I know this is long, but I hope that you read it completely through.
Greetings to you, My mother told me about this question and decided that it would be nice if I could answer also. I am a 33 year old woman with two daughters. I had a baby boy when I was 18, however, I lost him to SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome) when he was a mere two and half months old. I turned from God and started drinking about a gallon of wine per night, if I couldn't afford the hard stuff. I turned to men to try and fill that void in my heart that my sons death had left. As I moved on from one man to the other and one drink to the next, I fell deeper into sin.
I had a daughter whom I sent home with my mother, because I knew the lifestyle I was living was not a good one for her to grow up in. I cared more about my sin than I did about my own daughter. By the grace of God, He kept my daughter safe, by putting it in my heart to send her home with my mother.
I starting doing drugs and when I couldn't afford to just do them anymore I started to sell them. I looked to the porn industry to help earn money for the drinking, drugs, and men. After all, if you are in the porn industry you don't need worry about having money to attract men. You get paid to have sex with them.
When the job with the industry fell through I shacked up with a man that I thought loved me. He beat me and mentally abused me. God in His graciousness, kept me safe through the year and half I was with that man. After he cheated on me and ran off with the other woman, I was at the end of my ropes.
I was living in my grandfather's house that had been sitting empty after my grandmother's death. My grandfather was paying the bills so that I could continue to live under a roof. All the men in my life had abandoned me. I couldn't afford to drink or do drugs and the town I lived in was too small to sell drugs to sustain my habit. I was being sued for an accident that I wasn't even in. (My roommate took my car to work and rear ended another person.) My mother quit talking to me because she couldn't handle the pain any longer. (She totally gave me to God.)
I was beginning to think the my mother would never allow me to see my daughter again. At the moment that I thought she wouldn't let me see her again I went to get her. I brought her back to my grandfather's house. Unbeknownst to me, my mother had followed me for the three hour drive. My brother lied and told her that I was going to run off to another state with my daughter. When I found out that my mother was at grandpa's new house I drove up there and we got into a huge argument. Praise God for that argument!
This was the turning point for me, when Christ started to pull me back to Him. I moved back home with my mom and dad. I found a job in a city an hour and half away. A stable, hard working man came into my life. (It scared me half to death, because he was nothing like I had dated before.) I soon found myself living with him, I found it convenient to live in the same city that I worked in. My dad had the man I was living with investigated to see what kind of past he had. Everything came back perfect. Hard working, Navy man. So, three months later, my dad walked me down the isle and gave me away to my now husband.
It has been almost exactly six years since I married my husband. We have been through a lot of emotional and financial battles together. However, God knows what He is doing! In Romans 8:28 He tells us, "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." And let me tell you, God worked everything together for good.
WHAT LED ME TO JESUS, WAS MY SIN. I knew that I was a filthy sinner who needed forgiveness from Jesus. You see, He died for my sins and took my transgressions upon Himself. Romans 5:8 "But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. 9 Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him."
WHAT HAS HIS FORGIVENESS DONE FOR ME? His forgiveness has given me the promise of eternal life. John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not parish, but have everlasting life." Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." The wages of sin is death and my sin will kill me eventually, however I have hope in Jesus that my soul will live forever in His presence.
God has given my life back to me. My dear husband and I now have full custody of my daughter that I so willingly gave up for my sin. (He is in the process of adopting her now.)God has graced my dear husband and I with another daughter. God has graced us with a family that supports us. God has graced us with food and shelter. God has graced my dear husband with a good job so that I can stay home with our girls and homeschool them. God has graced us with a wonderful church family. Most of all, God has graced us with His grace. Matthew 6:33 Jesus tells us, "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." The "all these things shall be added to you" is our needs. He meets our needs daily.
And now for the rest of my testimony... A couple of months ago a woman asked a question her on Yahoo Answers. She asked people to describe grief. her description of grief was "empty", she also asked if a person could ever laugh again. If you are interested in what I said you can go to my Yahoo 360 at this link to read it. http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-Q5NLIfw7fqjhfoYJDc_8NuM4DA.NdQ--?cq=1&p=7
You will find much more about what God has done for me in my blogs there also.
Thank you for allowing me to answer this question.
I pray that you too will have the peace that God promises us when we come to Him and accept Him as our Savior. He never promised it would be easy, in fact He tells us that it will be hard. But He does promise peace. In Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit (God) is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law.
2007-12-11 17:18:17
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answered by Trust In The Lord 3
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I was 14 when I accepted Christ,I was in church at the time.I was saved by simply asking Him to come into my life and guide me.The experience itself I can't explain in words.It would be like trying to explain the color red to someone born blind, in a way that they can understand it.What led me to Him was the realization that I needed Him;again it is hard to explain the spiritial aspect of it. I saw something different in the people around me that I wanted,but the feeling of seperation of the created from the creator that I felt is difficult to put in words.It was the most unpleasant feeling I've ever had,but upon excepting Him it immediately changed to the most wonderful feeling I had ever experienced followed by an overwhelming feeling of love.What accepting Him has done for me is that it has given me peace and hope at the lowest points in my life.It has allowed me to look at the bodies of those that I loved who have passed away and see just an empty shell,knowing in my heart that the person I loved was not there but had gone on and that I would see them again.It gave me a complete absence of fear when a man hed a gun to my chest in a robbery. It has given me miraacles.I was in a hospital with a cancerous lung tumor and coughing up blood,and three days later I was on my way home in perfect health.The bleeding stopped .a follow up X-ray showed no sign of it and a bronchioscopy showed only what the doctor described as appearing like old scar tissue where the tumor had been.Iam 51 now and could write page after page of how it has changed my life and miraculous events that have occured but the most important of all is the assurance that I have that death will be nothing more than a doorway to eternity and a life beyond anything I can imagine.To the atheist and agnostics who would like to argue about my beliefs I have nothing to say except If I am wrong I have nothing to lose when i die.I have enjoyed a good life.If you are wrong you will lose everything.
