Does this make me suicidal?

Question

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I'm really tired of being here. I don't know how to explain it.
I'm just tired of existing.
I don't think I'd ever try to kill myself. I've thought about it but I don't think I could ever act on it.

I should mention that I've already been diagnosed with depression.

I was diagnosed wth Major depression once..
It could be something else. I was seeing a therapist for a while and she never told me what I had. She just said "depression".

Answer 1

To be suicidal, as most people seem to think of it, is to sometimes desire to kill yourself and or to try. One of the three definitions in a dictionary, is to do things that lead to wanting to kill yourself, that definition is poor in my opinion.

But to help people keep from becoming suicidal, to fight it off, or in case they already are suicidal, I usually tell them this:

Without God's love, you will always crave more and more and never be content.

Without a friend that gives you an honest answer when you want one, who gives you one out of love, you will always feel some misery. And if you only have friends that flatter you, you may be depressed knowing that they are doing so because they want to take advantage of you in some way rather than truly loving you, or loving you with a pure love, love which isn't self-seeking.

Also, you may have a poor diet which is causing a chemical imbalance or making you depressed due to its blandness, have past trauma that is still bothering you because you don't know how to deal with it or because it was very painful, are encountering unpleasant smells often (like perhaps from a new rug which smells bad), have bland surroundings (you may want to decorate your walls with posters), have unpleasant parents, don't have friends or ones that give you bad to no advice when you ask for the help or when it's obvious you need it, you may have a boring getting-no-where life, or you may feel as if you're not getting your way in general (which frustrates everyone who feels that way).

I had problems with depression and suicide due to my parents neglecting my education, including knowledge about right from wrong, and not having much interesting or helpful to do. I also got bullied at school for how I was dressed and appeared before I was 14 and of course, instead of the bullies being punished I was the one who got stuck in a miserable substitute for a "normal" public high school and had next to no friends while there (and still have about none). Soon after attending that school I was bullied by the police off an on a few times. Other miserable things happened including being repeatedly kicked out and being mistreated at nearly all the jobs I had by coworkers or bosses who harassed me out of them. But, God saved me and helped me beat my depression and allowed and helped me to accomplish some great things that I can take comfort in having accomplished no matter how miserable. I'm still depressed sometimes, but it's not as bad now since he's opened my eyes.

Check out the link in my profile if you are interested in spiritual help, which I found has been a lasting and permanent solution heading towards perfect peace. I hope you show the link to others.

Answer 2

Without God's love, you will always crave more and more and never be content.

Without a friend that gives you an honest answer when you want one, who gives you one out of love, you will always feel some misery. And if you only have friends that flatter you, you may be depressed knowing that they are doing so because they want to take advantage of you in some way rather than truly loving you, or loving you with a pure love, love which isn't self-seeking.

Also, you may have a poor diet which is causing a chemical imbalance or making you depressed due to its blandness, have past trauma that is still bothering you because you don't know how to deal with it or because it was very painful, are encountering unpleasant smells often (like perhaps from a new rug which smells bad), have bland surroundings (you may want to decorate your walls with posters), have unpleasant parents, don't have friends or ones that give you bad to no advice when you ask for the help or when it's obvious you need it, you may have a boring getting-no-where life, or you may feel as if you're not getting your way in general (which frustrates everyone who feels that way).

I had problems with depression and suicide due to my parents neglecting my education, including knowledge about right from wrong, and not having much interesting or helpful to do. I also got bullied at school for how I was dressed and appeared before I was 14 and of course, instead of the bullies being punished I was the one who got stuck in a miserable substitute for a "normal" public high school and had next to no friends while there (and still have about none). Soon after attending that school I was bullied by the police off an on a few times. Other miserable things happened including being repeatedly kicked out and being mistreated at nearly all the jobs I had by coworkers or bosses who harassed me out of them. But, God saved me and helped me beat my depression and allowed and helped me to accomplish some great things that I can take comfort in having accomplished no matter how miserable. I'm still depressed sometimes, but it's not as bad now since he's opened my eyes.

Check out the link in my profile if you are interested in spiritual help, which I found has been a lasting and permanent solution heading towards perfect peace. I hope you show the link to others.

Answer 3

I would be curious to know what your actual diagnosis was. Depression can be found in many disorders but it is not a diagnosis in and of itself.
For example, there is:
Major Depressive Disorder, Single Episode with a severity level ranging from mild to moderate to severe and any number of features such as chronic, catatonic, melancholic, atypical, and more.
Major Depressive Disorder, Reccurent
Dysthymic Disorder
Depressive Disorder NOS
Bipolar I and II
Mood Disorder due to [any number of things]
Substance induced mood disorder
Mood Disorder NOS

Those are just the mood disorders...there are any number of other disorders with which "depression" is part of the diagnosis.

The reason this is important is because each one can cause variations in treatment and interventions.

Seriously, to gain legitimate help there needs to be more information provided. However if you go with armchair psychology with shooting from the hip diagnosis, then yes, you would technically be considered a suicide risk (due to ideation) and depressed (due to expressed thoughts and suicidal ideation), but this may not be the most accurate diagnosis.

Answer 4

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Answer 5

Yes. You say you cannot carry out this thought, but you need to find out why you are so depressed and change it. It can be changed if you really want to do it. You are the only one that can change your life and what goes on in it. If you are around people that are not good for you, and this is what brings you down, then you need to get away from them. It sounds easy enough, but it is harder that most people think. If you have to completely move away from everything that is familar so you can work on yourself, then you must do that. I hope you can find happiness, because that will help you see how good life can be.

Answer 6

I'm tired of being here to but we have to endure existing can be very hard but try volunteering some where,
like a food pantry or an nursing home the people there would love someone new to talk to.

Answer 7

If you've been diagnosed with depression - ask your doctor about meds- they really help. I was given Cymbalta and it started working the very same day. I haven't experienced any bad side effects either.
Then your thoughts like this will go away. You really do deserve to be happy...

Answer 8

Tired of being here huh? Well I must admit that is a little forlorn. But cheer up.
The meaning of life isn't to find yourself, but rather to create yourself.
Make a meaning for yourself and live it up, because you are the only one that can.

Answer 9

wow he sounds desperate . anyway just because you have that feeling does not mean you are suicidal . like you said yourself you have been diagnosed deppressed . are you on meds ? if not maybe you should be . when you are depressed you have less serotonin in your brain which makes you generally less happy with life meds can help that. maybe talk to your doc?

Answer 10

No it does not. Get the therapy and support you need to overcome the depression, and i hope that you are on antidepressants.