Will someone listen to my confessions?

Question

Right, so i'm trying to move forward in life, and to do so I feel like I need to tell *someone* the more serious things i've done wrong in the past. Since I don't have anyone in the 'real world' who I want to talk to about such things, i'm posting them here.

I hope no-one asks for this Q to be deleted, and that readers can understand thst i'm just trying to clear my concience and get some Christian guidance as to where to go next.

So, without further ado, my confessions:
- Stole about £2000 worth of drugs
- Pulled a knife on a guy who jumped my friend
- Put a knife to a guys throat 'cause he wouldn't stop bugging me to have sex with him
- Made out with him anyway for free drugs
- Made out with another guy to get hold of his Gold creditcard
- Kicked a guys shins in with steel toe-capped boots and then pushed him into a road because he tried to knife my friend
- Committed about £5,000 worth of fraud between the ages of 12 and 18, and an additional £3000 in fraudulent mobile

Phone contracts
- Dealt stolen drugs in high-school during maths and physics lessons
- Ripped my mum off to the tune of about £1800 during high-school
- Bullied and humiliated a guy on work experience
- Bullied a guy out of college because he spread a rumour that my (mentally ill) friend was ‘easy’
- Starved a rabbit to death
- Convinced a guy who was cyper-stalking my friend that I had tapped into his PC and had evidence he was downloading child porn
- Gave my religious studies teacher a mental breakdown
- Stabbed my mother in the chest with a pencil

- Locked a teacher out of his classroom so that he had to break in through a closet, thus making every student lose respect for him
- Had phone-sex in a church
- ‘Borrowed’ my mothers car when I was 13 and drove it through a field
- Stabbed a doctor with a pair of tweezers
- Smacked my friends face into a brick wall during an argument
- Beat up a guy in front of about 100 people thus humiliating him and giving him a reputation as ‘the guy that got beat up by a little girl’
- Threw a table at my teacher
- Took class A drugs
- Helped to spread a rumour that a guy I didn’t like was a pedophile

I realise all this lot makes me look like a horrifically bad person, but I’ve also helped a lot of people, done charity work etc, and i’m trying to move out of the ‘rebellious’ stage of my life and into an ‘adult’ one. I would appreciate advice from Christians on where I should go from here to begin turning my life around.

Oh, I just remembered another one:
- punched a girl in the face when I was wearing a huge heart-shaped ring, and even now, 6 years later, she has a heart-shaped scar on her forehead

(this list is a work in progress, still trying to remember everything)

Oh, three more:
- told a woman who was going through a divorce while pregnant that she should sort her own life out instead of relying on my mother for advice
- told my brother that the qualifications he earnt in prison didn't mean anything
- told a cleaner she was worthless member of society

Haha sheep, my dad's a homeless speed addict and I'd have to pretty much 'book an appointment' with my mother if I wanted to talk to her

oneye:
You reach a point where you don't care about getting caught, you just care about getting back on track
brddg:
I'm not trying to make excuses. And I AM trying to make amends off-line. Paying back money right now just isn't possible, because I don't have any. I'm paying for Uni myself and my bank account reads -£70. However, I babysit whenever I'm not in Uni so my mam can work away, saving her like £20 an hour. I taught my brother how to use a computer and retracted my comment about his qualifications. Me and the divorced woman are now good friends. I stopped stealing drugs. I settled down with a steady boyfriend in an exclusive relationship. I am TRYING to fix things in the physical world, but emotionally, the desire to do wrong things and the guilt for doing them never goes away. And sometimes, there are things you just can't fix.

I'd like to thank Dr. Kemp for his answer.

I am also studying Criminology and Criminal Justice so that I can try to help other people like myself.

Answer 1

I'm not a Christian, and I don't have any Christian advice for you...but I do have some advice for you coming from someone who dropped out of high school and wasted 4 years of his life hunting bounties in an inhumane manner on the African Safari for a little extra cash.

There is always hope, and it's never too late to start over again.

I've found that statement to be unconditional through out my life. I made some mistakes, but I got back on my feet. My problem was that I was impatient, and when something didn't happen right away, I gave up on it.

Don't give up, kid. Never, ever, ever give up.

Answer 2

If your Not Saved (Spirit ReCreated) Yet, GOD Almighty is Calling You!!!

For a Short Cut to This Salvation Through Jesus Christ Risen From the Dead---Read Romans 10:9 in King James Bible.
If Done Sincerely, Your Spirit will be Born-Again.
This is Part 1 of Salvation Through Jesus.

Part 2 Takes alot of Diligent Study and Growing in The Lord (Growing Spiritually).

You Take Life "One Day at a Time".
You Grow in The Lord "Precept Upon Precept", "Line Upon Line", "Here a Little" "There a Little".

Takes Time........

Answer 3

Sorry, but the Christians are just going to tell you that God forgives you and therefore no one else has any right to judge you. I think you need to grow up and start taking responsibility for your actions and the consequences of them. Try paying back the money you stole from mom. Try telling the people you hurt that you are sorry for what you did. If they refuse to allow the apology don't push the issue, at least you tried. Coming to a bunch of strangers to confess so you can feel better without actually having to "own up" to what you have done?? Sorry but that's just more sidestepping and evading responsibility!

