Why do i have the constant feeling people i try to befriend are being told to stay away or not get involved?

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with me?
ive had paranoia for a long time, im a great trauma, abuse and bullying survivor to. i have borderline personality disorder.
ive never made any friends in life at all. because of the problems ive had socially and having low self esteem.

the few friends ive made which are 1 or 2 online, have not made contact for weeks,. i already feel as though im being ostracized and singled out by people, which ive felt for a long time...and the fact that the few good people ive met online have just stopped contacting me.......im thinking theyve been told to discontinue contact and have been told to avoid me....

this is making me angry and depressed and more isolated than i already feel....

ive begun to isolate myself, have bad anxiety and panic everyday...i have bleak low moods everyday..

how can i handle the fact that everybody i seem to discover always leaves me....and maybe the fact theyve been told to stay away, not get involved?

im thinking now, my online friends from the states, which i thought alot of, are ostracizing me now to

Answer 1

hi.

try borderline forums on line... lots of people out there suffering the same illness as you, and who would probably be more understanding than most.

you can also look into EMDR therapy... or therapy in general.

another idea is to keep a journal -- to express your thoughts and also, to look back over later on. if you are working on your issues, this is a good way to see progress... or how you have changed.

your focus seems to be on your ILLNESS alone, and not YOURSELF the whole person.

i suffer from mental illness too and have struggled throughout the years, so i understand. i have been in and out of therapy and have done the work and expended the effort necessary to learn to cope.

we may not ever be "cured" but we surely can learn coping skills.

and i hope you do. and if you take the time to look at the forums i've found below, perhaps you will get some good, solid support and information.

take care.

Answer 2

Are you seeing a professional? With your borderline personality disorder the symptoms you are feeling are normal. This is a subject that you need to get professional help for. Yahoo answers is not the place to go for help. It sounds to me like the feelings that you are suffering from are getting worse. My heart goes out to you. We have family members that are suffering from personality disorders. They suffer some of the same problems. Often believing that people are against them when they are not. Most often the people that they think are against them are just simply living their everyday lives and cannot talk to them all the time. This is why you should (for your own sanity) seek professional help. And if the professional does not help you, find a new one. I wish you all the best and I will keep you in my prayers. Good luck to you.

Answer 3

You should talk with a therapist to get the appropriate help you need.

I can't imagine someone is targeting your online friends to tell them to stop talking to you. You might want to evaluate how to talk to people, maybe you are offending them or making them uncomfortable.