I think i suffer from a severe form of depression....?

Question

I used to have suicidal thought and my home life isnt all that great. I am usually very tired and no energy. I always feel best when i am at work or school but bottle up a lot of my rage and anger. When i feel sadness, i donbt show it nost of the time.

sometimes i dont feel anything at all when i really should. Mom ignores the fact that i may be suffering from this and i dont know what to do...

Really, i am stressed out a lot, i feel i cant do anything right for my family, and i feel i am treated differently than how they treat my little sister.

Is there something wrong with me or is it just nothing?

Answer 1

It's not just nothing, it's your feelings and your feelings are important. Teen age angst is normal, but suicidal feelings are not something to ignore.
You mom may be too terrified to even consider the thought that there may be some sort of Dr intervention necessary to help you feel better. All mom's first reaction is "oh, there's nothing wrong with my baby" it's not that she doesn't care, it that she is too scared to think that you may need mental help.
Now, I'm not saying there is a magic pill out there to cure you, but maybe if you talked to a school counselor they could set you up with either regular visits to see him/her or a Dr, get a lot of what you carry around with you off your chest and get the opinion of an outsider, uninfluenced by the day to day goings on of your home.
Talk to your friends, teacher, church leaders, if you don't go to church, pick one and go ask for someone to talk to. Most churches will fall all over themselves to help someone who just walks in a needs to talk.
Most important, talk about it to anyone you trust, the more you keep in inside, the more you will convince yourself that you are defective, and YOU ARE NOT!!!!!!!!!! Everyone has bad times in their lives that make them feel they are losing it or aren't able to do anything right or please anyone including themselves.
Start with school, a teacher or counselor that you can open up to , and love yourself. It's the hardest thing in life to learn how to do, but once you really and truly love yourself for who you are, all your faults included, then you might be able to find some inner peace.
Good luck, and remember no matter how bad the day gets, that day too shall pass and every morning you are given the privilege of waking up is a daily gift from God, and if no one else, God understands.
If your family is not religious, you can still just talk to God in your mind, and he will listen, He will work his Holy Spirit into your life if you only invite him in. God won't send you a letter telling you what to do, but a little voice inside your head that whispers "I love you, you are my child, and I always walk with you, even if you can't see me, I am with you. I can't make decisions for you because I gave you the gift of freewill, but if you listen carefully, I will guide you and protect you by allowing you to see what is the right decision to make"
Sorry to get all Bible thumping on you, but God can give you comfort and strength and confidence you never thought possible if you allow him into your heart.
There was a guy named Al Frankin who played a character on Sat. Night Live, Stuart Smally, looking in the mirror and saying his daily affirmation "because I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and dog-gone-it, people like me" It was meant to be a funny skit, but you should tell yourself something nice about yourself while looking in the mirror, and mean it!! I cannot stress the importance of loving yourself, it makes you a confident person, ready to love people and to allow people to love you in return. Seems so easy, yet it is the hardest lesson we were put on this earth to learn.
That's all I got for you now, but if you want to talk to me, you can click onto my avatar and send me an e mail, I gotta go out into the world right now, but I promise to write back if you do contact me. As you can see, I love to talk, and listen. I am here if you need me : ) please don't hesitate to contact me.

Answer 2

about 5 years ago, I started to fall into a really depressive episode. At first I thought it was only because I had a bad break from a relationship but the feelings wouldn't go away even after I got a new girlfriend. It was wrecking my life until a point where it was seriously affecting my work and personal life.

She was very worried but at the same time couldn't understand why I was still sad and thought that I still couldn't let go of my previous relationship. Being the wonderful person that she is, she put aside her feelings and suggested I go for psychiatric evaluation. Many months later and even more anti-depressants, I was not coming close to being better at all.

After doing some research online, I found out the real cause as you described it really makes a lot of sense and purchased this program. The results were simply astonishing. I read this book over three times and put all words in action. Using this method, I've kept my depression at bay ever since. Up to date I'm still living happily with my girlfriend.

Depression Free Method?

Answer 3

I wouldn't say there something wrong with you; you just missing the love and the attention you deseved; I also wouldn't say you suffering from severe depression. It sound like you not getting the love and attention you want and need because of other family members. That's what bring on the sadness, anger, rage and the feeling of being tired and depression. Its hard on anyone to a back seat seat when they are use to getting all the attention and focus; you should sit down with your family and let them know how you feel, so they can see what they are doing to you intentionally and hope that they will open their eyes and start giving you some of the love and attention you need. If that don work take to your guidance councilor at school. Trust me I know my wife and I made the same mistake with my son when our daughter was born and we did realize the pain and hurt we was cuasing my son until he brought it to our attention. It sad but it true that parents do tends to focus all the attention on the younger child and forget to give the oldest the attention they need. I am sorry that this is happing to you and I want to apologizes for you parents in advance. Lets hope that they realize the pain they are causing you and stop it and start giving you some of that attention and love you require and deserved.

Answer 4

There is nothing wrong with you the best thing to do is to speak to your parents about how you feel they are treating you worse than your little sister and also you need to find a way to aleviate your stress because that is one of the reasons that you are having suicidal thoughts, etc. The best thing to do is to share all your feelings, thoughts and ideas with your best friend not just a friend but someone who has always been there for you and always will be.

I also went through a stage like this just a year ago and I still remember how it felt so I know how you feel.

Answer 5

You are more certainly suffering from severe depression.
Some of the most common and telling symptoms of depression are suicidal thoughts, feelings of guilt and hopelessness, anger, lethargy, loss of interest in things you used to enjoy etc. Look here...http://www.helpguide.org/mental/depression_signs_types_diagnosis_treatment.htm
It will probably only get worse if you let this continue. Go to your primary doctor and explain how you feel, and then ask him to please talk to your mom for you--maybe she will believe a doctor more than you, because they are a voice of authority. Then hopefully you will be able to get a therapist and some medication and eventually feel better.
Good luck. I know it's hard, but things can and will get better. It's an uphill battle, but when you get well, you will see it was all worth it.

Answer 6

I wouldn't say it's "nothing" it bothers you enough to ask the question!
If you are in school, go talk to a council er. If you are out of school, investigate what is available to you and go talk to a professional. It may be normal or it may not. Either way talking to a professional can't hurt you the worst that could happen is that you do nothing!

Answer 7

The first and most importatnt part of the cure is recognizing the problem. Now go get some professional counseling.

Answer 8

You need to talk to your doctor about your feelings. You might also talk to a school counselor or pastor to help you sort out your emotions. The longer you bottle them up, the easier it will be to blow up. Whatever emotion you are feeling you need to let it out.

Answer 9

i have been going through some things lately as well, it might help to talk about your feelings, if you would like my email is [e-mail] feel free to say what ever, sometimes it helps to get the opinion of another person

Answer 10

I suffer from chronic depression... and it sounds like you might too.. talk to your school counsler about it..... he or she can probably get you the help you need ........ hope thhis helps =)