Okay, i dont find it funny anymore GOD?

Question

I have spent years upon years suffering from emotional and physical abuse by the hands of my parents along with the rest of the family i was brought up in. As i age it got worse ...and NOW i have crap for family. Why? Because they screwed up with me as a child ...so what happens then? um, well things start to happen in ones mind.......things go wrong. Like at the age of 6 i started looking at boys NOT girls. and of course my mother has to call me a pre madonna and a fa*g as a teenager to confirm my secret struggle. and you know what the rest of my life is filled with me looking for love......always trying to find my way. I wasnt taught how to live. i wasnt given tools to live. I was beat and screamed at and called awful names....and NOW everyone (christians) want to say this is GODS will ..that god has a lovely plan and purpose for my life....really???? WHERE? because i dont see it .. its been nothing but SUFFFERING...please dont reply to me saying jesus sufferd, im not stupid i know

but i NEVER asked to be brought into this hell hole we call EARTH. If i was given a choice i would have NEVER come into this place of pain and hate.......My only wish from this day forward that i may DIE peacefully on the beach... i want to be taken away by a wave....early in the morning....when its still kinda dark and overcast.... God is playing with me ...and its no longer funny... to many things are going wrong in my life...my childhood was a joke ....my teens was worse and now as a adult im a 27 and i fee like im 76 years old with pain of every kind. All you christians that have lovely peaceful lives, you know what... im HAPPY for you. But that doesn't do sh*t for me...and its not helping me by praying. I have NOTHING still. No friends No family ...and even my partner is now joining the group of hateful sh*t heads. Im not going to allow GOD to steal everything from me...leave me till im dead. i might as well stop feeling guilty that i feel MEN are more attractive then women.

i have heard it all ( Christians) keep it coming .... .though its amusing to hear you tell me how wrong i am ....

some say im filled with anger but truthfully its deep sadness. Im too mentally exhausted to be angry anymore...... im hurt deep.

There was a big part of my heart that wanted GOD. I felt something from him a couple times. But he enjoys hiding himself from me and my life... my trials .... everything. It saddens me that he takes his precious time helping people in complete and total despair

Answer 1

no he isn't taking his time to help you..can't you see he's suffering with you? although he has brought these unfortunate events and people into your life..God is still with you. Through this whole time he was standing right there, because he's going to one day show you his power..he wants you to stay here on earth until the time comes. He wants you to endure all this pain, so you can endure and fight pain in the future..he's getting you prepared for something big later in the future..don't give up or you purpose in life is pointeless..trust in him, believe in him, and most of all, love him.

God loves you, of all the people you hav met, he loves you the most...he thinks about you the most..he cares for what you ahve to do up ahead..so he's getting you prepared to save millions of lives..maybe you'll tell people about your past life..and tell them how God has saved you..be patient..let the time go by..and fight the pain until that time comes..i wish you all the blessings in the world..

Answer 2

Since you have addressed this to me, (on questions) I will send you a reply.

first, you being beaten, living in a dysfunctional family and so forth was not what was wanted for you by God.

but you are there now and you have to live with what you have. You can be bitter, depressed, anti-social or you can do something about it.

why are you calling on God anyway? Do you believe he can help you?

I will tell you this much, although God can help, you will live with consequences of your life.

God also calls to the down cast as well as the high class because he loves all men. A lot of high class dont have time for him and the lowly do. Why, because they are not busy being busy all the time.

I see your post as a rant more than anything, but having been around dogs for so long, I know when they hurt, they cry and bite and run from help. I'm guessing you are so wounded you are doing the same thing.

when you come to your senses, act like the man you are, and make intelligent decisions that will serve you well now, and into eternity.

you will see a lot of atheist here who want nothing more than to steer you away for the LORD. Why, what are they offering you. The LORD God is offering to restore those years and to restore your soul, and to fill you with the Holy Spirit that you might have real joy.

the choice is up to you.

the decision will be your fate.

Answer 3

I understand where you are coming from, and what you have gone Thur does leave permanent scars on your life, I hope you are out on your own and away from a family that belittled you by now. If you are out of the situation you have to put all that behind you which I know is hard to do, but don't blame God for what Satan can do, and did do in your family situation, I can guarantee you that if you had been raised in a Christian family your circumstances would be different than they are now.
Also don't blame God for what your parents done, they were unsaved or they wouldn't have treated you the way they did.
No one said life was going to be easy, we all face challenges in our life, some more difficult than others.
Don't look for love in the wrong places, it is only temporary and will leave you felling null and void and disappointed.
I know this is hard for you to understand, but if you will change your outlook towards God and just give Him a chance to work in your life He will and can give you comfort in ways that you can't even imagine and you will be able to forgive your parents in time, I know that is hard to believe but it is true, and until you can give forgiveness to those that don't deserve it you will never have peace in your heart or mind, and you will carry this disappointment with you the rest of your life and it will affect your attitude towards others as well as yourself.
Sorry this is so lengthy but what you wrote touched me and regardless of what you think God does care and He does listen even when you think he doesn't hear. I know this myself from going thru life for so many years....never give up, the battle is worth the reward.

