How Come....?

Question

Everything can be so down that it drives me to SI and then it can go to normal and then it can go to me bouncing off the walls and not being able to focus on anything...

It seems I get major mood swings sometimes, it is weird. Yesterday at work I was in a decent normal mood for a while and then the last 3-4 hours I was there I just get this burst of energy, can't keep still, can't focus on my work at all, can't get anything done, forgetting stuff like crazy. But still with lots of anxiety, like wanting to scream 'cause I am trapped in this state that I can't do anything to fix it.

Maybe it is from trying to hide my true emotions, I had this moment at work where things kinda hit me and I was just really down. Then someone asks me what is wrong so I say "nothing" and cover it up, then like 20 minutes later the anxiety and bounciness comes in.

I dunno... its just weird, I like having the energy and being "up", even though to other people it is a bit overbearing sometimes. But the anxiety kills me.

It seems like when I'm not depressed, I get serious anxiety (but overly energetic), and when I'm not having anxiety, I am depressed. Normal moods seem few and far between.

I just don't know, I don't get it anymore, I just want something of normal emotions back instead of extremes. I hate the SI I do but sometimes there are times when I don't know what to do to make things calm down and it does help me but it just eats at me after the fact. I dunno... some helpful words PLEASE!!

These crazy mood swings are getting to me lately, I thought things had leveled out and were "normal" this past almost week, but not so much anymore after yesterday.

Answer 1

Yep! Many of us had been down that road, it all too familiar..

There are 2 Simple Solutions;

First, understand that you may not will yourself out of these feelings, but, there are plenty of medication out there that are helpful. Just see a doctor.

Secondly, understand that life isn't really about you..it's really about others..

Answer 2

You need to stop torturing yourself and go see a doctor! I'm not saying you are bipolar, but when I worked as a RN on psych units, I heard a frequent complaint by patients who were bipolar. When they were on the proper medication, and their moods were stabilized, they complained that they felt, "numb", like they had no emotions.

They said that they hated feeling like this and that they enjoyed how they felt when they were on the manic side of things. I tried to explain that even though they enjoyed the feelings, that their behavior was out of their control and that that was ruining their lives.

Everyone wants to feel good all the time. Even if we had no psych problems ( I have Major Depression), that is impossible. What I'm trying to get at is that we all want things and it's OK to try and get them, BUT, often that is not the options we have.

Our challange is to achieve what is the best possible for us. I have been physically disabled for the past 7 years. I can walk slowly about 2 blocks and I can only lift 1/2 pound. I want to be able to run for a mile and to walk for 20 miles like I used to be able to do.

I want to go fishing and hunting as I did before. I would like to be married like I was before I became disabled and my wife left me after she saw that I wasn't getting any better, but those aren't my options.

If I could lift 3 lbs, it would improve my life dramatically! If I could walk 1 mile, I would be thrilled at what this would open up for me.

So, what will improve your life? If you are bipolar and get on an effective mood stabalizer, so what if your emotions don't feel as good. If you don't get SI and you can control your life so that you can keep your job and continue to live on your own, your life will be much better.

If you have psychological issues that are either causing your problems or making them worse, you can see a psychologist and work on those at the same time that you are seeing a psychiatrist and getting on some effective medication.

What will make your life better, staying as you are or seeing a psychiatrist and getting on some medication that will help your life to be better?

My best wishes to you dear friend. I am not trying to be critical but trying to point out some things that have helpful to me and some others. I hope that something I have said has been helpful. Life for those of us that have significant health problems, (physical and/or mental), is no bed of roses, but if you believe in God and that He loves you and acts in your life for your best interest, there is always hope.

I believe that because of the problems you are having on earth, through no fault of your own, that you will have a special place in Heaven, and that God will help you through all of your problems.

But that doesn't mean that we don't have to do our part to do what is necessary to improve our condition. If we want a piece of toast, we can ask God for that, but if we have bread and a toaster, He expects us to put the bread in the toaster and push the part down that lowers the bread and switches electricity to the heating elements. :-)

God bless you.

Answer 3

Bi-polar does not jump from one mood to another that quickly, so I doubt that is whats up, I would go talk to a doctor though, I was recently told it takes a doc about 10 years to accuratly diagnos bipolar d/o, maybe you just have adult add/adhd, maybe just anxiety/panic d/o, but you wont know till you talk with a professional. Do you know where to go to talk to someone?

Answer 4

You could be bi polar.See a doctor.Or else it could be skitzofrenia.There is medication for both.

Answer 5

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