like no one wants to come near me or is being ordered to stay away from me..
ive had a miserable life the majority of my life, sexually abused, bullied extensively through high school.....never made any friends, ever...never been in a relationship....never been employed or got qualifications..
society and people just leave me to rot in my one room apartment with no posessions cept a computer.....as im prematurley aged.....bald have imperfections.....what hope have i got of accomplishing my dreams?
what ive never had? zero thats what...( im clenching my teeth im so angry)
i struggle through every lonely day and night with borderline personality disorder....no one cares.....every one who i talk to rejects me.
you no why? because their being told to avoid me thats why.
i sit here night after night thinking about my life ambitions of emigration from britain to build a new life...get a partner...what chance have i got? (clenced teeth)
i feel like smashing my apartment up then doing
2007-10-31 08:55:01 · 10 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
away with myself.....that would be me getting even.
like saying 'yeah stuff you to'
2007-10-31 08:55:23 · update #1
who wants a physically aged 30 year old with no employment history....a mental health record....who has bpd?
im tarnished and branded...no one will accept me now
2007-10-31 08:57:48 · update #2
Susas : so your saying people are being told to stay away from me?
2007-10-31 09:28:47 · update #3
Friend,
Please try to pull yourself back together again. Do not focus on what you can't do but instead focus on what you CAN do. I have seen many people in the United States who cross the borders and die in the desert to search for a better life.
I had a 28 old student from Guatemala who was illiterate in both English and Spanish (in addition to being illegal), his native language was Spanish but he did not know how to read it or write it.
He wanted to learn English as well. He started working in the fish market and learned how to read and write in Spanish he also learned English. He is now one of the manager at a Mexican restaurant here in Houston. He is an example of discipline and willingness to believe that the sky is NOT the limit.
GOD BLESS YOU!
2007-11-01 04:44:12 · answer #1 · answered by ✿Houston_Girl✿ 4 · 0⤊ 1⤋
They don't understand you. I might want you. I'm often cautious around people with bi-polar though. One man fell in love with me in the hospital. He is older than you, but in the same condition except that he was about to serve some time for peeing in public and smashing a window and being intoxicated. They told me to stay away from him. I think he's all right now, but I still wouldn't want to talk to him. As I said though I would like to get you out of Britain. It will not happen as long as I'm with my parents. I will probably leave home in January of 2010. Then I plan to go to Nebraska and get a Ph.D. in Neurology. I need to see England. That is where my ancestors are from. I think you should try writing. You might be able to get published. I think I'll try to get published.
People think that you might be dangerous. The guy I was talking about was. But I don't know if you're dangerous.
2007-10-31 16:08:28 · answer #2 · answered by Susas 6 · 2⤊ 1⤋
my heart aches for you to feel this way. My first advise is to seek medical intervention for your bi-polar disorder. My son is bi-polar and keeps his mood swings in order with intense work out sessions (his father is also very bi-polar and has had electro-shock treatments in the past to balance his mood swings). I seriously doubt that anyone has been told to avoid you, but you don't seem to like yourself which means you probably aren't giving anyone else a chance to like you either. and possessions don't make you happy...only you can make yourself happy. You have to wake up each and every morning and decide that you will be happy that day, and then not let anyone or anything take that away from you. don't look at what everyone else has, look inside yourself and find your own light and let it shine free...then you will find people being more friendly in return. It's a bit of a catch 22, I realize that, but you have to try.
2007-10-31 16:08:29 · answer #3 · answered by mcline42 1 · 3⤊ 1⤋
That is so sad, all those things that have happened to you; you don't deserve any of them. Try to get an education, find a job doing something you love, and finding some friends (first online, then in real life when you have enough confidence). I'm sure there are people who like you and care aboot you (I'm one of those people) and I'm sure things'll get better.
2007-11-01 00:27:21 · answer #4 · answered by ♠I Did My Time♠ 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
well, for one. you are alive. i know things suck most of the time, but the alternative cant be much better. try to remember that none of the **** matters. all you can do in this life is live. you can do it while hating everything, or you can do it while appreciating the little things. I used to have really bad rage issues but i realized that the world isnt going to stop doing thngs that piss me off, but I can just chill and enjoy the ride, and that works so much better. and who cares if youre alone- if you think about it, we all are. you are the only person you can guaruntee will be with you for the rest of your life, so be nice to yourself.
2007-10-31 16:41:02 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 1⤋
I belive there is someone for everyone.
Have you tried to get some help for your mental issues? Typically a good doctor will care enough to help you, if you want to help yourself.
You clearly are depressed and need some help.
2007-10-31 16:05:08 · answer #6 · answered by Wanda 4 · 3⤊ 1⤋
That's your third today, Phantom. Three down, two to go!
2007-10-31 16:23:55 · answer #7 · answered by hindisikhnewaalaa 5 · 3⤊ 0⤋
sounds like you pretty down on your self..try some theropy with a group..feeling sorry for your sefl will lead to more problems for you..I'd like to see you happy and sociable
2007-10-31 16:04:14 · answer #8 · answered by ღOMGღ 7 · 3⤊ 1⤋
ordered to stay away?
2007-10-31 20:55:17 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Well certainly not with that attitude.
2007-10-31 16:05:32 · answer #10 · answered by jimapalooza 5 · 3⤊ 1⤋