Help me before it's too late...?

Question

I have been really depressed and have a Panic Disorder since I was molested when i was only 4 yrs old to the age of 8 by my father and even more depressed since my mom died when i was in seventh grade. I'm in tenth grade now and i have a therapist but i don't feel like I can talk to her b/c i have severe social issues/disorder. I've been a cutter and I've felt like ending my life many times before. I'm begining to think I'm hopless. I have no friends at school and my brother has Cerebral Pausey so he can't help me or understand. What should I do???

Answer 1

You need to start trusting your therapist. They can help you get over the anxiety that you are feeling.

Look, being molested it a horrible thing. I know, because I experienced it from my step father. You need to take control of yourself now and not let that jerk make you a victim for the rest of your life. You were not at fault, he was. You need to let yourself come out of that shell and start enjoying life like you deserve to. The best way is to let your therapist help you to release all of that pain, and start finding the real you again.

Never give that SOB the satisfaction of knowing that he even affected your life, much less let him see that he had enough control over you to destroy it!!

Good Luck! Take care, and never give up. The best is yet to come, I promise. I was able to do it, and you can too!!!

Answer 2

First and foremost I would like to say how proud I am of you! Going through all that you have and still you are in school. I'm sure your mom would have loved to see you graduate. Don't give up!!
I've been down that road where you can't seem to find a light anywhere to help guide you. Some of the same problems. I suffer from panic attacks too. It does make things a little difficult. You and your brother have been through a lot together. Though he may not be able to give you all the support you need, just know that he needs you as much as you need him.
When I started to make piece w/myself and the past is when my life started to turn around. I have found a light to guide my way though it still may be a little dim at least I know I'm headed in the right direction.
I'm not going to tell you it's easy because that would just be bull@@@@. It has been 3 years of struggle but when I look in the mirror I like the person staring back. Once you start to let those things go you'll realize how many other people see it also.
I know it's easier to chat on computer because you're not face to face. So if you want to talk or just say anything just e-mail me any time [e-mail]
I hope this helps!!!!
Just a thought. If you feel more comfortable on here you could see if your therapist has e-mail or messenger.

Answer 3

I'm sorry to hear about your mom and everything else that you've gone through. High school can be tough for everybody, but you've got some added stress. What do you enjoy doing? Can you become involved in an after-school activity? That might be a good way to have some fun and meet some new friends.

I find that exercise really helps me when I'm feeling down.

Also, your therapist can't help if she doesn't know what you need help with. Why don't you try opening up little by little? If you told her that you're having social issues, maybe she'd be able to help you become involved with Big Brothers/Big Sisters or some other program that could provide you with a mentor.

Answer 4

This is a tehcnique how to stop cutting but others play important role:

Remove cutting tools from your immediate area. If you have to take the time to look for something with which to cut yourself, you may find you have just given yourself enough time to deal with the impulse.

Release the pain without cutting by telling someone. Talk to someone--a doctor, teacher, friends, your parents if you can. You will be surprised how relieved you will feel after you talk about it. If you chose a doctor or a counselor, they can get you the help you need to heal the underlying cause. Speak out loud about what is causing you so much pain. Talk about it - even to yourself, in the privacy of your bedroom. Yell or scream - anything to release the tension inside of you - but do not cut. If you have no one to talk to, get a tape recorder and talk into it. The pain will be released, and you might not need to cut to feel relief. You can also release your feelings by writing poetry or raps, painting, or other art forms.

Entertain your mind! You can do a lot of things to occupy your mind besides expelling creative energy. You don't have to dwell on your problems. You can watch TV, rent a movie, or read a book.

Recognize that cutting is just the symptom of a root problem. Follow the above steps to stop yourself from cutting, but also seek help from a doctor, parent, or counselor to address the deeper problems that make you want to cut in the first place.

Answer 5

Your life seems to have been really difficult so far, and I'm sorry that's the case. Nobody really deserves to have gone through the things that you have. Ending it all may seem pretty appealing. This world isn't always a pleasant place, but it can be a beautiful if you learn how to appreciate it. You only get one chance. Don't throw away your life. Things will get better.

Answer 6

You definitley need to open up to your counselor no matter how hard it is. It sounds like you are in desperate need for some help dear. If you are feeling suicidal again then please call a suicide hotline. Nothing is bad enough to just end it all. I am sorry to hear about all the tragedy in your life. Have you turned to God and asked Him for help in your life. I am sure that if you do He will get you thru all of this. I hope you feel better soon, and wish you the best of luck!

Answer 7

Get a hobby/interest. Music is considered by many to be a very good form of therapy. Talk to an elder or your PCP and ask them to suggest a different therapist.

Answer 8

just relax and breathe. Nothing in this world is worth ending your own life. I can't say ive ever been in your shoes before, but i've had my own share of depression, its not worth it. Nothing has changed, i just decided to look at everything in life in a new view, and ive been happy ever since. Let me tell you the solution to all problems in life, it's Smiling. Smile, smile when ur mad, smile when ur sad, obv smile when ur happy. Smile when you want to fight, smile when u get depressed enough to hurt urself and rethink ur decision. Time is our only tool for getting better, so might as well sit back and smile and wait it out. ... goodluck...

Answer 9

If you are physically capable, get into a sport.
It's a really good way to meet new people.
And no matter how shy you are, just act like you're doing your own thing.
It brings people towards you.
You won't regret it.

Answer 10

If you're not comfortable or feel safe around your therapist, search for another one that you have an innate comfort with. You'll know them when you find them.