Anxiety Disorder showing up in my relationship?

Question

I have been diagnosed with mild depression and an anxiety disorder. I have been perscribed medicine, but it made me very ill so I refuse to take it. However I am plagued with thoughts that my girlfriend cheats on me and I check behind her on everything to find signs. She has done everything in her power to show me that she is not cheating and does not want to be with anyone else. However I become extremely jealous sometimes and do outrageous things to try and find her lying. If she does not answer her phone, I continue to call it. Sometimes I shake unrepeatedly and cannot stop crying, just because she is not answering her phone. This is destroying our relationship and I do not know how to make these unfounded thoughts disappear. She loves me more than anything and does EVERYTHING to show she is not cheating. If someone looks at her I am overcome with jealousy and rage. Please help me. Is this part of my anxiety disorder? What can I do to make these thoughts go away?

Answer 1

It sounds to me that you have a fear of rejection. I mean we all do, no one likes rejection. But it sounds like you fear it a little more intensely and dont' know how to handle it. I mean we all are scared that we will lose the person we love. So on an unconcious level, you are trying to protect yourself, by finding it out sooner than later. Also unconciously, you are protecting yourself by pushing away what you want... giving yourself the illusion of being in control of who is pushing who away. OK, I know this sounds crazy, lol. I say these things because I have been there. I do the irrational things too... but I have learned to analyze it to he ck until my reasons (no matter how irrational) are in my concious mind, so I can deal with them. It is called sabatogging yourself. This is nothing new. You are not wierd or different, many people do this. Many. I hope this made some sense?

Answer 2

it sounds like you need to call your Dr. and get your med changed.you know when i am with some and they look at them wow i think i am a very lucky person.she with you and the tight range you have on her in the world could she do anything.you need to back off a little because that is a sure way to lose her not that she dont love but she will want to get away from all the stress you have put on her.get some help and soon.your wreacking her life and your.good luck.

Answer 3

I suggest that you consider, which is worse. The side effects from medication, or the turmoil your untreated diagnosis is causing in your life. There are multiple medications that can help you, the best way to get one or two that work for you is to see a psychiatrist for evaluation. Then find a therapist to help you work out your issues.