptoms. No side effects or complications if taken as directed, please do not exceed the given dosage and under any circumstances do not try to mix any remedies and avoid Chocolates, Mints, Coffee, Red Meat, Alcoholic and Carbonated drinks, Spicy Rich Food while taking any Homeopathic remedies, and keep the medicines away from direct sunlight, heat strong smells and perfumes and do not store them in the fridge.
Curing without any side effects or Complications Thats the Beauty of Homeopathic Medicine (Cures Par Excellence)

Take Care and God Bless you.

Answer 2

Ahh wow, if i were u, i would actually go see a therapist. i wouldnt want uo to commit suicide and you're right, there are mnay other people suffering worse than you, but if u want to make new friends i guess ur supposed to loosen up and so right ahead. i have a lott of friends,just go up to anyone, say hi and start a conversation. if you're always scared to be in public, im not sure but i think you should be in public more often i guess.you are on the right track with college and school and it is very stressful, i understand that, but think of all the positive things, you never know, maybe your going through so much right now because on day your life will turn upsdie down, everything is going to be just fine. Try talking to a therapist, its pretty hard too though, i've talked to threrapists before and i was very insecure because i didnt even know them. i understand and kno its going to be really hard for you to talk to a therapaist since you have social anxiety. but try talking to a close friend, it helps. also try to work towards socializing. also try taking some time and think about why you want to kill yourself, make a list, one with pros another with cons, you'll realize that u have more con's to killing urself then pros to why u want too.
Hope i helped and best of luck! =]
also try suicidehotline.

Answer 3

I hate to say this but suicide is a very selfish act. You probably think it will solve all your problems and that there is something after death, like eternal nothingness or the bliss of a heaven. No one knows for sure if there is anything after death; no one has ever came back to tell about it. Death may not be like you think it is. And neither is life like you think it is!

You say you can't make any friends no matter how hard you try. Your social anxiety probably is making your trials ineffective. STOP trying so hard and just be yourself. The fact that you have strict parents probably means you had a very moral upbringing ( a plus) and you don't come across to others, many of whom are living without strict morals in today's free love culture, as easy going. Your voice and mannerisms are strained because of your anxiety.

Accept yourself for what you are and just look (if you have to look) for those who have the same outlook. Try to forgive your parents (they are all you will ever have) and yourself for being inadequate as measured by your view of the contemporary society you would like to join.

STOP thinking negatively about yourself and your abilities; COUNT your "blessings."

And if I haven't convinced you that death is no answer call:

1-800 SUICIDE, they will help you!

Good luck with your human relations, good mental health, peace and Love!

Answer 4

When my son went to college, i know for a fact that the college will make you get insurance if you dont have any under your parents insurance. I think you need to see a doctor. Zoloft or lexapro are just two meds i think will take care of your problem. Check with your doctor to see. Youll feel better in about a month. I think you might have a chemical imbalance in your brain. There is ALWAYS something wrong if you contemplate suicide. Good Luck. I hope the best for you

Answer 5

hang in there. People have problems, it's been like this for ever. I can't even pretend to say that i know what you're going through because i don't. Social skills are something that you have to work on. To some people it comes naturally, but others have to work on it. As to joining groups and such i think you're on the right track. Make sure you join a group that you actually like. Then you'll be around people who have the same likes as you.
As to being angry all the time, go to do something that you love. Let loose. Go bungee jumping or something. Have fun. And as to not being able to do sports, just do something less strenousous. go out for swimming or something easy (i don't really know what you like)
I think that it is perfectly normal to think about death. would it be easier if i weren't here anymore and didn't have to deal with all these problems? the answer would be yes. It would be easier but to actually kill yourself? Think about all the wonderful things in the world that you would miss. I really think that there is somebody for everybody. Make sure you don't limit your options. Be yourself.
As to getting help and not being able to afford it. I suggest that you go to a church or to a convent or any religious building. You don't even have to believe in God, there will be someone that wants to help you. Tell them your situation and i can almost guarentee that they will help you or help you to get help.

I think the best adivce i can give to you is to get away for a little bit. Join a group or go to work at a camp or something and let loose. You can start over, wipe the slate clean. I am the happiest when i'm with people who don't know me when i'm at home. Strangers don't expect you to do something because of who you are. Let go of your inhabitions and be yourself.
I think it would be a good idea to get away from your parents for a bit. But just remember that they are from a different time and are showing their affections in a different way.

Make sure you go into a group or sport with the spirit that you are going to make friends.
I don't care if you belive in God or not, but i'm going to say a prayer for you anyways.
Good luck with everything

Answer 6

Just by asking this question you are asking for help. Give life a chance. This world is full of people quite capable of being your friend. Give yourself a chance. Perhaps you should call a suicide hotline and talk with someone. Think of all the things that you can be thankful for and try not to focus on the negative

Answer 7

My step-dad killed himself 7 years ago. It's something my family has to deal with daily. My little sister has major issues because of it. My sister started doing meth and just came off of it about 2 years ago. My nephew is now a juvenile delinquint. My mom just popped more pills. And I had to take on the responsibilities of everyone. It completely destroyed our family. Suicide is not the answer. Just remember that you will not be the only one you hurt. Your family would suffer tremendously. I'm sure that there are free clinics or low cost clinics where you are. Get yourself some help. If your parents are paying for your college, they must really care about you. My parents didn't help me with anything. Maybe you should seek family counseling. Ask your parents to help you pay for counseling. I think you are depressed and anxious and you really need some professional help ASAP. Please don't even think about suicide, it would haunt everyone you know for the rest of their lives.

Answer 8

Anxiety is linked to depression. Don't beat yourself up. You are not the only one with these feelings. You need to treat this like any other problem. If you are hurt..you see a doctor. If you are depressed you need to talk to a therapist. They will help you alot. Just by talking about this you will feel better. They can give you meds for the anxiety. Just remember..nothing is ever that bad. Please think about seeing someone for this. Take care.

Answer 9

First and foremost I want to let you know that no matter what the situation GOD LOVES YOU.I also want you to know that you do have a PURPOSE.There is a reason that you are here you just need to take the time out and ask GOD what it is .Start putting your TRUST GOD,I promise HE is ONE who not only won't fail, but CAN'T FAIL. I ask that you give him a chance and even the more yourself a chance.PRAY and ask GOD what you want and Believe HIM to do it and HE WILL! read PSALMS 23 and 91 and ask GOD for understanding. I pray that HE BLESS YOU and that HE remove every thought that is not like HIM (RIGHTEOUS)From Your Thinking! MAY HE KEEP and BLESS YOU!

Answer 10

Killing yourself will not solve anything. Maybe you should try to find something you really enjoy in life. There has to be something that makes you happy. I do believe that you should talk to someone about this and get help. I wish you the best.