I am 16years old. The most I have weighed this year is 136, the lowest is 101. My weight goes up and down. I weigh 115 now. I have to stop throwing up, but I really don't want to. The thing is, I don't care about dying... All I care about is being thin. I've had an eating disorder since I was 13. I've now recently started throwing up this year, it's harming my friendships. My weight is under 105 most of the time, but then I binge and then I get fat because I don't feel like throwing up. When I feel fat or ugly, I refuse to leave the house. I just ate two pizzas at a friends. She thinks I have a high metabolism. I told her I had to leave because I felt like I had fever. I left to throw up. I am afraid I did not get all my food up. I need advice on how to be more effective in my purging but I also need someone to help me care about myself. Does that make sense?
2007-12-01 12:27:35 · 13 answers · asked by Jane 1 in Health ➔ Mental Health
My mom freaking knows.. She KNOWS.. Why wont she help. I can't stop. They all know. I cut too. and no, I'm not trying to do this for attention.
when I see fat or ugly people, it's my trigger.
2007-12-01 12:38:17 · update #1
I AM NOT your average girl. I'm a natural blonde who dyes their hair dark almost black brown. I get called "emo". I'm not trying to be skinny to fit in.
I don't fit in, and don't want to.
2007-12-01 12:40:32 · update #2
I am also on Zoloft (anti depressant)
2007-12-01 12:43:19 · update #3
I just want to love myself. Part of me cares, Part of me hates myself and wants me to die of starvation. That part tells me to be thin.
2007-12-01 12:45:17 · update #4
I'm also scared i'm going to hell for harming myself, that is my main concern. God. My problem consumes me.. I want to stop so i'll go to heaven.
2007-12-01 12:47:10 · update #5
hi im 16 too. im struggling with my weight too. i just started taking prozac a couple of days ago, but i was told by my docter to talk to them right away if i had more thoughts of sucide , u said you dont care about dying .maybe thats because of your medicine. but im not sure, but does zoloft help bulimia? because prozac is supposed to . maybe you should switch. if you would like to talk to me more about eating disorders/how you feel/ feeling as thin as you want to be/all the teen drama, email me at alyssa_012@yahoo.com
2007-12-01 12:47:14 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Hey Chic,Its me again. :) Sorry you are having such a hard time. Let me begin with the only thing that will get you to heaven is accepting Christ into your heart. Realizing that he died for us, and is wating in heaven for us to accept him so he can accept us into his kingdom. Sorry to get all preachy, but the point is that good works and good deeds (or bad deeds for that matter) are not what get you to heaven, or keep you from going there. That being said, purging is soooo hard to stop, especially alone. You need a support system. Think of this, do you want to purge only when you have binged? or do you purge even a small amount? There's no doubt that you need the help of a counselor about your ED. Do you cut b/c you feel like you have unfairly judged fat or ugly people and feel that you need to pay a consequence for that? Is it that you hate judging ppl because you hate being judged yourself? Yet you continue to try to conform to a certain standard so that you aren't criticized by others. I know how you feel on so much of this. I know this may not have helped but maybe it has given you something to think about. Email me if you want. :)
2007-12-03 01:12:04 · answer #2 · answered by BNic 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I think you should seek some counseling. Therapists have some fairly effective techniques for working with this problem. The first thing is that you need to develop a healthy sense of self-esteem and understand what your true worth is, and it is not based on looks. You are young and have your whole life ahead of you. Just think of how much good you can do and how much happiness you can bring others. That is where your self-worth lies. Enriching other people's lives will enrich your own.
2007-12-01 12:47:45 · answer #3 · answered by cavassi 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I've been there, sadly. The only way I got over it was by forcing myself not to binge, and then if I did binge, I would NOT allow myself to purge. This was about 10 years ago.
It required praying a lot.
I think you should go to Overeaters Anonymous, it's a 12 step program and you'll get tons of support from people who have various types of eating disorders.
You might need medication to get you through this too, so you should consider going to a psychiatrist.
2007-12-01 12:35:07 · answer #4 · answered by Shana B 6 · 0⤊ 1⤋
you should really get help. cuz bulimia is deadly and even tho u say u don't care if u die there is still the portion of you that cares cuz ur obviously not dead. u should rly figure out why u feel the way u do and try to solve it. don't let ppl say ur fat or ugly because in the long run thats what they feel bout themselves & they just want u 2 feel miserable
2007-12-01 12:37:03 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I know it may seem difficult for you, but you need to get help. Talk to your parents. if you can't do that, talk to a counselor at school. Your life is too important to be going through this confusion. You were meant to be more and do more in life. You have a problem. Please talk to someone about getting help. You may not care about dying but can you think of the hurt you would be putting those who love you through?
You posted your question as a means of seeking help. now take the next step and speak to someone about your problem. Please. My prayers go out to you. Be strong.
2007-12-01 12:38:06 · answer #6 · answered by Wayne G 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
yes you do make sense to me, you young really young and I know the pressure from life daily gets to you, do you ask yourselves why you doing it? to fit in? to be like the girls/woman you see in the magazines, or to fit in at school eith the popular once? .,, you know its not good , OK what you should consider is to be ''special'' in other ways , what do you like to do, you have any hobby's , sports, or do you want to be some one when you a view years older? look at the future a view years from now, I can tell you ( i am older than you but Ive been there to) that a boy dos not like a bony girl they really don't .. they find that disgusting actually. If you want control, try some thing where you good at and develop arts, sports, PC, books anything the world is yours.. good luck use your intelligence for a bigger goal, not the one you doing now you now yourselves that's not IT... x
2007-12-01 12:36:47 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
You need to seek psychiatric help. Bulimia is a serious disease that will take your life if you continue. Not to mention the fact that your teeth will rot because of the stomach acids you are purging.
2007-12-01 12:32:05 · answer #8 · answered by Lauren 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Doesn't your family noticed your weight change?
Is that the reason why your do this. Is there something going on at home? Your trying to get attention?
Just curious, what triggered your eating disorder.
2007-12-01 12:31:06 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
i understand
you need to get help i no its hard
i have problems witht he eating disorder Pica im drawn to eating soap and i dont care if it kills me i cant stop
im getting help
you should try
this isnt gonna end well.
2007-12-01 12:31:41 · answer #10 · answered by dramaqueen..† 2 · 1⤊ 1⤋