someone out there help me. i can't get over this :(?

Question

today in church, i was fully prepared to go, to sign my confirmation thing, but I was supposed to sign it in front of everyone. so im thirteen, and i was with my friends, and we all sat down with our parents. once we did, we sang along and all, and once the priest said "now we will have our confiramtion kids and their parents" BUT he called us by our names seperetly. i felt scared, and my anxiety came to me, and it felt horrible. i was the second person to be called. my dad and i went up there, and i signed and all, and we were supposed to stand up after in a line, and we did. i couldnt help to look at the audience, so i asked my friends mom if i could use the bathroom, (IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CHURCH, I LEFT TO USE THE BATHROOM)i only did because i felt nervous and was about to puke. the people sitting down looked like this the whole entire time :O

it was embarrasing. i have taken lexapro since summer, and its worked, but today it messed me up...
was this wrong? i couldnt help it.

Answer 1

No you were not wrong, Lots of people have anxiety around large groups of people!
I hate how at church they point you out. People say that you should rejoice in the lord and want to yell it from the roof-tops. I think you should rejoice also, but people need to know although we love the lord, we are shy, I don't like being put in that situation either!
anywho, congradulations on ur confirmation

Answer 2

First of all, let me say that I'm sorry this happened to you. It sounds to me like a panic attack and they are very real and very frightening. For me, being in church is scary enough. Top that with a big event, lots of people, and a commitment to something and you're certainly normal for panicking a little. It's easy for me to say "Don't worry about it" but that's probably not what you want to hear. It sounds like you are getting some help and that's wonderful. I would stick with it and remember that "This too shall pass." When I was a teenager I would ask myself, "In 5 years, 10 years, 15 years is this really going to matter?" It helps keep things in perspective.

Answer 3

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way, but it doesn't mean that your Lexapro isn't working. It was a very "important" day for you today, and I'm sure you just got a bit anxious. Anxiety can make you feel nervous and want to vomit. Relax, I think you're going to be fine.

Answer 4

its ok you was just scaared. because you had to do this infront of alot of people. i know how you felt i was the same way when i was your age. and did the same exact thig. dont eel bad hun. because you couldnt help it. it is not your fault. just know you probley have a beuatiful voice. and that if you have to next time just dont look out into the audiance. or picture in your head you are at a beach or where ever you want to be on vaction time ok.

Answer 5

it was not wrong, you handled it the only way you knew how, panic attacks are very hard to deal with, don't obsess about it, or give it any more importance than it's worth, you signed your confirmation, that is what was important for you to do, just standing there and letting the congregation stare at you was unnecessary.

Answer 6

I'm so srry that happened to you!! I honestly no what ur going through, because i have anxiety problem/depression/OCD ya!! it sux....that shuld make you feel better. hahaha. but for real its not fun to have panic attacks, not at all!! Just talk to your tyrapist, of you dont have one you need to get one. i hope you get through this :)

Sarah

Answer 7

Maybe you felt embarrassed, but you can't help stuff like that. Don't think about it. You didn't do anything wrong.

Answer 8

i wouldn't feel bad only if u said it really loud in front of everyone. if u have to go u should go so u don't pee in ur pants.