family issues?

Question

I'm Dan and I am 17 years old. I have had a great relationship with my parents for 17 years and have had virtually no fights, I never screamed "I wish I was dead" or "I hate you". My parents have always bragged that we've had no problems. Lately however it seems to be all unraveling. Things around my house seem to be very strained my Dad hates his job my mom is being irrational and yells alot. We have huge fights with my family and have quite a few problems there my grandmother is mentally unstable and an alcholoic . I am having trouble getting along with my parents latley I am homeschooled and I am going to college in january. My mom feels like she got robbed of school time I feel like she holding me back. I dont have any true friends and no girlfriend so I feel lonley a lot of the time.I want to get out and go to college now. I have taken my GED and my parents support me to a degree but I still feel imprisoned I play videogames and read to pass idle time but I feel imprisioned. Help

A few detais I went to school until 6th grade and I am not going away to college the college I am attending is a block away. Part of me wants to go away to college but I cant afford it and I cant imagine how my parents would take it. I have one friend but hes not much of a friend he is more than happy to screw me at any possible time to meet his own ends. My dad works at home and my mom doesnt go out much. I hang in my room as much as possible but still im in in the suburbs and theres nothing to do in walking distance. I am not athletic and sports bore me but Im desperate to get out of my house I stare at the ceiling all day and struggle to focus on anything. I have become very unhappy latley. Oh and just to add something here Thanksgiving was a disaster with my mom and my drunken grandmother fighting and nothing seeming to work out there is so much tension here you could cut it with a knife. I hope im not whinning about my problems but I dont feel like I have anyone to talk with.

my dad makes over 100thousand a year but we still have a lot of finacnle issues, were by no means rich. My grandmother is handicapped and lives a couple of blocks away. Shes horrible to everyone around her especially to my grandfather. I dont want to see her again until her funeral. Fights with my family probly arent bad compared to many but since we never had them before it seems particulary bad to me. I tried to solve some of my problems of lonlyness with xbox live but that doesnt really work. I like videogames but there more of a filler to my borring life. I am really losing it inside my home. I am torn with my love of my home town Buffalo ny and my wanting to get out and mve to some large city like NY or LA. I hope the flow of anaswers continues as I am really having trouble here. Thanks for all your help

I know I asked this a few minutes ago but I wanted to make it a fresh answer with all the details I have added. THe answers I recived before are all great thanks for your time

Answer 1

Dan. I read your narration thoroughly and I can feel the pain you are in.You should have some patience and trust in God.The dark situation will not remain the same for ever.Suppose you are in a forest in midnight and every where it is dark. You are unable to see any thing. If you try to walk, you dash against a rock or tree or fall into a pit. It does not mean that it will always remain dark. In due course of time sun will rise and all darkness will be gone.The same will surely happen with you too. Have trust and courage.

Answer 2

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