Help:( please?

Question

I am a 19 yr old female in 2nd yr uni. in gr 10 i was hospitalzied fora suicide attempt (od). I was fine untill recently. just b4 school strted i was having panic attacks. i srted drinking on my own inthe summer. but it was no longer calming me down. i got to school and felt panicked & alone. like no one liked me. my friends assure me this isnttrue, but i cant help but wonder. I strted cutting again a few weeks ago. almost daily. its addictive i dont realize when i strt but then i dont want to stop it calms me. i realize its bad but it just i cant explain. I have been losing sleep. sometimes only getting 1 hr a night. it is killing me i have tried sleepin pills they failed, even wehn i doubled the suggested dosage. I am scared and i know i need help but i am terrified of drs. i went off my b.c. pills last yr cuz i didnt want togo for the visits. I have been doing these online test things they tell me whats rongi want to know but not at the same time. Help I am lost and confused!:(

I was adopted. I tried getting info. sent in the form. was rejected they said the law fell through. I have been to therepist, shrinks, and psychologists.
a dr screwed up my meds . thats part of the reason i ended up so suicidal. I was in the hospital for 2 months. clearly they never fixed me.
family can't knowthey will reject me.
jsut thinking about talking to drs is making me panick right now

I made a doctors appointment. its not untill the 6th that is like 3 weeks. what happens if i cant take it little things are so frustrating and i dont get it. my mood flips so badly

Answer 1

try to go out of your way for others. ex. help an old man at the grocery store carry his baggage, hold doors open for people.

anything simple you don't have to commit your life to charity but it is a source of peace.

if you need a place to tell your tale or just let it out without having those around you know your situation you may e-mail me i would be proud offer anything that may help. you can send messages through the link in my profile so that i will not have access to your personal info also i can respond without you having to allow e-mail in your profile.

im not trying to say i have the answers but offering to help does make me feel good.

Answer 2

First off you need to calm down. You will die if you keep acting this way. You need to get over your fear of doctors, they are not here to hurt you, they are here to HEAL you. I understand completely, I hate going to the doctor's office but I go because I realize without them, I am not going to get better and I will just continue to get worse until I get help. But it's your choice. You can get medication that can stop the panic attacks, and you should probably start going to a counselor as well. He/she can help you stop the panic attacks after a few sessions without any drugs and they can also help you with your suicidal thoughts. I beg you, please go to a doctor! That's the only way any of this will go away. My prayers are with you!

Answer 3

YOU DO need to see a DR......I used to have these panic attacks,also. You need to have a confident person to help you. When you start to think about up-coming events;are wen they take place. It could also be withdrawal from ur past habits. A dr. can prescribed the proper meds;such as Zolof.

Answer 4

if you are afraid of doctors, then at least find a therapist, you desperately need psychological help.

Answer 5

go to your friends. friends are everything!! go see a therapist. talk to your parents about it. good luck.