Ever been pushed to the brink aka commit suiccide?

Question

I nearly did once but I couldnt.... somthing kept telling me to do it put the other side was telling me to do it.Of course I didnt do it. Has anybody had a simillar experience.

Answer 1

When I was much younger, still a teenager. I first thought about it when I was 10 but didn't act on the urge until I was 13. Honestly, I didn't so much want to die as just to stop the pain I was in. I was just a kid, had no one to talk to and didn't know how else to get out of the situation I was in. I tried a number of times and failed largely due to ignorance. Thank goodness I didn't have the internet back then or I might have used it to find out how to really do myself in. I did manage to do myself some long term damage though and still consider myself incredibally lucky to have survived at all.

Now a days I do still think suicidally at times, even going so far as to plan how I would go about it. However these days I realize that it is my depression talking as I know deep down I want to sort myself out (hence me being in therapy) and get back to a place where I can enjoy life. Also, like you I have wonderful people who care about me and I would never ever put them through that.

Answer 2

Yes I have had a similar experience (several times in fact). I am so grateful that I wasn't successful (so to speak) at such a horribly selfish act. I still struggle with a mental disorder which I realize is what led me to think and do what I did. So, I strongly recommend that you see/consult a professional. Being thankful is a very important thing. I know that it can be annoying when someone tells you that, but now I realize that it is true. I read about and see so many unfortunate people and in my heart, I just think "God thank You"- I am so blessed (to even have my fingers to type you this reply:). Please take care and try to step outside of yourself- consider others as well and more importantly, be thankful (for anything and everything that you have- so much more than you realize). Afterall, is it really worth it? Also when you make the effort to help someone else, it could really be helpful in turn. So, go out there and try to help someone else.. It'll make them smile, causing you to smile in return. "You may forget the kind things you do for someone, but the recipient will cherish them a lifetime". I wish you happiness, and peace of mind. God bless.

Answer 3

First - if you are having suicidal thoughts. Please seek help! I know this should go without saying, but still. I have lost 2 family members to suicide and it's a VERY serious issue.

Two - For the poster who said "I'm not a coward". That might be true, however they are very ignorant. Suicidal feelings along with depression are very real problems! Many times one has a chemical imbalance that can only be regulated with the right combo of meds. Sometimes this can take years and be quite frustrating, but trust me it is worth it! I myself am on anti-depressant pills - wellbutrin. It is nothing to be ashamed of.

People need to take there heads out of the sand once and for all to realize suicide IS a very serious and real issue! Maybe if people would become a bit more educated on this subject and less judgmental (thus coward comments) maybe JUST maybe some would feel more comfortable in coming forward to get the help they need. Don't listen to idiotic morons that think they know all on this subject, but yet find they know close to nothing, if not nothing at all! One person in the US dies every 18 min. Wake up people!

There are people here who I'm sure can relate to your feelings, but they certainly are unable to guide you to get the proper care you need to overcome this.

Answer 4

Let see, thought- often; attempted- a couple of times, success- not really, but I did learn who I could count on. A cowardly act- as if! Nothing takes as much bravery- I mean, you know that your mind is the only thing between you breathing tomorrow and not breathing again.... think about it. I know that this sounds bad, but if I can't get into my Dr now- I take 1 or 2 Benadryl and sleep until someone who knows me and what to do for me can get there. It works for me, but I have this plan in place, and the people that I really trust have worked with me to develop this plan. I think that is really the key for those of us that have/will deal with this for a long time (if not the rest of our lives), this plan has saved my life more than once.

Answer 5

I think that at some point in everyone's life, we have thought or wished to die because of different situations we might have experienced. It could be a suicidal thought, or just a wish to die to end some kind of a misery.

I have thought of it, but I am honestly admitting that I am scared to die because I don't know what is there after death. So, in the end, I'm just going to tough life out and take each day as it comes.

Answer 6

I have when I was in so much severe pain,I could never think of it being any different and wanted it to end,I can understand why terminally ill people would do this, but you are right family and friends give you the strength and things do get better, I hope you are fine now its a horrible place to be.

Answer 7

Yes I have. And I was only 11 at the time, so the only reason I didn't succeed was because I was too lacking in knowledge about how to actually do it! Made myself very ill though. And I've since felt very glad on many, many occasions that I wasn't successful.

EDIT: People trot out this thing about suicide being cowardly; it has nothing to do with cowardice, and these people are just showing their ignorance of what true depression is.

Answer 8

I have floated up ka-kas creek in that matter before and found that the light at the end of that tunnel is not as bright as the light of living.I dont know what had you feeling that way but know for future reference that you only get one life,the mistakes we make can be learning experiences,the love we lost can be replaced stronger,the feelings we have can be controlled,the thoughts we have can be planned,but the life we take will never return.

Answer 9

All the time... I have Bipolar Disorder and feel suicidal whenever I'm on a 'down'. I now have coping strategies, such as keeping a journal, playing music/films that remind me of good times, getting some fresh air. They sound stupid but they break the 'thinking' cycle that makes depression worse.

Answer 10

A few years ago,I must admit,the thought only passed through my head,very briefly,like in a blink.I always thought it was a selfish act,as it creates more problems for those who stay behind.Then again,when you feel so low there is no lower and yes the only way is Up.Life is actually good,even when we think it's not.And if it is bad at the moment,for anyone I think they have a good chance of having a better day tomorrow,next week,year or whenever.P.