Why is this happening with me...?

Question

I have always had a perfection problem but now it is turning out to be very very bad. I won't start my homework unless I can do it all in 1 day and do it very well. I believe that not turning anything in is just as good as turning something in and failing it so I am not willing to do my work if I can't do it well and all in one day (this includes long term projects). I feel very stressed out due to the fact that I am a senior but I haven't applied anywhere to college yet and I need to do that soon. I also feel a sense of depression because of the death of my mother 5 years ago, I feel like I don't have any true friends, about 2 weeks ago I was assaulted by an unknown gang of kids that didn't go to my school and now I don't really trust as many people, I feel a sense of true happiness borderlying on obsession about a very old Barney and Friends episode coming back on television although I don't truely know how to tell my dad I want to see it (it was my favorite during my childhood).

A psychologist recently said that I may have chronic depression due to the death of my mother which may be causing ADHD in me although it might not be (this is still unknown). I am interested in everything but my school work. I feel like I am completely addicted to television and Yahoo Answers, and video games which I probably am (may not be a bad thing if I can control it). And, I have to wake up in 3 hours to get ready for school. I have a long term project to do for school that should have been due already, I have another homework assignment that I need to do and I feel like I am a failure because all I want to do is avoid EVERYTHING that I NEED to do!

And I NEVER EVER EVER get enough sleep
How do I fix myself and get my life on track???
Thanks for all the help you can give me!!

Answer 1

First, and most importantly, the death of your mother is a major trauma in your life and getting counseling for that and going through a healthy grieving process is necessary. I wonder if you have been avoiding that by all of the activity?

Second, where is your dad in all of this? Why has TV become an addiction? Don't you have rules in the home about that?

I really want you and your father to get some counseling together and begin to live a good life. There is a lot in your post that needs to be looked at and healed.

Please take care and get the help you need.

Answer 2

Start excercising. It will relax you and allow you to concentrate.

I hate to recommend it, but a valium might do you some good too. You are high strung, just like me.

Be careful, you are a prime candidate for addictions.

Answer 3

I think that the Dr is right about the depression. it often causes a person to be a procrastinator. Did they prescribe medication if not then you really need to go back.