For the "healthy" people?

Question

So I feel like i'm a fairly well-adjusted guy. I had a wonderful family growing up, money's never been a huge issue like it is with some people, I'm going to propose to my med student girlfriend of 5 years shortly and I'm achieving moderate success and popularity on the music scene. I live in a beautiful condo with low-rent. Life's good.

I started taking lexapro for some anxiety issues that gave me stomach aches and it's been working great! My question is, does anyone else, despite how seemingly "normal" they usually feel (sans medication), ever randomly think about just turning the wheel of the car into oncoming traffic? Do you ever think, "Hey, I'm alone right now, I should go in to the kitchen and cut myself open with one of those steak knives...?" But you never do, because you know yourself and you'd end up calling 911 and troubling the firefighters with your stupid mistake....Is this some form of spontaenous depression or is it pretty common?

Answer 1

From a "healthy" person who has been on anti-psychotic medications for over 40 years. I say, what you are describing may be normal but not healthy. I say this from experience having had those same thoughts as a "succesful" person some 45 years ago. They eventually led to a suicide attempt and psychosis. The human subconscious mind is very powerful and if you are randomly and occaisionally having suicidal thoughts that is your subconscious mind forcing you to test out ways to end a subconscious dislike of your present life.

Consciously you have all the appearances of being well adjusted (except for the anxiety issues) to our society but subconsciously you do not approve of how things are going. Those "anxiety issues" and the suicidal thoughts are indications something is wrong. You do not "know yourself"; no one does because the subconscious mind is largely unexplored.

This may be pretty common in todays society (and thus normal) but it is not healthy. The seeming epidemic of depression and rising teen suicide in the USA are indicators that our humanity here is in trouble. So what is the solution?

The solution is not solely medications for anxiety and eventually more severe mental problems but a major reaasesment of your values in relation to those values society imposes on us. Your values, which you think you know, are really buried in your subconscious longings and need to be gotten to by recalling and reflecting on them. This may require help by a psychiatrist or other therapist. Those values which society imposes on us are what you are currently using to get that feeling of being well adjusted.

This is a rather unpopular assesment because societies norms are so ingrained in us by TV and peer pressure. You started out in life a well adjusted infant and those values you had then and learned as a child from your parents and schools are what you subconsciously are. Discover them anew and get in tune with them again for the sake of a healthy life. Success is being well adjusted internally as well as externally

Good luck with your meditations, good mental health, peace and Love!

Answer 2

Sounds like you may be bi-polar.Fine and dandy one minute not a care in the world , and mad as all get out ,or despondent or depressed the next.It can be treated and it's not taboo to talk to someone about your feelings now days.I suggest doing just that as one day you may just pick up the knife or steer the car into traffic without really thinking twice.

Answer 3

Its not normal, but sometimes people get bizzare thoughts.

You should talk to a psychologist instead of taking mediction, they could be stuffing you up.

"Because you know yourself and you'd end up calling 911 and troubling the firefighters with your stupid mistake"

At least you're not a moron.

Answer 4

just the depression talking. but for those "healthy" normal people, eh they're just covering it up ya know? people with disorders and diseases are the people who actually experience life and are (no matter how stupid and impossible this sounds..) lucky. because it actually means this is not just some dream. it's reality to us and we all face it and try to be strong. that's what the difference is between the "healthy" normal people. but that's me just ranting on and on. i hope it gets better for you though, try to think positive no matter how hard it gets. good luck with the fiance and your career.