Please Help Me I Don't Know What To Do...?

Question

i did something bad over the summer. i began looking at videos of tickling on youtube and reading tickling stories on a forum. i broke the habit but realized when i had done that sinful act, it had caused me to turn to from God. I tried to get the strong relationship back with him that i had had before but couldn't. I don't know why but i have so much hatred in my heart right now and i just can't take it. at school during the prayers, i say them outloud with everyone else but the words are dry and unmeaningful. Today i went back to the videos and and story forums and enjoyed them. now, as i think back on how sick it is tonight, i can't stand what i just did. my priest always completemtns me to people about how i have such a "strong" relationship with God. I feel like i am lying to myself and others. I don't know what do do. Please help!!!!!!! i want to break this bad habit and turn back to God. But right now I feel like God is there, he just isnt there for me. HELP!

please dont post stupid answers...this is a serious question

Answer 1

M, bless your heart! You are such a wonderful girl to confess your activities before everyone, in hopes that you may find an answer. M, there are times in our lives that we tend to go through, "spiritual dryness." I do not understand why! I think it is a very human thing; however, we know to whom our hearts belong, OUR LORD GOD! Remember, the Book of Job? He too, felt as though God was not hearing him. This man lost everything and felt as though God had turned away. Even so, JOB, never gave up his faith, in God! In the end, God restored all back to Job and much more! This is my prayer for you too, that God will restore your realtionship, with a new found love for Him. That you may draw closer to God through prayer, read your Bible and seek our Lord in all things. May His love fill you, your faith deepened and your relationship with HIM be restored, ten fold!

Remember, M, God is the creator, the lover of your very soul! He knows we fail and that is why Christ came, to redeem us from our sins! In as much, I pray Jesus will take this from you, if only you let Him, He will!
Peace Be With You,
Gail

Answer 2

I will answer this from a protestant perspective, which is my faith.
The Bible says : 1John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. So pray to God the Father in the name of Jesus. Tell Him you are sorry, and you want to quit. Then renew your mind...read and study the Bible, God's word. What we put into our mind, gets into the heart, and will come out. We all do go through things, and it is good that you have realized this, and want to change. Maybe when you get on the computer, look for Christian videos too. I will pray for you and that you be delivered from this thing.

†Prayer Warrior At Your Request†

Answer 3

Laughter is joyous. This isn't porn. I checked out the vids to see what the problem was. If it turns you on, great. I do not see the attraction, sexually, other than it is fun to laugh with your lover. You sound like you are just lonely, turned on by light bondage and laughter. Do you lack a sexual outlet? It is perfectly healthy to watch a little movie and masturbate now and then. Please don't feel so guilty. But, for your own peace of mind, stop doing anything that makes you feel bad about yourself. Life requires balance. I hope you find a loving person who will delight you in the way you prefer and share a long happy life with you.

Answer 4

Easier said than done. What I do is concentrate every morning when I wake up is the day belongs to God. Ihave a bad habit of worring about the day's activities and not what God has planned for me. I say the lords prayer and proceed.

Answer 5

I don't know how to be perfect, so I can't tell you anything about that. I will let those who try to live 'clean Christan lives' tell you all about how to make yourself into something, I see it as vanity.

What I can tell you about is trusting God. Look in Hebrews 11, and you will read about many people who trusted God. And what does it say about faith?

Hebrews 11
2 This is what the ancients were commended for.

So maybe these people had things bothering them too. They could have been guilty of all sorts of things. But they weren't commended for anything they did except for one thing: Trusting God.

As far as sin goes:
Psalm 32:2
Blessed is the man whose sin the LORD does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit.

We all sin. If you want to get away from tickling, stop going there. But you have to fill your time with God, the time you spent with those articles, use it for prayer and reading the Bible.

I figure that the rest of your life you will have those thoughts. As I have thoughts about things as well. But what that does for me, and I hope for you is to reveal yourself as 'not clean' and 'a sinner to the core'. That's what I am, I hold no pretense to being 'good' or anywhere close to 'perfect'. What has been done to me is I am humiliated, and what better way to be humble before God than to be humble?

So your tendencies are a blessing! TRY TO REMEMBER THAT! We are sinners saved by grace, and those who are forgiven much love much - as Jesus said.

Let this be a lesson to you, are you proud of your ability to not sin? Now you can't say that any more. It's God's grace that makes you saved through your trust of Him, not of any righteousness of your own.

So welcome to the sinner's club. You are imperfect and a sinner, revealed before your very eyes. You can get closer to God now because your pride in your own cleanliness has been spoiled. That's me as well.

I hope you understand what it is that I am saying.

Answer 6

This is something that you need to surrender to the Lord. What I mean by that is, give Him those things in your life that you know are not pleasing to Him. The flesh is weak and He knows that, but we must be honest with Him about our weaknesses. I would suggest that the next time you are tempted to visit this site, you take a few minutes and ask yourself if He would enjoy watching something like this. The answer of course is no, He would not enjoy it, so because it's not pleasing to Him, then it should not be pleasing to you. I will be praying for you! God bless you!!!

Lovingly,
Virginia

Answer 7

Please stop before it becomes a disease.

I read from an article couple of months ago that this habit is more of a psycological problem than natural.

Get back to God, friend, before you're stuck to this disease.

Proverbs 1:23: Turn you at my reproof: behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you.

Seems we really haven't turned to the refroof of God yet. So, shall we...?

God bless...
GH

Answer 8

Dont worry, pray and fast earnestly to God about this problem you are having. Believe in Him that he will bring you through, get rid of all such materials from your possession and you will make a fun recovery.

I know, I am speaking from experience.

Answer 9

You need to go to God right now, and ask Jesus Christ into your life, sincerely ask Jesus to forgive you from your wrongdoings, we are all sinners, and Jesus went to the cross to forgive us of these sins, the important thing for you now is to know that what you are doing is wrong, and sinful, You will not get into the kingdom with sin, and since you know it is sin you have to turn away from it, and turn to God, believe me there is not any video or any cheap thrill worth spending eternity in a firery pit with satan, away from your Father, the only one who cares and loves for you, that makes sure your needs are met, that even sent His only Son because we are born into these sins, God knows we sin, and that is why God sent Jesus.
God is Holy and has no part of sin, Only Satan is the father of sin, who will you follow, Satan has already been sentenced, will you take that sentence with him, or be saved through Christ.

Answer 10

Well, for one you should not have a relationship with GOD to please people. You should only want a relationship with GOD to please GOD. Ask Jesus to help you overcome your downfalls and forget about everything let GOD have full control whatever happens, happens. Just remember GOD is in control and whatever happens, happens for our good.

Take care and remember the more you get down on yourself the more you will lose control, because you are saying to GOD that you should be able to do it yourself and GOD resists the proud but gives GRACE to the humble.