2007-12-11 15:38:43
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answered by BlackTalon770 3
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thanks for your question and i'm really sorry about the loss in your life. in a couple of days, we are gonna be remembering my mom-in-laws passing , 3 years now,and it kinda makes this season, not any more fun. BUT GOD is so faithful, He puts the peace we need in our hearts, just at the right time. i was already a believer in JESUS and so was my wife, but the thing that brought me to Christ, was almost 17 years ago, i'm 43 now, i was just a happy go lucky type of guy who went to nightclubs and partied all night, had girlfriends, lived with some of them, did some "crank" so that i could drink more and had alot of fun.BUT at the end of the day, there was this nagging emptiness in my heart and nothing could fill it,and it hurt, because even though i was having fun, life was just like a burden. I tried so hard to get away from that emptiness that the fun things i was doing were becoming addictions and the reality of the emptiness was getting clearer and clearer, nothing could make me happy and all i wanted to do was die, but i knew the afterlife wasnt gonna be any better.my step-daughter was a believer and led me to Christ by the way she had such a great peace and joy about her[ she was only 12]i kneeled down with her at the edge of my couch and said a simple prayer of God, please forgive me for being a sinner and would you please come into my heart and make me born again! and 17 years later here i still am. i'm not perfect and not the greatest example for christianity, but i know i'm loved by the Creator of the universe and have perfect peace and a hope of forever living with Him in etenity! sorry my answer was so long> GOD BLESS you
2007-12-11 15:16:17
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answered by james e 1
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I am so sorry for your lose. I'm sure the pain is so deep you feel like you can't breath sometimes.
I have been in two horrific accidents, they were wreckless drivers. In each accident I lost a close friend and in the second I spent a lot of time in Hospitals and nursing homes for 1 1/2 years. I know even this is nothing compared to losing a child my daughter lost a son that was 2 1/2 months old. (SIDS,Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.) I cried and screamed for months. It was a good thing I lived deep in the desert where no one could hear me but the coyotes who would join me.
I yelled at God I told Him I hated Him. But He never left me even through my hate. He stood by and waited for me to give it all to Him. I know now it made Him sad to see me in so much misery when I just needed to turn all my grief over to Him. He has forgiven me of all the hate and everything else from my past. It's like having a clean slate. He doesn't keep bringing it up. Unlike Satan, who likes to keep making you feel guilty about our pasts.
I have asked my daughter to give you her testimony, her user name is Jennifer Jesus Lover.
2007-12-11 14:46:53
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answered by K 6
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I never found God - we was always there waiting for me.
I was saved by the sacrifice of my Lord Jesus Christ - and by no action of my own.
I keep my faith alive by attempting to be the best person I can be - following to be best of my abilities the laws as I understand them.
The Holy Spirit alone is responsible for engaging my spirit and mind towards heavenly goals.
His forgiveness allows me to continue on in life, without fear. But I am keen to not take advantage of that forgiveness.
2007-12-11 14:39:56
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answered by wigginsray 7
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I was in college. I had a religious background but didn't commit because I remained skeptical. Going to art school in Chicago opened me up to a host of different views and ways of living and I soon became convinced that Christianity makes a lot of sense. I started reading voraciously and learning about philosophy and theology and went on to earn another two degrees. I think the world is fascinating. Grace is what keeps me going.
2007-12-11 14:37:55
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answered by Aspurtaime Dog Sneeze 6
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It was a Casting Crowns song that really led me to him, I was going through a rought spot a year back and it came on the radio. That's when I realized I needed to put my life in His hands and completely trust in Him.
Blessed is the man
who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of scoffers;
but his delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law he meditates day and night.
2007-12-11 14:47:53
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answered by Anonymous
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God was with me as soon as I was born. When your a Muslim you find God from the very beginning, which is the time you learn to understand the world around you at the age of a mature and learning infant. To be precise, I found God when I was 3 year old, from seeing and listening to prayers of my family around me. From that year, I understood who God was and what he expected of us.
2007-12-11 14:40:54
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answered by Anonymous
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Water boarding isn't that bad.... These techniques very likely saved many thousands of lives. Remember L.A.Ex?
2016-05-23 03:59:40
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answered by ? 3
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I am in my life now.
I have not found any god, because I have never lost any god. I was never saved, because I was never in any danger.
2007-12-11 14:38:13
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answered by CC 7
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It's a long story, you can read it here:
http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-7rEUJP4lbqSbntikbR2aAw--?p=20#comment
Forgiveness gave me peace with God, it also teaches me to forgive.
If you trust Him, He will do the same for you.
2007-12-11 14:43:09
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answered by Christian Sinner 7
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