I've been feeling "dead" since I was 14. im 20 years old now.
my symptoms where odd so I went day after day ignoring them and contiuned to live life feeling dead. I worked had a couple of relationships all while feeling emotionless and in my head I always just thought it was pubirty. eventully at 19 I decided to look on the net for what could be wrong with me. and I found somthing called "depersonalization" that seemed to some what fit but not fully. I know relize I dont have depersonalization. I left home and couple of months of being away from home I started to feel normal again. I then took a trip back home to visit my mom and stepfather and on the way back in the van I noticed I have alot of anger for him. He emotionally and physiclly abused me. Then Somthing Strange happend it was if he took my sense of self without saying a word and mirrored it onto him and as soon as this happend I went back "into my head" and feeling dead. what the hell is going on?
2007-12-08 07:04:43 · 8 answers · asked by nooooooooooooooopeeeee 1 in Health ➔ Mental Health
I'm not a psychologist but it seems like you cope with the situation with your step father by becoming mechanical and emotionless. I think that's a useful way of coping with situations where there is no love and you have to function, but you need to be able to switch out of that and not remain feeling 'dead' at other times. I think you just have to decide that you choose to 'get along' in certain situations by mirroring the indifference (in certain job situations & social situations) but when you feel at home and you're with people who care for you, then you should be yourself.
2007-12-08 07:12:59 · answer #1 · answered by the Boss 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Well, I can't tell you that is exactly what your problem is because I am not a psychologist or anything ... but a lot of people who have had a traumatic experience will kind of "go into themselves" and black it all out like it never existed. It is sort of the brain's way of providing a survial technique. I got pregnant at an early age and my boyfriend left me. It was very hard on me. My Mom would tell me things that I said or did that I had no recollection of. I would swear I never did or said these things. I would go for days and not remember what I did .. but at the same time I still was able to work and interact with people. It kind of scared me. After the shock of things wore off I was pretty much back to normal. I went through a lot of counseling. You may try seeing a counselor and try to get things sorted out in your head a little bit. Try writing in a journal ... maybe you will start to see some things that trigger this in you and you will be able to cope better. Good luck to you!
2007-12-08 15:12:50 · answer #2 · answered by MiMi 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Sounds like you do have a lot of anger there...you said that you felt better when you moved away......so I would say to stay away. Do some self study...why do you choose to let him have that power? This sounds as if its about your boundaries & how you let others cross them.........there are also some memory scars there.....if you can figure a way to either get rid of them or replace them with something more loving. You are a beautiful person and you deserve all the gifts that life has to offer.....we all have scars....but do we chose to live with them all the time....no....we strive to find ways of making more good than bad or it wins. Every day is a challenge for us that have been abused....we us that as a gift - how we do that is we look at all that we have learned from it on how to treat others...& help others that way it wasn't in vain. What doesn't kill you will only maky you stronger.
Shine on...!
2007-12-08 15:17:46 · answer #3 · answered by rainbowmatrixs 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
There are certain people that have a negative effect on us, like your stepfather has on you. It is very interesting that you noticed feeling like yourself again when you're away from him. I wonder if he has a bad effect on your mother as well..??
It would help you to address the abuse issues, with or without him. That might make it easier to tolerate being around him.
You may be a sensitive person who cannot tolerate being around negative or evil people. If so, you should heed that.
2007-12-08 15:15:12 · answer #4 · answered by clayinspiration 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
It's a complicated thing, but I understand. I felt that way with my parents, too. I'm 21, married, and I have a kid... I live 3,000 miles away frm my family and I feel normal now. It takes time. Keep working on yourself and start making your own life.
Look up info in depression
2007-12-08 15:09:42 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
sounds like you are depressed, possibly about some things going on in your home life... you should talk to a therapist and possibly get on some medications if necessary... that should help you get back to feeling your normal self again!! =)
2007-12-08 15:07:58 · answer #6 · answered by idgaf 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
well it seems like ur bored of everyday life, find a nise guy and try to get into a really nice relationship and if that doesn't work go on a really nice long cruise, with some friends it's soooo much fun u'll forget about it
2007-12-08 15:10:53 · answer #7 · answered by ~i<3metal!~ 2 · 0⤊ 1⤋
PTSD
Post Traumatic Stess Disorder.
Look that up...
Sounds like what you have.
2007-12-08 15:09:01 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