How Do I become More Loving?

Question

I just have this natural hatred .... if I meet someone it usually takes me a while to actually like them. I miss the old me....... I'm cold a bitter now. I'm judgemental too.










P.S sometimes I just get hateful towards the holy spirit and say everything nasty against him...... I'm sick of this I want it dwelling in me again.














I'm growing impatient.






The other night I was in bed I was sooo intoxicated I was getting scared I asked God to help I felt calm once I done that but then I felt something angering coming over me and told me I am not his child. I almost took a heart attack until I asked for mercy. So scared right now.








I'm worst than the pharisees.








I walked away from the faith and I can't get it back?

Answer 1

On you Megan, personal my relationship of god, keeps me from being able to loss him, but I can't ask him for more then strength so a trade off. That aside, to become more loving, you most understand what love is, which I'm more then sure you don't. Its a primitive thing, its a raw thing, it is the THING that allows you to feel ANYTHING!!!! Hate is actually the TOTAL absents of love, which is only possibly when you FEEL nothing, nothing! That aside, you want to be more loving, accept the feelings you feel and STRIVE to understand them, what path you find from their is your own....