My heart is blocked and can't open out, but I have love feelings anyway, often for distant, ambigous bad boys

Question

I cant reach mind intimacy with guys I like, I'm always distant also if there's phisical involving.
A boy told me he likes me and wants to pass the more time with me, but I cant trust, my mind tell me he may like me just for sex, rebound, anything.
My first love when I was 16 loved me at first sight and the whole thing was so pure and innocent because he chose me and "chased" me and we were young enough to wait for sex things .
I feel like with every guy I met I play chess cards, and give body hoping he will love me.
what I want is unconditional true love.
i dont' believe in modern love.

Answer 1

Me neither, the only way to breck this game, is not to play it. Find a friend, make them a lover. Just don't play shallow with friendship and it well work. Friendship isn't about being nice to each other, isn't even about spending ever minute with each other. Its about going thru the steps to understand them better then they understand themselves. Its not easy, but thru that you'll find the relationship you seek. Let just say your right, don't believe in modern love, romance is dead. BUT if you do it the way the ancients did it, if you put the friendship frist, what comes after that is romantic without having to be.