why am i so stupid?

Question

im taking review courses, which are 12 hours each with payment
my grandpa insists me on taking it, plus it's too late for refund anyways
he thinks that im incompetent, and there's only about 5% take it
i feel really stupid and incompetent and worthless of going to a well-know university
i asked a lot of people i know from my university and no one, not even 1, is taking it
he says that i must have signed up for it because i was inconfidence, i already failed 2 exams in the same course and that's over anyways
he doesn't know about the 2nd failure, but he wants to me to make up for it by doing good on the other ones
my grandpa went to the best university in our country and i guess he did pretty good there, too
everyone in my family, even relatives are know for their intelligence and i feel stupid
i got 136 from an online iq test, but i guess that doesn't mean anything now
im dumb, why am i even in this university anyways

although im getting A's and B on the midterm for other courses, such as chemistry, spanish, and biology
i got a C and C+ on my math midterms
im only failing the assignment and the midterms in marine biology
what's wrong with me, i feel like sh*t right now
i've been having severe depression about excessive guilts, but now i feel the kind of depression most people are feeling

this was my only hope to become a surgeon while i was mentally ill, having too much guilt
i was really excited, but now i feel like i have nothing left
even a thought of suicide went past through my mind

first time or one of the very few times crying after having severe depression for 3 years

Answer 1

Back of Head

Answer 2

Einstein's teachers thought he was retarded, don't let anyone, including grandpa, ever make you feel you are too stupid to understand anything. Keep trying, and if you don't get into university, it's not the end of the world, it's just another path you will be going on that is a better one for you. And there's life after school, a lot of it, and the things you experience there are very often nothing any school class could prepare you for. You will do fine, I am sure of it.

Answer 3

you are NOT stupid at ALL!!! You are smart enough to know that you ned help and you ask for it by posting this question. Understand and live by this thought.....There are book smart and there are street smarts. Although people tend to categorize by the two, there are an idefinite comparison of smarts. You are doing just fine in your studies. You are just a perfectionist and are havinga hard time coping with the imperfect results that you are obtaining. The best remedy to your situation is to find yourself.

College is hard hard time for us becuase we are pushed into making life altering desicions and that puts a lot pressure on us. picking a career is much more than just deciding what it is that I want to do for the next 4 years. We are forced to choose and decide what it is that we want to do for the rest of our lives at a time in which we dont even know ourselves enough to be able predict wha it is that we are going to be happy doing in the future.

I think that you are just going through a period of self discovery and the way that you are doing that is by comparing yourself to evybody around you. And sometimes being different feels stupid....but the feeling doesnt last long. and in time it becomes a neat thing to feel different.

The trick to overcomig this is by not letting the deppression take over you. Because you have to know inside that you rae stronger than that. Any self destructive image that you hve of yourself is NOT real. Have you ever thought to yourself that maybe you might just an artist instead of surgeon.

Life is a journey. Dont forget to play along and have fun at the time that you are getting to know who you really are. Have fun, experiment with different things. You never know, it might be even more simple than you think....and the answers that you so desperately are in search for is closer to you than you know.

Answer 4

Obvoiusly, you are not dumb. However, there's something or someone distracting you. You need some counseling on how to deal with stress and they offer that at every university. Also, every one has problems in college but you shouldn't dropped out for being on a tough class just get tutoring pass the class and go to the next one. You don't need that many math classes anyhow.

Answer 5

Ok perfect you have the opportunity to study in a good universtiy and you count with your grandpa to motivate you. so please don't think anymore about suicide. You are extra lucky a lot people wants to have the opportunity to live and another people wants to have the opportunity to study. In my personal opinion the only thing that you need to do is STUDY to pass the exams and stop thinking that you are stupid of course you not are an stupid person I think you are a brilliant person so keep going and put concentration in your studies and please be honest with your grandpa he will understand you because he loves you. Don't think about suicide anymore. ( I feel embarrased to write to a person that is in a university because my writing is extremely bad, but I was really worried when i read that you are thinking about suicide so i hope you can understand what i am writing)

Answer 6

you're not stuid, you're just better in some subjects rather that others. Also if you keep saying to youre self im stupid, youre going to go worse. Just stay postitive and work hard on the subjects you excell in and you can get a job in one of those subjects

Answer 7

picture yourself doing it (being a Dr. or whatever)change your negative thought habits into positive ones. keep on imaging your self doing it. mind multiplies the times of mental habits of belief s that support you creating what you want in your life.

Answer 8

don't try to live up to the expectations of others, live to be who God created you to be take some quiet time to your self some where peaceful and think, get a hold onto who you are as a person, ask God to show you the way your path and when you find out what it is walk in it to please God which will ultimately please you which is most important and pieces of your life will fall together uniquely fit for you.

Answer 9

There is this funny little thing some of us have which is known as "self-esteem". Try developing a little of your own. It might make you feel better.

Answer 10

you're definatly not stupid, yur just overloaded! try to get some respect for yourself, you're doing so much!

& quit beating yourself up! youre a great person.

good luck & God bless you!