im in torment.....in two minds....wanting to give up, find some unit or supported housing place, out of the city, away from multiculturalism...in a small village area...like a home where all my responsibilities were taken away, i was living around others and i was being taken care of......didnt have to face up to the harshnesses of my life.
im 30 years old, i live alone in a one bedroom flat on sickness benifits in cheshire.
i have borderline personality disorder and everyday of my life is struggle. ive never ever made no friends in life....never been in a relationship ever...never been employed....never gained any qualifications......ive suffered tremendously in my life....sexual abuse...attacks...victimization...bullying....i have a criminal record for assault that happened years ago.
im trying to seek help, im wanting a 2nd opinion, because im worried i have PTSD along with the borderline personality disorder, plus my present psychiatrist wont give me any medication
2007-12-09 09:49:48 · 9 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
because he said there addictive and wont treat my symptoms.
i get bad anxiety where im isolating myself and not going out.
only going out when i need to.
i have alot of anger, that im controling well, stemming from all
the bullying i recieved throughout life.
but i worry because its so easy for me to lose control and have an
aggressive outburst.
my thoughts race everyday, where i cannot think strait or concentrate.
i have very low self esteem and find it difficult to form friendships or
relationships. im clingy, needy. and im normally rejected because of it.
i feel extremely depressed because it feels like im going nowhere in my life.
my goals feel so unobtainable.....to live in a coastal village area, quiet nice,
area.......to have a loving partner....my own home...an ok job.
2007-12-09 09:50:12 · update #1
thats it, thats all im after, but because of my predicament, these things are
out of reach, and thers no easy to get these things.
im fed up, lonely and isolated...and i just want the easy way out.
can someone help?
2007-12-09 09:50:31 · update #2
Even with everything that is happening YOU are still really loved. Loneliness is a curse, all of us feel it - even those that are together, even those who are out drinking in a group, everyones just putting a face on, trying to fit in. It hasn't worked out yet for you, it can seem so harsh & what is it for? Just tests really and yes some of us just don't think we can take these tests. You cannot see me, but my heart is with you & I can hear your soul, your pain & I send my love to you, my spirit knows you, loves you and you can know that without hurting yourself. You don't have to see me but I am here - whenever I can be - I am here for YOU! x xx x
2007-12-09 10:51:16 · answer #1 · answered by Could be happier 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Have you looked into groups such as AA, SA, or other groups that offer support. Another place to consider is church--although you should find one that you feel comfortable going to. You can also look to volunteer--as long as you don't expect anything in return. The reward is the good feeling you get by making someone Else's life better. As far as relationships are concerned (and I know what it's like to struggle with them), you can try this--just practice being a loving person. It is like the golden rule: if you treat others like you want to be treated, you are more likely to get it in return. When you try to find or get love, it doesn't seem appear very often.
It's time to get tough on yourself! The life you want is going to take a lot of work, struggle, and persistence. If you don't do these, then you already know what kind of life to expect because you're already living it. Decide what is right, be committed to what your beliefs are, and then take action. Once you do this on a daily basis, you'll start to realize that you feel happy, better about yourself, and a positive outlook on life. Again, check out religion because a strong faith in a higher power can be all you have at times while you are starting out on your new path in life.
I hope this helps you and I wish you success!
2007-12-09 18:57:37 · answer #2 · answered by X-factor 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
is there anything you are good at....or have always wanted to do that you could pursue ?? my brother in law Jimbo runs an art class for people with mental illness. he's pupils have become very supportive of each other and in two cases actually found a relationship.....the truth is, there are no short cuts. low self esteem is a bloody hard thing to over come. i would say enrol your self into some thing you feel reasonably confident with. say a collage pottery course 'or similar' and once you have found some thing that gets you among people and 'hopefully' fires some hope into your life, make up your mind to not...NOT!! talk about your mental illness to people. then you'll be on equal terms and hope fully have a better result than before. you really need to find that little bit extra that we all know you have inside you.....or you wouldn't have the courage or the good sense to ask for some advice in the first place. medication is just a tit to suck on my friend. you dont need that. you need to make up your mind to be all that you can be and go for the hard slog. i wish you all the luck you need.
2007-12-09 20:42:37 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
What you want is a pipe dream, to live in some perfect Shangrila and are taken care of. That isn't a life, that's a sentence!
I strongly suggest you get your act together, get counseling and begin to turn your life around. You are having a really good pity party and are not taking responsibility for your life. You are an adult, start acting like one.
2007-12-09 18:25:59 · answer #4 · answered by MadforMAC 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
if you don't have a family member or at least one good friend that you can talk with, then it's time to make a good friend or start becoming closer to some family member. remember this tho, you've got to be a good friend to have good friend. i'm 52 years old and i really can not believe to this day that i lived through my twenties. i'm glad i did tho. my life is pretty good now and i finally have made some life long friends. education changed my life. it's that simple. most of my good friends are educated also. this is just my story. i hope it helps. one more thing: sobriety is amazing!
2007-12-09 18:10:02 · answer #5 · answered by watchthesky 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Maybe talk to another psychiatrist about meds. Try to be friendly to people and eat a healthy diet. Take the easy road in life.
2007-12-09 18:22:38 · answer #6 · answered by ted j 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
"Don't give up until you look up at the silver cloud and ride that highway in the sky".
Do one positive thing every day. Write down what you did.
You can't do so many positive things without something positive happenning to you.
Good Luck!
2007-12-09 18:00:41 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I understand that you've had a hard time, and you get my sympathy. What you have to do work out what you yourself can do about it. Screw off everyone else if you don't think you can trust them. Find something strong in yourself, there's nothing to lose!
2007-12-09 18:07:26 · answer #8 · answered by schming2005 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
yes, I think you should get down on your knees & pray...
just talk to God as He loves you more than you ever will know & He loves you as His child & cares for you...just tell Him as if He was present , everything that is bothering you, or write a letter if it helps.
I promise you things will change, & He does listen.
xxxxmerry Christimas
2007-12-09 18:53:00 · answer #9 · answered by glgl 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