Answer 4

God, does not think it is funny. The world is full of pain and challenges. It is meant to be this way. One must survive with God's help the boot camp of life, and get spiritually strong, so that later in life, you will be able to make a difference, when it comes to the serious problems that exist, and by so doing make for a better future on this planet. Life does challenge the human being spiritually, to the strongest degree. Few people are able to come up with new knowledge or ideas, because it is so hard. One must take on that challenge. Meditate/pray, do mind-body exercises, eat healthy, and don't over indulge and you will get stronger spiritually. God is not concerned with your sexual orientation, only that you do good things in this world.

Answer 5

I am sorry for your pain.You ask god.This is not the nature of god.God didn't make it happen,nor did some devil.What happened was caused by people,not by a god.Conversely,god doesn't stop it.God does not interfere.I do not think that god resembles at all the way man has made him out in all the various religions.We came to be.It's all up to us.Gods existence or not is irrelevant,since if one exists it is obviously not a type of god who interferes in the affairs of the universe,nor should we expect it to.Forgive is my advice.This is not for the people you feel offended you,this is for yourself.You are consumed with anger,only you can stop that.Not a god,not your parents,only you.When you have anger,you are being controlled.Release your anger at a false version of god,release your anger at your parents.Now,go and be the best person you can be.You can not get to tomorrow,until you get past yesterday.good luck

Answer 6

The ouija board pointer does certainly transfer on its own. When I used to be younger and my sons had been handiest a few years historic, I requested the board a few questions. Since my husband and I had been having marital issues I requested it how lengthy we might be married. It mentioned seven years. I requested it what number of youngsters I might have. It mentioned 3. I requested it what gender. It mentioned 2 boys and a lady. I already had the 2 sons. My husband and I had been divorced in our 7th yr of marriage. A few years later I met an extra guy and we had a daughter in combination. I used to be the one one touching the pointer and it did transfer on its own. The ouija board is a demonic instrument. That is why it says you must pray earlier than and after utilizing it. But, the Bible says to not do matters just like the ouija board. So who do you suppose is answering your questions and why do you wish to have God's security if that is whatever from God? I discovered wherein the understanding used to be coming from after I did the ouija board and I have not ever performed it because. Stay clear of matters like that.

Answer 7

People are responsible for what they do including parents that abuse their children...Mathew 18. Never live down to someone else's low esteem issues, they are not your personal responsibility and move forward in your life. Don't do what they did. Lot's of us, have suffered for nothing because of someone else's problems. I think it is because now you can turn to God and You go to Him. There are plenty of messed up people even in the genealogy of Jesus. David killed his own friend to have his wife. Rahab was a harlot. Matthew 1, good things can come out of bad situations, all you have to do is look for the Real God, Your Father.

Answer 8

We get to choose our friends, but our families are thrust upon us, unfortunately. If you're gay, accept it and look for love and friendship away from your family. Just because there's a biological connection does not entitle them to ruin your life. You can have a good life and I think you probably know that, but don't know how to start down the right path. I don't know you enough to tell you, but some suggestions are to move away from your family; get a job in a distant location; establish residency in another state and further your education; cut some of the ties to the past that are hampering you; go to a non-religious counselor. I'm not here to discuss religion with you. Although I am a person of faith, I also recognize some of the worst people I know profess to be Christians. Judge your acquaintances, family and friends by their acts/deeds--not their hypocritical words. Leave them; forgive them and forget them.

Answer 9

You are so busy whining that you can't see God waiting for you to do your part to improve your life. None of has had a perfect life. I lost my mother when I was a baby. I could have used that as an excuse to become any kind of A*S*Shole in the world. I chose instead to become a mature ADULT and have a good life in spite of the strikes against me. When you mature, you need to be an OVERCOMER. Pull yourself out of that pitiful ditch you are in and determine to have a good life! Then get busy making it happen. There are wonderful things out there for the taking but they're not going to happen until you change your attitude and thank God for your life and for letting you live through all the bad things so you can now get on with your life and make good things happen. You can do it! Get started now!

Answer 10

wow you went throw alot but you are wrong about many thing like that god is playing with you. Hes not you just need to trust him. Also your wrong by saying all Christin's live happy lifes. all the time i hear from my friends that i have a great life but thats not true and they dont get it. Just because your a christian doesn't mean your life will be perfect. I'm a christian and my life is crappy to but you have to try to get throw it