crying too much?

Question

this is a serious question for people who actually want to help me.
you can be mean and get your 2 stupid points but i would really appriciate if i get some feed back.
thanks in advance.


i dont cry over anything physical like cuts and bruises or anything.
im 18, female, living at home with my mom, her new husband, and my half sister (their baby) who is 2.
i also have a boyfriend that lives over 1 1/2 hours away.
i work full time and dont really have friends.

when i go to bed, i have a hard time sleeping so i end up laying there for hours and i end up thinking. a lot. about everything. i usually end up crying because i get so upset.
this is pretty often maybe 5 days a week. right before i sleep.
i never really felt depressed exept at that moment. i wanted to know if there was something wrong with me... is this depression..? only... part time depression..?

oh and i have had a lot of problems at home but normal family stuff you know? i hate my step dad.. i still have an 11:00 cerfew (and im 18). blah blah blah

i dont like being alone and even if im alone (i eat lunch alone during my lunch break, im usually alone at home) its much different than right when i try to sleep. its feels more lonely.. if that makes any sense.

p.s.

good job being an *** hole. heres your 2 points mean people. *wipes my **** outa my *** on it. *shoves it in their mouth.


im not talking about 3world countries here ok. i know its really bad out there. im filipino. i have 435345345 relatives in the pi. i understand.
all i need to know is if theres something wrong and if i actually need to see someone about it.

p.s again.

i dont do the whole church thing.
a lot of my beliefs conflict with that and i just like to keep religion out of my life. i used to be a hard core christian and i learned a lot of new things which made me rethink a lot of things.
it was a good thought tho.

also, it may seem so easy to forgive my family, but in my sutiation, i really cant. my step dad has already driving away my older sister who was like a best friend to me. her boyfriend hates him, my boyfriend hates him, and i used to have friends but i never brought them over because they hated him and he restricts me from seeing certain people. he tells my mom who i can and cant hang out with.
he asked me if my friends sold drugs! what an idiot.
i did get introuble with the law a few times but only for cerfew violation. and the other time was because i was out and some friends of mine were having some beers. i dont drink.
ever since then, he thinks he can dictate my life.

Answer 1

Hahaha I was just messing with you..what you really need to do is MOVE OUT. Fill your life with adventure and new things...basically, when you go to bed, be so tired that you pass the **** out and have no time to think. I know avoiding your problems is a bad way to approach it but hey, it works.

My family was in a cult and the only way I could deal with everything when I was your age was to get out and just get going with life...trust me, when you are busy, you are happy and you sleep like a baby. So basically what I am saying is the thing that really keeps you from being overstressed or sad or overstimulated is not drugs, or therapy, or even a really hott boytoy, it is lifestyle. ;) I can tell from your description that you spend a lot of time at home and on the computer..try to change that..do something spontaneous tomorrow..go golfing, get lost in the woods, just get out..people on this website are so funny, they talk about how depressed they are all the time because they sit at home all day with little to no exercise, what do you think is going to happen?

Answer 2

I don't think anything serious is wrong with you. Sounds like you are just young and sensitive and you need some fun time with some freinds. You are going to have to make some time to get out and make some new friends.

If there is a local church in your area go check it out usually a church will have a youth group and they hang out and do things together. If you don't like the first church you visit try anoother one until you find the right fit. Call them up first if that makes you feel more comfortable and ask about their youth group I am sure they can fill you in on what is going on and the times to be there it will be better then being lonely and crying to much.

I belong to a church and my first time there I just showed up and went in I did not know a soul they took me right in and were so nice to me and that was 10 years ago I am a member now with lots of new friends to play with :-) What have you got to lose?

Answer 3

There is something wrong. You said you "hate your step dad" that is an emotion that is very destructive and negative. I'm sure that when you are lying there trying to sleep and thinking he comes to mind quite often. Which thoughts along with the other bad perceptions you have about your life cause you to get upset and depressed. Negative thoughts and negative perceptions cause negative emotions like hate and depression.

Try being more positive. Try forgiving your step dad from the bottom of your heart and forgiving your mother for marrying him for a start. I know it is hard to be positive when you are depressed; it is a self reinforcing emotion. But by doing something positive like this and dwelling on it instead of all those negative thoughts will make you act better toward your mother and father and they in turn will be more positive toward you. Just do it, just love them, and then think about it in a positive way. It will help you get to sleep if they both wish you a cheery "good night" won't it?

Good luck being positive. If you need more help consult your GP physician for a therapist., Good mental health, peace and love!