can you tell me what is the best first step in asking an apology to win back the closeness of my mom?

Question

we had an arguments with my mom, a really big misunderstanding, these passing nights, they got quarreI with my father,there where shouting each other and throwing things. so me, the eldest child try to stop them but nothing had happened. What I did was to took the kitchen knife and act like a criminal and about to stub her. coz i thought she will be leaving all of us & divorce my father. i was being conscience to what i have done coz she's crying and can never believe why i did it to her.So what i'm i gonna do, telI me what to do? Ive say sorry to her through phone but when we faced in personal, what she did is (dead-ma) feels like im invisible..GOD help me.. Im sorry for what Ive done.

Answer 1

It is mentioned in Indian scripture that a son can turn to be a bad son , but a mother will never turn into a bad mother. It equally applies to daughters also.So keep a firm belief in your mind that your mother will always remain a good mother, She must have been shocked to see the knife in your hands. That was something she never ever imagined even in her dreams.The scar so created will take time to heal.But TIME is the best healer of all wounds. Keep repenting and also keep contacts.I firmly believe that no mother in the world will ever turn into a bad mother.

Answer 2

Nothing i can be proud of as child to broken home. I used to hate that situations when they start fighting. But as they finally divorced i am totally glad to see they are more happier without each other. As second daughter of 4 children,i am more to my dad,yet i learn to be neural to them. There are issues that as daughter,i failed to understand.
I did hate my mom for leaved us and i didn't want to get involved with her for some years after that divorced. After realising that they have their right to their own happiness and they can't live together any more. I only have my sincere hug that came from my love to my mom.I hold her for awhile and said in my heart that i regretted over what had happened,holding her back to be more miserable in broken heart. She cry and smile that she understood. Words may be clear to understand but gesture is understood better. Moms never hate their children even they angry with the act done.

Answer 3

All you can do is say that you are sorry. Your mother needs time. If she wants to see you again, she'll get in touch with you. In the meantime, send her 'thinking of you' cards periodically. Sounds like your whole family needs counseling. Certainly you do; why don't you look into it and find out how to work out your anger constructively? If you don't, prison is a likely residence for you sooner or later.