i have too much weight on myself, what should i do?

Question

i think im the only one that believe that im going to get punished if think that i've done something to get punished and it even affects my every movement and thought, is this only me?
when i get rid of one thing, it comes back again with a different plan and weapon that i'll be easily subdued to
such as a point that i haven't considered wakes me up and i start feeling guilty again
i have considered every possible point from every angle for every guilt i had, which is a really cumbersome habit
i don't know if i should be guilty or not
should i move on regardless of any extremes i take, such as unwanted thoughts, such as blasphemy, and saying them out loud because of frustation, then i become more guilty

by the way the blasphemy i said was f***king jesus
you know what, i just don't feel i get the right answers if i don't say everything i know with the truth co-existing inside it

one other thing, i get to focus on some movements i take when i suddenly think about it or for some extended period
how can i get rid of this, i think im trying to let myself now
i don't want to, i want to become really good-looking
is this depression?

Answer 1

You do need some professional help. I have the same problem but to a much lesser degree.

When dealing with people, I try to tell the truth so I don't have to lie and that way I don't feel guilty. When working, I do my best. When I don't want to answer a question because it will make for an awkward situation, I say, "I don't want to answer that." or "Why do you want to know?"

I find that hard work and telling the truth and just being an honest person, lets me sleep at night. If it helps, go to a priest, confess your past sins so you have a clean slate.

Answer 2

Learn from your mistakes by reflecting on them but don't dwell on them. If you have a faith then recall that Christ was supposed to forgive so you and others should do so too; expect it.. I was raised a Christian but I am no longer that so have gotten rid of a lot of fears about punishment; Churches have a tendency to want to convict and punish; a person can get into that pattern of thinking... Consider this, Christ was a troublemaker (Matthew !0:34-35) in addition to having uttered a lot of good rules about behavior.

There you see I have blasphemed but don't have any guilt about it. I sincerely believe if you stop believing you were born evil (original sin) then you have gained an immense freedom. Babies aren't evil ; they're honest.Teachers and preachers have to convince them they are bad.

Forgive others (including your pastor) and your self and be really "born again."

Good luck in unloading your mind of guilt, good mental health, peace and Love!