When does God say..."Okay this girl has suffered enough"?

Question

I've been fighting for my life for over 2 years. I was told that yet again I have cancer...again. I was told this time that it's terminal, that I had a year tops...and that dear friends was well over 2 years ago. This summer I came very close to losing this battle. All the radiation and treatment had caused a hole in my bladder. I had a very major surgery to repair, but then staff infection set in which led to me nearly losing my battle, another major surgery & a temp colostomy. I seemed to be on the ment and 3 weeks ago I started having daily seziures. The least I've had is 3 the most 13, my temp stays between 101 and 105 and they don't have a clue as to the reason.

When is enough enough? When does God say this poor girl has suffered enough and where and how do I find and get the strength to find my way through this latest setback. I don't like feeling this way, sorry for myself, but I gotta tell you I'm not supergirl either...Does anyone have any advice?

When I put this on here I never dreamed people would or could be so cruel...

the_only _solorose - I don't now or have I ever blamed God and I'm truly sorry if it has come across that way. I've been blessed in more ways than you could possibly know. Yes, I've had cancer 4 times but trust me the good far outweighs the bad in my life...

Seansipp - all I can say for you is your so in my prayers...

Maybe God gave me what I was looking for cause after reading some of these answers suddenly my life doesn't seem all that bad afterall...I mean I could be some of these people who think I deserve what I'm getting because I've poisoned myself, or maybe I could the one who thinks I should kill myself. I'd rather take a page from the Answer Fairy's book or my very dear friend whom I met on here clr9798 and just keep on keeping on. Life is a precious gift, it is not something we are owed & I'm still here I'm gonna fight like hell to keep it...

Answer 1

I HATE that you have had to go through this....it's so unfair!!! I have also asked God this question, after my Mom died of Cancer, then a few years later we found out my Dad had cancer, I cryed so hard asking God...WHY??? It was bad enough losing one parent....but not to have any, I could hardly bare it. Cancer is horrible and I hope & pray they find a cure. Its so hard to watch the people you love go through cancer. Just know I'm only an email away. And I read some of the negitive answers on here, they probably never had a loved on go through cancer. Take care & I LOVE YOU!!!! Your truley an ANGEL<3

Answer 2

You can make the choice to fight.... or not. Nobody said it's easy... But don't blame God. There are no easy platitudes to offer. I can't even say that I know how you feel, although I have had cancer twice.

The only thing there is left to do is to do your best to enjoy your time on this earth. Enjoy your friends, enjoy your family. When I thought I was going to die, I made sure that I took care of my friends and family the best could so that when I was gone, they would not be sad. Then I didn't die, beat the cancer and, well, that was sort of emotionally anticlimactic....

Honestly, there is nothing wrong with feeling sorry for yourself. There is nothing wrong with being angry. Doctors can be wrong. Your body is only as strong as your mind. Find your comfort where you can. Locate your sense of inner peace. Just keep on keeping on. When your time is up, hopefully you will have reached a point where you can be peaceful.

Okay, enough with being nice. Girl, that just sucks big time. You should go to church and kick God in the balls.

Answer 3

HI,
I am so sorry you have had to endure all of this. I cant even begin to imagine what your going through. My prayers go out to you. I have MS and sometimes I think I have it bad. I give you all the credit in the world for your strength. When I was diagnosed, I started reading alot of things about life and life's meaning and why where here. We will never know the answer while were here but reading gave me some insight on things. I totally believe we are all here for a reason and sometimes that reason is painful and test us alot. But is sounds like to me with the strength you have and the belief that your winning your lesson of life. Your an angle, God wouldn't have given you this is he knew you couldn't handle it. I know you have pry heard that before but to me you sound like a strong and amazing person. Good luck to you and God bless.

Answer 4

God bless you for fighting. In answer to your question, at least my thoughts on this are: Sometimes because of our suffering, we give HOPE to others. I am a 4 time cancer survivor and how I look at this is that my Higher Power which I call God, does not ever give me more than I can handle. I have taken the opportunity with my cancers to reach out to others as only another person with cancer can do...
Your courage shows me that you are a very special person. I pray that your journey will get lighter.

