I feel so guilty please help! I so very very guilty and confused!?

Question

Okay i grinded against my guy friend as a joke but it started to feel REALLY good for the both of us but i continued for a while but also I had another guy in my mind who i really like almost love when I was doing it so I was thinking I was doing it to my crush then I snapped back to reality! Then I felt horrible and my friend wouldn't comfort me. It felt like I basically dropped all of my morals. And I was saving my self for the other guy. I felt so unclean and a s*ut. i almost cried. I couldn't believe what I have done! It haunts me now! I don't know what to do but I regret it sooooo much! Now I feel like i can't say 'I stand for innocent' When Im not innocent no more! And i feel like i betrayed my crush. And my friend and I had damaged the our own friendship! I just don't want to be here anymore because Im so disgusted with my self! Please help me! Some advice would be nice or a way to surpress this.

Answer 1

Your human, relax, you still stand for innocents. This is going to happen, espacially if your younger then 21, when your 21 you don't freck out about it, you understand by then how natural doing things like this is. So just relax, you did bring your dignity down a litte, but nothing more then most. So get right with yourself, relax and let yourself know that all thou you don't like this behavior, this is why you TRY to be innocent. Were animals and stuff like letting go and going with the flow come natural with us, its a matter of survival. But give yourself some credit for 1. not deny it ever happen. 2. Reacting healthily to it. 3. For not lossing sight of yourself. Your a good person, good people do all kinds of things, it doesn't change that fact.....

Answer 2

If the "other guy" doesn't know what you did, keep it that way. No point in bothering him with this. If you enjoyed what you did and your "guy friend" enjoyed it, what's the harm? If you'd helped a little old lady across the street and she appreciated it and you felt good, would you have had second thoughts? You could still be nice to your favorite old lady. There's nothing all that wrong with what you did if nobody gets hurt.