my mental health?

Question

Ok i have depression or bipolar or pmdd idk whatever one it is but theyre all pretty much the same right? you wanna die. ugh well i feel terrible, im reallly scinical about everything, if someone tells a nice story i bring up the bad things about it and i put everyone down so they see things how i do. ppl are starting to get annoyed of it now and are telling me.
well the thing is i know that i have this illness but i'm so scinical about life that i dont see the point in getting any better. whats the point if im going to die anyway? why not just get it over with sooner. also i have to will anymore. i dont want to do well in school but i have this irrational fear of failing so i force myself to try. im ocd, i cut, and im anorexic, jeez thats a lot but the thing is i dont have the will to get better. i also dont want to talk to anyone about this especially my mother. i have a terrible relationship with her and it would never work. i really dont kno why im writing this.

i guess im looking for someone to say something meaningful to me. i go in and out of this kind of depression state so idk what to do about it. meds dont work, neither does counselling, i want to be an artist but through my eyes that is failing life and ive already mentioned that that is one of my greatest fears if not the biggest. i also dont like to be around people, especially men, i have another irrational fear that i will be raped and murdered. its not the murder that scares me but the rape is what i could never live with. someone give me an idea of what to do. maybe i should drop out of school and just live how i want to? idk. thats what i feel like right now. thanks for listening to me whine. sry.

by the way thats suppose to be NO will not TO will. sry

Answer 1

You said that you do not care and are very negative towards life and everybody... You named a few disorders that your struggling with right now, and it sounds like you are reaching your breaking point.
It is interesting that you wrote that you do not want any help. Your right, if you are not ready to get the help , it is not going to do you any good to go through all of the professional counseling and therapy.
my point is you need to get to the point where your tired of being like that and want to get the help so you can feel better and live a happier, healthy life.
Sometimes, people have to hit rock bottom before they are ready to get better and back on their feet. Maybe you have not yet, and that is why you don't care .
You are seriously playing with fire.... The self destructive behaviors can get worse and can have devastating consequences.
Your not alone though, many people have gonne through the same things, however were ready to make the change for the better.
Self injury anorexia all suck big time and is very complicated. I hope that one day you will be ready to feel better and get the help you deserve.

Answer 2

You may benefit from a diet & fitness plan.
Here are some good ideas:


1. Do something that gets your heart rate up a bit like, walking, running, biking, and swimming.

2. Eat Whole, Organic foods like: Broccoli, Cabbage, Organic Brown Rice, Spinach, Sweet Potato, Apples, and other fruits and vegetables in their Natural State.

3. Avoid eating corn, white bread, white rice, candy, sodas, chips, and anything else that you already know you shouldn’t be eating.

4. Drink clean water as your beverage of choice. Avoid Fruit drinks and fruit juices (unless YOU juice them yourself)

5. Stop smoking, drinking beer & wine, and drinking coffee.

6. Get 8 hours of sleep each night.

7. Hang out with people who want to be healthy.

8. Avoid anything with High Fructose Corn Syrup.



Tone up the muscles:


1. Join a gym and get a trainer.

2. If you’re short on cash, start a light stretching & yoga regimen.

3. Do push-ups, and light dumbbell curls for the upper body.

4. As I said above, walk, run, swim, and or bike
5. Take an aerobics class, a yoga class, or some other fitness class.

6. Join the local YMCA..



Mental Health:


1. Get a friend to talk to each day about your feelings.

2. If you have some money or insurance, get a counselor to talk to.

3. Learn how to meditate.

4. Join a support group for the issue you’re dealing with.

5. Ask your Higher Self (or God) for guidance.

6. Start keeping a diary or journal about your feelings & thoughts.

7. Write a ‘gratitude’ list every night.

8. Do something that makes you happy each day like: listen to your favorite music, draw, paint, write, or anything creative.

9. Do something for someone else who needs help

Answer 3

Call 911. Go to the ER. This is an emergency. Your meds aren't working right, and being suicidal, being a cutter, anorexic, you need to be in the hospital. NOW.

E-mail me your mom's phone number and I will tell her what needs to be done. Just get help now.

Answer 4

you dont sound bi-polar to me, in your paragraph, but you obviously focus on your negatives, try to think about the good you do, and the fact that people still want to talk with you is a good sign.