Been friends w/ another woman for almost 10 years, fell in love with her, but confused if she feels the same.?

Question

She's married w/ kids,20yrs older,cheated on husband,touchy feely,and has been told by other women that they're interested.I've told her about my feelings years ago,we're still good friends-has its ups and downs,she calls me her goddaughter,we've had some long hugs,kissed on lips a few times in car/dark (accidental?),we're both religious.She says I'm too quite and that's sneaky to her.I am shy but don't hide my love-always there for her, my hugs are sensual.Fantasize daily.Have a hard time talking to her-don't know what to say/have anything to say-just enjoying our moments together. Told her weeks ago I wanted to meet up to talk to her-we live 1hr away-she says ok but nothing yet.Claims her days have been busy.Emailed her a poem saying some feelings,she says she's confused about it,I emailed back saying this is part of what I wanted to talk about,can we meet.She emailed a poem to me and others basically saying to pray.What 2 do? How do I conversate w/ her besides the basic how's ur day

she's around 40
same sex
don't know if i'm bi, I'm not attracted or feen for other women

Answer 1

People who are married, and having a difficult time, have NOTHING to give emotionally.

they are consumed with their problems, and don't have room for a "romantic relationship".... yes, they might indulge in an affair, but it's only to prove they are still loveable

Answer 2

She's either not interested or a weirdo. Just move one. Twenty years older??? I mean come on, there are plenty of people around your own age.