afraid that I'll become crazy?

Question

I have crazy thoughts {part of my panic disorder} and ive had them for a while.
-ill be come crazy, what if i kill someone, what if i kill myself,
abnd one that lasted for a day like
'what if i am gay when im older' or silly things like that
and i was watching this show on the teacher who like a a kid with her student

and now im scared to god that im gonna become like a rapist or something. I know I wont but like help me. what can i do to stop these thoughhts??

Answer 1

You sound like you're about 18 years old? Sorry if I'm off but it's just because you used the term, "when I'm older."

These thoughts are very normal for someone with anxiety and panic disorder. Scary images and thoughts that appear out of nowhere in your head make you panic. I had them too.

I'm 27 now. I haven't "lost my mind" yet or snapped and killed anyone. When I was 18, I questioned the same things that you are. It's most intense at that age. You will be more comfortable with who you are in a few years.

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Answer 2

I had panic disorder for a couple of years-I'm 20 now. I also felt like I was going crazy for a while and worried about losing control of myself and doing things I normally wouldn't think about. I'd say this is normal for panic disorder, but the reason you think like this is probably because you've experienced panic attacks where you do lose control of youself and feel like nobody understands. Don't worry, you're not crazy-crazy people don't know that they're crazy. But, I would strongly recommend seeing psychologist about it. I think the thing that helped me the most was being ablt to talk about my thoughts and fears and different situations that made me nervous with somebody I tusted on a regular basis-it really does help! Try having a mind set like I did: Panic attacks are just a fear of being afraid and I'm in control of the fear. Stop thinking about how you think you are going crazy, though. The more you think about it the worst it gets.

Hope this helps!

Answer 3

The task is not to STOP these thoughts that you know are irrational. I say irrational not to criticize but to remind you that even you do not believe that these thoughts have any validity. You know that you are not going to become gay or a rapist but having the thought, scares the crap out of you! What if! What if! What if! etc.

The task is to IGNORE these thoughts. When they are ignored enough times they will stop coming into your mind, all by themselves. One example comes to mind. A psychiatrist I used to work with used to tell his patients, "Thoughts are like birds. You can't stop them from flying over your head but you don't have to let them build a nest in your hair.".

Sometimes a type of meditation where you repeat a word or phrase; such as: peace, God, love, Jesus, God is love, Jesus loves me; for a certain length of time (say 15 Minutes) can be very helpful with this.

The thing necessary to stay focused on the word or phrase is to ignore any other thought that comes into your mind except the one that you are consciously thinking. Over time you get more practiced at ignoring thoughts.

The other thing that can be helpful with the situation where you are very anxious and keep thinking, what if? type of negative thoughts; is to listen to an audio tape that has some guided imagery on it as well as a systematic relaxation exercise on it.

Something like, "Immagine as you breathe in that you are inhaling a white light that fills your body and relaxes your muscles. The name of this light is PEACE and it is relaxing the muscles in your head, then neck, chest and so on down your body."

I bet you have already listened to an audio tape like this. I get the best results from doing something like this when I try to focus on the persons voice, focus on doing what they say to do, and ignore the negative thoughts in my head.

I think that when I answered one of your questions before, that I encouraged you to ask your psychiatrist about either increasing the dose of the medicine you are on or trying you on a different medication for anxiety that might be more helpful.

So much of the anxiety that you seem to be experiencing seems to me to be caused by some chemical imbalance rather than a psychological problem. I mentioned that Buspar is very helpful to reduce my anxiety and that it is not habit forming or addictive in any way.

I hope that something I have written has been helpful. My best wishes to you.

Answer 4

Call your psychiatrist! Tell them of your random thoughts. Tell them it scares you.
No one on Yahoo Answers can help you deal with such things.