Why disappear like that?

Question

Tonight I managed to remind myself of an old friend on here, Gnostic.

After revealing that 'she' was in fact 'he', he then proceeded to disappear completely. I have checked, and there is no longer any evidence that such a person existed on my 360.

I mean, surely it's not that big a deal to say you are someone else, as long as you show your real self, which I believe Gnostic did. His message was straight and true, even if his gender wasn't. Okay, the last couple of weeks he wasn't very kind to us (he lied about something very serious), but I guess I managed to just look past that and forgive the few white lies.

Please, Gnostic (I forget the real name you gave), if you are out there, you still have people here who need your admirable ways. One or two lies may be lies after all, but a heart of gold can never be replaced.

Thanks Rae. And Zapp. Just got the email.

*I was wondering who that was, now I know*

I agree with both Vitamin C and Raji.

Now for mine:

To dwell on the past is to forget the future.
To build a good future is to forget the past.

A racer will not always take a corner perfectly, but to stay at that corner and keep trying will cost him the race.

In other words, think of how you can make your future better, as opposed to wishing you could rectify the past. Guilt will only bring you down, while knowing that you have come through your past mistakes and gained insight can bring happiness.

After all, is it a sin to learn?

In truth, we are all a 'work in progress'. That work is only finished on our dying day.

I didn't feel the need to forgive you. Forgiveness is for those who do wrong. I see that you merely took the opportunity to take a lesson.

So the guilt that you feel is just the exam that you've already aced.

Cheer up!!

((((Ennoae))))

Answer 1

I'm so sorry I thought everyone knew that I've gone to a complete different identity here. I was as honest as I could be with all my answers even those impossible for a male were based on very real things that happened in my life. I decided not to continue drama by bring up Gnostic but I will not lie about anything (at least not to other people, I do struggle with honesty to myself). I just don't believe people need such BS in their life and I did in fact create BS. Thank you for your kind words although I don't deserve them. I hope to earn respect again and I ask no one for forgiveness.
I was killing Gnostic only so I would never be tempted to assume her identity again but telling the truth was much more liberating even if people hate me for the previous deception.
Before I spoke up I knew it would not sit well and no matter how harsh people may decide to be its ok. I forgave before I gave the information that some would use to justify hating me.
My biggest guilt in this was giving people an excuse to do wrong to themselves by judging me. In my faith if someone judges others they judge themselves. Some cannot overcome such temptation and it is my fault that they would do this to themselves. We should never give ammunition to the enemy and when we do it is our fault. I struggle to find forgiveness for myself concerning this matter but that is minor when I consider how unimportant I am and how some would harm their own path by despising me.
This will be over for all of you long before it is over for me. I will always be wondering about how much damage and confusion I caused.

Humility and Love always from my spirit and soul to all of you.

Answer 2

Ennoae, I have to admit that I AM dissapointed in what you did. YOu ARE right, you are going to have to RE-earn everyone's trust back BUT, if you prove to actually BE the person that I saw in you as Gnostic then you DO have a lovely spirit and THAT, my friend should NOT be wasted on self-deprecation. Ohm, and I meant what I said. Forgiveness is for the Christians, we Pagans simply LEARN from our mistakes, both the big ones and the little ones. Hopefully you've learned something from YOUR mistake. Only time will tell on that, my friend. As for ME, I have learned to move past these little things in life and simply ignore them. Now, don't you go and be a stranger in here and at least post a few questions. You owe me some points on that question (you know the one, LOL). See you around the square. LOL

BB,
Raji the Green witch

Answer 3

This is in response to what Ennoae said:

Not forgiving yourself is the same as not forgiving others. If you feel that what caused you to do what you did is something that you need help with, then get help, but please forgive yourself. You won't be able to heal from it until you do. We all screw up big sometimes and the important thing is that we learn something from it. It is obvious you did learn from it, so it has served it's purpose and you can now move on.

I forgive you. I wish only the best for your life. And you ARE important so cut out that self deprecating crap. I'm adding you back as my contact with the understanding that I expect you to be completely honest with what you say from now on. If you don't think you can do that, then just block me and I'll get the picture. You'll also have to put up with my cranky temperament again, so I hope that's O.K. Good to have you back!

Blessings,

Vitamin

Answer 4

SID You just abscond. I waited days for you; for days to appear, You never did. You disappeared as if you were never here. Just my illusion. As nights passed by I questioned myself in the four walled room Did I say something that hurt your feelings Or you just wanted to leave me hanging? As you left you took a part of me with you... Making me feel odd Making me feel a burden on this Earth Did you ever think how I would feel? You entered my life for a while, And then left for good. Thinking about you pains my heart. As if one day my heart will stop sending life in my body. Even if I close my eyes Trying my best not to cry. Tears drip gushing down my eyes like a flood. A flood no matter how hard you try wont stop You wanted to leave, so you did. You could have just said I am leaving, At least a farewell! Or a touch of warmth But you decided to vanish. I get furious at myself Furious of getting so attached to you. How can I get attached to you? Whom I just met a few months ago. Whom I consider was my best friend There to listen to my non stop talking There to support me. Or to hold me! But I guess I was mistaken. I surprise myself by finding smiling Smiling at those memories. The little time we spent together Those inside jokes, those secrets…. Some say you might be busy, Busy for four months? Others say you might have found of another Someone who cares. Does she? Maybe so. Everyday I think maybe I’ll see you today! Somehow I will, some how... I wait, afternoons pass by I mutter to myself ‘Maybe tomorrow....” As I write this down, I hope you are somewhere safe. Im hoping somehow you read this, And know how much I love you…. [A very sweet sentimental poem. You express your minds thinking through internal questioning, never a-straying from the main message of the poem. Of your love and care for another mate. I like the fact that you do not accuse him of anything, you are always a sweet even ideal presence on this, waiting... I also like the usage of kind words, feminine writing, the internal warmth is evident. Your enthalpy is caressing the reader, it is evenly distributed throughout this poem, a nice continuation from your walk near the sea-shore. A romantic, beautiful piece. The architecture of the verses is a bit hasty, it happens with many poems, an easy thing to correct. Congratulations, you receive my compliments and attention!]

Answer 5

I find forgiving easier when I remember all the bad things I have done, and that no one has led a life without doing something stupid or hurtful. I sense he is sorry from his post. I forgive him too. If Christ can say let he who is without guilt throw the first stone, then so can a pagan Witch.

Blessings,
Lady Morgana )0(

Answer 6

Relax, this is a yahoo answerboard. People leave. It's not the end of the world. Especially since this person was apparently lying through their teeth the entire time.

Answer 7

If you are looking for Gnostic, this is her real yahoo 360 page!

Answer 8

This seems to be the evening for missing someone. You are the third person in the last minute.

Answer 9

Gnostic is now using the friends name
but I forget what it is now lol
but you know the one I mean ... with the candle avatar i think it is

Answer 10

Wait till they change this to Mash i will be gone too.