Why do i cause pain to myself for her satisfaction??

Question

I am sick of being mistreated. My mother made me move to texas where i am un happy. And all i do is have flash backs on how my life used to be in florida. She always calls me names like **** and whore for stupid reasons. She recently told me that she doesnt care about me anymore and for me to not ask her for anything. So all ive done is stay in my room. I havent eaten and im having a hard time sleeping. I feel weak, and useless. I randomely get angry at her while being in my room. And start squeezing random things to try to get my anger out. She complains about how im not even a part of the family anymore. because im never home and im always in my room. But sometimes its just easier to go in my room and ignore everything. I have a little brother whos 6. Who i love more then anything. Me and him have gone through alot. And i try to show my little brother how ill always be there for him. But its gotten to the point where i dont care about anything anymore. What is happening to me?

Answer 1

"Whats your purpose in life?"

The answer to that question means everything to you because it IS what gives you purpose, until you can answer that your pretty much putting yourself in a lost, confused, directionless, and meaningless exsistence. So this is a natural the way you feel, and pretty much is a consequence of the fact that 1. Moms never gave you more, or 2. You never gave yourself more. Life is a fight, until you figure out what your fighting for, its going to KICK your butt, such is life.... What more about the struggle, e-,mail me. You want to go on believing that all your missing is happiness well good luck finding it.....