Why do I range in emotions so far..... I was diagnosed bipolar when i was 16 but havent taken meds...?

Question

Am I just becoming out of control? When people first meet me everyone walks away with the "comedian" impression. I made them laugh the whole time. But than I feel I'm never as funny as my first time, or as "cool". I'm still funny, just not as funny. Than I shut out people who seem like they dont care for other people. They're self-centered so to speak. Also I'm married.... my poor husband. I havent been burnt too bad by men; never caught one cheating on me, but always have assumed they would. No ex has ever dared laid a hand on me. I'd just dump most of them after a cpl mo after boredom. Kept a cpl but it was always the possesive type. My husband is not a jealous man, hasnt ever cheated on a g/f he was the one always gettin screwed over, he's funny and tries really hard to make me happy. But daily i think HE'S CHEATING ON ME when there is not one hint he might be. I feel like I'm going to drive him away. I loose my temper constantly over sometimes little things... what is my deal?

Answer 1

I am JUST like you. I feel like I have to entertain everyone, I am very animated, but I never feel like I'm funny or cool enough. I also shut people out if they are not as caring or funny or animated as me. And I lose my temper all the time. It's definitely the bipolar disorder. I have it too and I take some meds, but I don't really like them. You might try some meds or consider checking out diet and exercise and other therapies to help. Eating healthy and working out helps me, as does meditation, drawing, and music therapy. The hardest part about bipolar is accepting yourself, because you are different from other people. I try to see it as "special", but sometimes that is hard. Email or IM me if you want to talk about it some more.

Answer 2

There is a range of treatments in section 10, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris. Try to manage without prescription medications, seeing as how you have made it to this point without them. Also see anger management, in section 4, but it would work much better, if you were using effective treatments. Maintain the core treatments in section 2, as a preventative against the depressive phase, and the relaxation, and/or EFT is also helpful with anger management. Understand, and accept that nobody expects you to perform, and be funny all the time: occasionally is enough. Tell your husband that you know that sometimes you are difficult to live with, but that you are trying some new treatments, and you would appreciate his feedback, on your changed behaviour and emotional states, over the next few months. I'd first try the dietary modifications, and supplements, and possibly the Gotu Kola. If insufficient, later try the orthomolecular approach.

Answer 3

Part of a mental health issue can be
thinking/believing things that are not true
false perceptions can often be addressed with medication.

My particular issue is/was that I believe people are "out to get me". So long as I take my meds, the false perception fades and a genuine observation is possible. This in turn settles down my emotion and defenses and I am more capable of having a positive relationship in marriage.

Bipolar people can feel pressures others do not sense,
then they act or react in ways others do not understand.
False perception can cause unpredictable decisions or reasoning.
Unwise words or actions may arise out of false beliefs.
The real world still has consequences, regardless of what you are perceiving.
Funny doesn't fix everything - it just postpones it.

Getting psychological or medical help tailored to your particular needs can make a world of positive difference in your relationships.

Answer 4

Being bipolar is not something that will go away on it's own. It is usually something that has to be controlled with medication and sometimes therapy. You cannot help your condition and you cannot wish it away. You should see a mental health professional. If money is tight, most cities have free or income-based services. You could probably benefit greatly from some counciling for a while and ongoing medication therapy. Bipolar disorder can be difficult to keep under control, but with medication, you can have many "normal" days.

Answer 5

I was diagnosed with BP 6 years ago. However, looking back, I see that it was there long before that...just manageable. It has gotten worse with age, even with meds.
I was in denial that I had it for the first few years. I refused treatment. Trust me, those were the hardest years both for myself and MY FAMILY.
I am no longer in denial, and have found that you can actually live a healthy, productive life, with proper care and treatment. My roller coaster rides are much fewer and farther between these days.
Don't be afraid to ask for help, and seek treatment.

Answer 6

Why don't you see a psychiatrist re meds? Bi-polar disorder worsens with age. I should think that you would want to level out your emotions so that your 'poor' husband remains your husband.