What could be wrong with me?

Question

I have major depression and maybe a little ADHD ... but a lot of the the time, I actually feel... insane. I had bloodwork done a couple months ago, but for different reasons. If I had ADHD, would they have told me about it because of the bloodwork? I'm fairly smart and very creative, and would hate for meds to mess with my creativity. I've always been an abstract thinker, and have can hardly concentrate if something's not interesting- but when it is, I'm hooked. A lot of the time, I also feel insane. I don't really feel like I relate to many people... the one person that I ever felt I did relate to, I found out had ADHD as well. I'm not talking like hyper, just... insane about the world. Insanity that I think, stems from sadness. I find so much joy in the arts- particularly music. What are the possibilities, and what should I do about it?

Answer 1

There's nothing wrong with you a few more years won't cure. By 30+ you will be wishing you had that energy back. Use that passion to attain your goals, don't kill it with meds.

There are a lot of us that don't relate to people very well, it just means you are more introverted than extroverted. Take a personality test to see which of the 16 personality types you are:

Answer 2

Hi there Live*lau...

The easiest answer why you feel that your thinking and feeling about the world is 'unusual' is that it really is. This state of mind and feeling is known as mental illness. You already have two possible diagnostic labels major/severe depression and ADHD. This is obvious to me.

You have at this point given state of the art medicine two options:

1. Meds for the long-term or life
2. No meds and other ways to try and cope.

Trust me meds is the easier and the better option. They will correct the 'fanciful' perceptions or beliefs and help you to feel strong and 'normal'. Unfortunately you may think, the meds affect your brain-chemistry or how you think, but that is exactly the point, they need to. Why? Because at this point your brain in your case your Central Nervous System is not functioning normally on it's own and (I repeat) that is what is making you think and feel as you do.[ A basic understanding of the details you can find in any Introductory Psychology text, there is not time for them here]. Meds administered properly will suppress the actual ill feelings and do many other 'good' things.

Will the meds affect your creativity? No. They will however as you may already realize have other side effects which both you and your doctor(s) will try to control for or should.

Anyone who says that they have been on meds for some time 2 years or longer (for serious mental illnesses) e.g. major depression, bipolar-disorder, ADHD, schizophrenia or it's related conditions, mania, alzheimer's disease etc. and have discontinued medication successfully or are living successfully long-term without being on meds 'must' be viewed with scepticism, and distrust because from the point of view of psychiatry at this time this is 'impossible' apart from a miracle. BE VERY CAREFUL WHAT ANYONE CLAIMS, MENTAL ILLNESS IS A SERIOUS MEDICAL CONDITION AND SHOULD BE TREATED WITH THE BEST INTERVENTION POSSIBLE. And from the thoughts and feelings you've described it's quite likely (at least 90% possible) that you have mental illness or mental disorders. This I believe is a statement of fact (based on experience and your own self-report) not a suggestion or fanciful notion, and NOT a judgement of your condition.

I wish you every best possible present and future although we have never met. I do grant however the reality that meds today are still prescribed allowing for trial and refinement. Nevertheless, they are the best option we have at the moment along with therapy and your own efforts, in determining the best outcome.

If you feel like your needs are not being met at the present time, try changing doctors or taking a little more control over your situation like deciding which meds you are more comfortable with or whether you would like to change the dose, or how often you wish to be seen etc. Your therapy should I believe include strategies to cope with the mild ADHD in terms of your studies as well as with the major depression, by using a Cognitive Behavioral Therapy approach/intervention and talk therapy etc. to build your self-esteem. You also can also invest in yourself by using these strategies and other readings to build your emotional life, self-esteem or self-worth and self-confidence, focus and concentration. You are a lovely person, believe me!

Give yourself some time to improve and loose yes see your depressive symptoms disappear. You will get better I guarantee it, if you persist and take your meds but it will also take some time and effort on your part to educate yourself and for them to work properly so don't ever give up.

Finally your goal should be independence and greater reliance on your own decisions. This will take some time so please be patient with yourself and take things one step at a time i.e. day by day by day. Keep on being creative and dream big dreams they can come true.

I hope you've taken note of what has been expressed here and are really open to improvement in your overall functioning and are tired of the same old everyday blahs and crazyness.

Lots of love, and In his care (Jesus Christ)

Barry H

Answer 3

well there are many different ways to treat depression like what you are describing you could if not already get involved in a committed relationship find someone that you really like and go for it or just try and have more fun in your life i mean that's what i did i kinda did both and it worked great

Answer 4

It could be you're dealing with clinical depression, so I recommend you talk with a mental health professional about this.

Answer 5

I don't think blood work can diagnose ADHD. I was aware that thinking tests, and whatnot could determine that.

Answer 6

you might be a teenager.....