I want to die?

Question

I want to die. My family is so messed up its sad all we do is hurt eachother. I want to die I feel like there is no reason to go on. I really feel like killing myself right now. I am just tired and want the pain to stop. I have been cutting myself for 4 years but its not helping anymore. I want to cry but I can't. I don't have anyone one I can talk to about this. I have my best friend but I'm scared she would tell someone and my family find out. I just feel like this empty shell and I hurt so bad. I'm young but I have been threw a lot. I know self harm is wrong but I don't want to stop. I don't know what to do. I cut myself again today and I'm upset about that because I know I should not do it. I just have no one. I hate that I am this way. What do I do?

Answer 1

**** Germs, he is a real asshole and has no feelings. U don't want to die ur just really hurting. I'm sorry to say this but u need to talk to someone. Do u have a teacher u can talk 2 about this? I know where u are coming from with the self harm I used to do it. Just breathe deep and ur going to be okay. When u feel sad and stressed just say to yourself I'm okay.

Answer 2

You cut yourself because you think the physical pain will wash away the emotional pain... it's away of relieving yourself of the hurt you feel mentally. I was in your situation sweetheart. You need to seek help. I know you're young, scared, and don't have a family to support you getting help. However, you need to talk to your counselor at school. She will help you...and she will not tell your family. It's illegal. Your best friend will not betray you. Just remember something.. the way someone reacts or how they are towards you is NOT your fault. It's a weakness they have, and it's nothing you did wrong. I'm sure you're an amazing person and you should treat yourself as that. If no one else is going to love you, and all else fails, love yourself. As you get older, you will realize that life is short and that there is someone out there who will sweep you off your feet and show you all there is to be happy and thankful for. Say a prayer... and stay strong. You'll make it through. When someone in your family hurts you, just walk away and think, "they don't mean that, they can't help that and it's not my fault." good luck hun :)

Answer 3

You need to find help. Don't worry what people think, you will be better when you do. You need a professional to help you through these emotions and there are others out there like you. I'm sure you could find someone that was in your position and they can help too.
Check out this found on the following site:
For more information about teen self-injury such as cutting and how to get help, go to the web site of The Center for Young Women's Health at http://www.youngwomenshealth.org/si.html, or call S.A.F.E. Alternatives (Self Abuse Finally Ends) at 1-800-DONTCUT (800-366-8288).
Remember that there is always help and that you can get through this confused state you are in.
Good luck.

Answer 4

I know you think that you have no where to go but you do. If you are having suicidal thoughts you can go to an ER and they can help. I was like this at one point and I confided in my aunt who is a pediatrician, and she said if I don't get help and it gets worse than go to the ER. I ended up going to my doctor and explaining about the anxiety and depression I had. She put me on antidepressents which REALLY helped. They can be expensive, but since I was still a college student with hardly any income my doctor found me a pharmacy assistance plan and I got the meds FOR FREE! There are things you can do, it just takes a little effort on your part. This is what the best friend is for. Tell her some of the basics and ask her to help get you to a doctor in return for not telling your family and other friends. She should be willing to keep secrecy if you are showing that you are really getting help.
PS: When I was going through this everyone told me to keep my head up and think happy thoughts...it never worked and I hated that more than anything so I am not going to say anything like that to you hun!

Answer 5

My heart aches when I read this. I really wanted to respond last night but had used up all my answers for the day.

Would your best friend be willing to keep conversations confidential? Not share them with anyone else? Could you say to her "This stuff running around in my head... I just need to talk it out. I'm not going to do anything dumb. I just need to talk. Telling other people makes it worse because they'll think they have to do something." Would she work with that?

Thank you for hearing me when you asked about cutting. You aren't alone. I wish there could be some way we could interact more directly.

What to do... well... the short answer is to find some peace for yourself. Please believe me that peace within yourself is completely under your control; even in the midst of the nuttiness going on around you. That's easy to say, and when you get there it will make perfect sense, but starting from where you are it probably seems a long way off.

Answer 6

You really need to go see a doctor about this, you would be surprised at how non-judgemental they are and the resources they can give you to get through this

People that cut themselves are very hurt emotionally and in turn cause themselves pain to cut off the emotional pain they are feeling, as you say you know self harm is wrong and thats the first step, whatever you have been through it lessens with time as you heal
But you need proper care-doctors,counsellors and such-they know how to deal with it

Answer 7

You dont think stupid ... and your not alone ... I know it feels that way sometimes ... but youre not ... I have to admit you do need to see a doctor ... but i only say that cuz ive been in your shoes ... I used to cut myself cuz it turned the emotional pain into physical pain .. and i could deal with physical pain alot easier ... and sometimes i would do it just to feel something ... cuz i know what it feels like to be an empty shell ... I felt like that earlier today actually ... and i brought a bunch of people down ... but its beacuse it feels like no one cares ... but people do care ... its just hard to see sometimes ... even if its people on here ... Cuz i care ... as weird as that sounds ... but what i mean by that is even though I was having a crappy day ... helping people like you that are going through the same thing i am ... helps me ... so if anything .... just try and help someone on here ...who knows maybe it will make you feel better .... I hope things get better and they will ... youre a good person and dont let anyone bring you down....:)

Answer 8

I'm sorry.. Talk to a teacher they will keep it confidential, or principle and will get you out of the home and help you along. You are needed here on earth! Pretty much You made my day hoping i Helped you! Think of every Lil think you done like saying hi to a stranger! I'm sorry. E-mail me or something if you have to.

Answer 9

Don't be broken...choose a better name.....you are a beautiful human being....so young and so much in front of you...you may not know it but you directly and indirectly affect people in a positive way everyday...you just don't realize it. You are important to many people and you will get thru this....you will make yourself have a great Christmas.......

Please don't cut yourself...talk to a friend, teacher, neighbor, priest, counselor, relative

Take Care Friend,

G

Answer 10

hunny, you need to go talk to someone. and seeking therapy is totally normal... we all have our crap we need to deal with. until then, try and make a list of the things that you love to do and start doing them. life is to short, and to wonderful to be doing this to yourself. hurting yourself is doing nothing for you so you need to give that up... put on a happy movie, write in a journal, and get a good nights sleep. everything will be ok... promise... you just need to start making better decisions for yourself and it needs to start now.