Answer 4

Yes, God will always listen to you.
Just ask Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior.
And tell God your sorry and confess all your sins to Him.
And here's the ACTS of Praying (in any order):
A-doration : adore God with all you can
C-onfession: confess all your sins to God
T-hanksgiving: Thank God for everything you have as in everything.
S-upplication: Ask Him for what you need.

Everyone has a 2nd chance in God.
Just be a better person.
Read the Bible.
Remember: God Sais "I will never leave you nor, forsake you."
So, Leave your faith.
Share your heart,
Trust in God,
Stand Apart,
Be a light to the rest.

If no one ever listens to you God will always be there just one prayer away.
When Jesus is your Lord and Saviour all your sins will be erased and your soul will be cleansed.

So common pray, today!

Answer 5

factors this can be a dull comic story: a) God does not speak straight to guy b) Satan does not love someone c) satin is a style of material d) God does not must make confessions e) God would not simply kill any individual for no longer believing in him otherwise part of the arena could be useless f) God speaks in waaaay larger grammar g) God could have a % of Jesus or whatever although he DID have and account h) Satan could have an overly dangerous %.

Answer 6

Wow. The question is...are you confessing...or....are you bragging? The reason I ask is this...in confession..it is not contrite typically to "explain" why you did and what the beneficial result was from doing...nor the derogatory result that would make certain people admire, fear or respect you. For instance..."because he tried to knife my friend.." or "humilated him because he got beat up by a little girl.." If you feel you were justified in anyway by doing the things you did for whatever reasons then there is no repentance..not really. I lost my temper a while back and clipped my husband in the lip with a cordless mouse because he said something to me that pissed me off while we were arguing. He has never been violent with me..my actions were uncalled for. Doing something of this nature makes me, if even done once, the type of person willing to physically harm someone else just for spite, out of anger or whatever. Am I a "Sh...itty" person? For doing such a thing...yeah. I am. I've done more than this in my life over time and I hate myself for it. There is no excuse. Moving forward in life is noble...getting past these behaviors is honerable. However, in order to proceed toward a genuine unabashed notion of hating what you have done to others, justified or not, because we all have choices, even ones that would have avoided these situations prompting us to act in such a way...it must be acknowledged in order to really change it. In order to have that mindset...as a believer in God, it must be known what God expects of us as human beings and following that how we treat each other. I'm not saying violence is never the answer...sometimes it is. Yet, in no means should we ever be "proud" of our nack at physically cleaning someone's clock, verbally or emotionally either. Ours is to build people up...not to tear them down. Mostly I would suggest that you avoid confrontational arenas in future. A bad element can bring out the worst in a person because we are tainted by the company we keep. I know...I was raised in a violent, loud, harsh, abusive and chaotic environment...its affected and infected me and the only healing that can be recieved is that from Christ and His atoning blood. I'm far from what I've experienced in the past now...but even still...it rears its hidiously ugly head on occasion and I pray to God someday...I reach a place inside myself where this person I hate just disappears and leaves the rest of me to live for others and for God. Thank God I have an understanding and gentle man who forgave me for that. A certain scene from a certain movie comes to mind...The Breakfast Club. The athelete wrestler played by Emilio Estavez confesses that he hazed a weaker kid by "taping his buns together". Cruel, yes? He had compassion on the kid and was ashamed of the thing he had done even though his father inadvertantly had inspired him to do it and was somewhat proud that his son "cut loose" on someone. Manly behavior...bulling someone? This is not you and I'm not comparing this scene from a mere movie to you or your life...what got me was that his remorse and desire to appologize for humiliating the kid was so sincere...that is how we go to God. We realize what scumbags we are and that the only hope is that He will put that type of compassion on our hearts. Confession, repentance, recognition of what has been done by you and how and why it was performed and then because He forgives you and has taken the due penalty for those actions upon Himself for your sake, you make darn sure you don't do any of it again. Read your Bible, study it, meditate on it and pray...all the time. Begin eliminating the negative influences in your life one at a time...friends, habits, music, movies and books...Clean it up and clear it out. It won't happen over night..I've been at this for a good 11 going on 12 years and still...look what I just did the other day. Yet, I can see how He has changed me even still..because there was a time...when I would have laughed, bragged and been proud of myself for being such a "b'otch". Isn't that the trend now days? If you are going to be something negative...at least be good at it...be it a jerk or whatever other explitive I won't type here...? Seems like a powerful way to be...but in truth..its weak. Takes a stronger person to do as you have also done as well...to help others. That is truely Christlike. ~J~

Answer 7

It is never too late to repent. God is most merciful.
He can forgive you milion time if you are sincere with him.

No need to advertize your good or bad deeds. Just decide what to do next and you will receive accordingly.

Answer 8

Pure & simple what is done - is done. live with the memories as you have no choice. but use them to not do those type of things again.
absolution comes from your deity if you think he/she will forgive you ask for it if not deal with it.

Answer 9

Dreamer ( he answers and asks alot of questions in here LOL .. I love to read his stuff! Always makes me smile !! Is ready and willing to hear your confession!

Answer 10

This post is incriminating, not wise to post all these. Unless you have been caught for these before.