Answer 5

I give you a ton of credit! I dont think I could do what you have been through. I never want to leave my friends or family. I know life is probably so much better up there but its way too scary to think about. Cancer is probably my worst fear, and when i think about it, i dont think i will have strength to carry on as you did. I can hardly stand getting blood taken. I have never had a surgery, or even broken a bone. Im sorry to hear what you have been through, I am sure you have touched alot of lives. God bless you.

Answer 6

This has nothing to do with God. It has everything to do with exposure to lots of bad foods, toxins and poisons, especially after the first round of poison you've subjected yourself to. If you poison the body God gave you, what do you think will happen? God made your body very powerful but there are limits to what it can overcome.

That said, I'm really sorry to hear of your predicament. You might look at http://www.cancertutor.com that medhelp has been suggesting. It looks like a good site, but I hope it's not too late. You should consider this is a time to get your life right with God. Email me if you want suggestions on either. I will do my best to offer the truth in both circumstances.

Edit: I fear this came across really negatively, sorry about that. It bothers me when people seem to question or blame God. Maybe that wasn't your intent. The Bible does tell us that God chastises those He loves. I hope your relationship with Him is good. From what I know temp elevates when your body is attempting to make an environment distasteful for things like viruses. It's the body's attempt to fight. It's just acknowledging there's a problem. You definitely need to stay positive, but you cannot be worrying about your spiritual condition and be positive. Make SURE that's right. The Bible tells us we'll know when we're right in His sight. 2 Pet 1, 1 Jn 1-4, and others. Dr. Lorraine Day has really good suggestions for cancer help, sunshine, stress relief, sleep, extreme diet to get your immune system in shape, and a few other things. She reversed her own breast cancer. All I can tell you is from a Biblical perspective prayer helps. Jm 1. It's not the only thing that helps though, it always takes action on your part. You can't pray that you'll be (spritually) saved without doing something, primarily being baptized. Good luck and my God be with you.

It sounds like if the doctors declared you terminal, why are they still continuing to poison you? If they overwhelm you with poison how are you going to get better? The cancertutor.com site is a good read. If the doctors cannot help you, won't you consider the alternative, I just hope it's not too late! I'm truly trying to offer help here!

Answer 7

What you've gone through sounds incredibly hard I am sorry. Don't give up though not for a second. If having faith in God helps you through all this wonderful. Do not however use it/him as a crutch or blame God. Stand on your own. Challenge yourself every day to learn more, find different ways to fight it. Don't ever give in, don't ever let the cancer win.

Answer 8

How old are you?? You sound young?? You have already taken too much pain and misery. I am not a religious person in that its not a part of my life. Its not that i do not believe,it is just not me!! (make sense??) My Mum was diagnosed in May this year with kidney, liver, lung cancer she past away sept 7 after a horrific 4 month battle. What i saw her go thru was cruel, it stripped her of all her dignity. Why shouldnt you feel sorry for yourself?? NOBODY deserves this, and NOBODY should ever accept it. Cancer is one thing that is not acceptable... EVER.

Answer 9

I wish i knew, god, i wish i knew why stuff like this happens. All i can say, is perhaps it is a test of your faith in god. That's my only theory. I've been blessed with a lucky life so far, but i do worry, what if something bad happens. But i have utmost faith in the gods. (I am a Hindu) I will pray for you and your family. I lost a friend to Luekemia. She was only 13. I hadnt spoke to her in 4 years, but it still cut deeply. One day i saw her and she was well and happy. Next, i hear that she is struggling to survive. And the day after that...gone. Never to return.

Have faith. it will be your weapon in this battle. Trust God with your life, and he will protect it. Promise to make a difference in this world, should god grant you your life. Then follow through.

My prayers are with you. :)

Answer 10

You have been thru alot over the past few years. I suffer from a debilitating disease also and I have asked that question many a time. The way I have found peace with my illness is to tell myself that I haven't finished what God put me on this earth for. I know easier said than done. We all have a purpose and a reason and when you have accomplished it you will receive peace and rejoice in Heaven with our Heavenly Father.