I have a history of mental illness and have been hospitalized over 25 times since '99 (not since '05) for suicidal depression. I just yesterday promised my 12 year old daughter I did not need the hospital, but I'm really having to fight to not OD on sedatives.
My husband is asleep, and as screwy as it sounds I don't want to wake him up just because I'm feeling suicidal - probably because we've been through this so many times for so long.
I'm not safe to drive, because of my desire to self-harm and also because I've taken my nighttime meds which have sedating qualities. (Taking just the prescribed meds and not OD'ing was quite a victory).
Should I call 911 and check myself in, and leave a note for hubby and the kids, or just take an extra sedative to knock myself out and deal with it in the morning? (this has been a constant for several days so it's not like things will be better after a good night's sleep. I usually wake up worse than the night before.)
2007-10-31 19:46:09 · 11 answers · asked by mrscjr 3 in Health ➔ Mental Health
Thanks for all the responses. I made it until morning, and saw my therapist. We agreed I *should* be in the hospital but (it's a long story why) I'm going to stay stoned on sedatives until Sunday so I can see my daughter perform, then Monday if I'm still in trouble I'll go to the hospital. I've been in this state often enough to know just when I can handle it myself, when I need to talk to someone (y'all are such a help) and when I need to get away and get *serious* help. My husband knows exactly where I'm at and will be watching me closely.
(He's a VERY decent person.) ;o)
2007-11-01 08:39:21 · update #1
my friend, a person cannot be "just" suicidal! this is a MAJOR issue and --despite your history-- you need to treat EACH time you feel this way with the same amount of urgency!! I beg you NOT to put off getting help -- there are resources there for you to use!
Call 911 and accept the help they have to offer. If your husband loves you enough to have you as his wife, he'd want to know you are feeling this way! Wake him and let him know your plans... PLEASE!!
Above all, be prideful that you continue to fight the good fight... and not ashamed that you continue to need help in doing so!! Stand tall in knowing that you are honest enough to admit to not being able to always do it on your own.
2007-10-31 19:57:44 · answer #1 · answered by nashgirl21 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Wake your husband up when ever you feel this way. It is very important that you have support do this. sedating your self for one night will not help. You may not be as strong as your are now when you are alone. Don't promise anyone that you don't need to go to the doctor, because that will only add pressure should you have to go. If you are thinking that you need to go then, go. I am going the same thing, but with the support of my boyfriend, its getting easier. Once it's beyond the point of control, I have to go to the hospital. I know your daughter and husband would Rather have you in the hospital a few days getting better rather than not having you at all. PLEASE, PLEASE GETS SOME HELP. Also, see if you can get off the Risperdal, it made me very suicidal and I hallucinated a lot. If possible, if they change your meds, do it inpatient. Coming of Risperdal was very dangerous for me, I was very very suicidal. Please let me know how it goes.
2007-11-01 07:09:40 · answer #2 · answered by yoli 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
you could call a suicide hotline to talk you through this.
Im sure your seeing a therapist but if not you should and make sure you tell them about this.
Remember that you have reason to live. You have a daughter that loves you and also a husband.
Dont worry if you need to you can call 911. They will be happy to help.
2007-11-01 02:53:28 · answer #3 · answered by apg96 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Either wake up hubby;
or if you can fight off for a little bit, sit down on the bed next to hubby and close your eyes and pray, just focus on the prayer.
If it gets too bad please wake up hubby, or call up a suicide hotline.
Good luck, God bless. *Big hugs*.
2007-11-01 02:53:32 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
You know yourself better then anybody, and when your feeling suicidal. Yes, get the help you need, and do not wait until the morning.
2007-11-01 04:19:05 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Wake your husband and have him take you for the help you need. Protect your life; your daughter is depending on you.
2007-11-01 03:01:32 · answer #6 · answered by missingora 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
wake your husband up. its your life that your talking about. if hes a decent human, he will rather wake up early and find you alive rather than sleep longer and find you OD.
sounds like your on your way to recovery. keep up the good work. do it for your babies and your husband.
2007-11-01 02:52:00 · answer #7 · answered by ...... 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I say call 911 right now! It's better to be safe than sorry.
2007-11-01 02:52:50 · answer #8 · answered by Marie N 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
listen u need to just sit down with the man u love and ur kid/kids and look and see how much they love you you don't need to OD think about the ppl who love you
2007-11-01 04:19:49 · answer #9 · answered by josh g 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
yes, call 911, it sounds like you need help. Good luck.
2007-11-01 02:52:09 · answer #10 · answered by californiablueeyes76 3 · 0⤊ 1⤋