My parents are blind, dumb-asses. What do I do?

Question

My mom is turning into a ghost-like "single" parent and my dad always wants more from us (and our dog) he is a perfectionist and he yells at us and I am scarred of him. They allways take it out on me and then they send my to therapy because they are wondering why they found poem about suicide under my bed.

What the hell am I supposed to do?

I am going to try and run away for a little bit.
They just freak me out.
ALOT!

One of my (very short) poems:

I write poems; to get my feelings out
I blast music; to get away from life
I hide in my room; so no one can find me
I cry and scream; because nobody hears me
I run away; so that I can never look back
I silently tremble; for I will never fight you
I have the worst friends; because they are afraid of the dark
I have parents who try to fix me; when I am not broken
I read and I read; to escape the maddening ends of this world.

Just wrote this sucker like 5 minutes ago.
I write lots of poems and I know how to hide them better.
PS I am taking anti-depressents to make me feel "better"

Answer 1

You have to realize that parents are only human, too. ALL parents scre w up at some point... some just more than others. It's not your fault. Just keep telling yourself that... it's NOT YOUR FAULT. When they do things that displease, hurt, or scare you, remember that... and feel sorry for them that they have failed rather than beat yourself up for it.

In all likelihood, hon, YOU are NOT to blame for any of it.

Answer 2

Has your father ever done anything where you should truly be afraid of him? Anything more than "yelling" i.e. raising his voice? Is it possible that you are over-reacting to your parents? I'm not saying that they are perfect - nobody is. The fact that they sent you to therapy after finding the poem shows that they were scared and care very much about you. I know, not what you wanted to hear... I think that getting attention from a therapist is a great thing - it will give you the opportunity to let them know what is going on in your household and in your life and then to ask them how you might best cope with it to keep your sanity. A true perfectionist is really hard to live with. Maybe he just feels that you have a lot of talent that you aren't utilizing - he probably just wants to see you be your best and have the best in life. It's what we all want for our kids, but sometimes we don't get that message across very well.

Answer 3

Well, for starters, hide your poetry a little better ;) . As an artist writing poetry is a way to express how we really feel, or sometimes how we want to feel. I'm sure you can think of some things that could bring a smile to your face about both of your parents, write about that and "hide" it someplace they will look. When you write to let out frustration, make sure its hidden in a place that will not be found or burn it. Its an old tradition in our family to burn out the bad feeling on paper. sometimes it works. Usually it doesn't, but it will never be read. This wont help too much with your parents, but it might help you make it till you can get out of the house. Good luck.

Answer 4

I am sure that you have heard this before, the older you get the smarter you parents get.

What would do if you found the same note under your daughters bed, this is assuming that you make it long enough to have children?

You say that your mom is a ghost-like single parent, are they seperated or divorced? It is hard to second guess. You say your day yells at "us" does that mean you and your dog, or do you have siblings? Why are you scared of him? Has he threatened you, told you that he was going to do harm or what? Again it is hard to second guess.

What is their side of the story? Just because you say something doesn't make it right. In fact with what little you have said I am asking myself why I should even listen to you. With what you have said yourself it sounds like they have every right, and duty to treat you like an unstable little child.pp

Answer 5

i know what the hell you shouldnt do : suicide.
Get that out of youre head please.
you are still young and still have so many great things to live for.Right now you're having a hard time i know i to had always problems with my parents 10 years long but time is the best advicer you will find a way out. I went to live alone and now live with my girlfriend this is the best time of my live and everything is ok now. Good luck and please don't do that thing burn the poem as a sign u have burned that idea away

Answer 6

Go to therapy, and spill the beans on your entire family life.

And then make the decision to become a better person than either of your parents are, and make a life for yourself without them. Good luck to you, sweetie. It's amazing how some parents will scream 'bad child, bad child. Let's send them to therapy to be 'fixed' ' when all the time it's the parents who need the fixing.

Answer 7

if i found anyting to do with suicide under my daughters bed id be very scared which im sure ur parents are..

sounds like ur going threw a rebelious stage which unfortunately alot of us go threw...

u tink ur parents r the worst people ever all they do is ruin ur life never let u do anything and u tink they hate u!
its normal hun i swear u will realise in a few years the reason for some of there choices, promise!

Answer 8

If your reading or writing poems about suicide, you should let your therapist know. Don't be too quick to blame your parents, take a good hard look at yourself first.

Answer 9

this is going to soundskinda stupid based on the fact that you clearly are somehow conflicted with them, but you should really talk to them and tell them that all that is because of them and tell them how they make you feel[ but dont tell them its thier fault]. tell them everytime they yell at you of punish you or whatever they do, it makes you so tired of being their punching bag. tell them that whatever is happeniong between them doesnt involve you enough to be beaten[figurtivellly] and tormented like that with their own problems. i mean i know how you feel, and you really need to explain how eveyrhting is affecting you more than they think.sorry if this doesnt help. and good luck with everything. life always some how works out in the end[yea i know thats kinda weird but trust me it does :]]

Answer 10

Try being honest with your therapist. Then, try being honest with your parents.

And, take forward into your own adulthood the lesson that YES! Divorce DOES screw up the kids! And never let that happen to yours if you have them.

Good luck, honey. You are in my prayers.