i'm a 15 year old guy from LA i have never really had a real girlfriend i feel so depress and alone i was abused at the age 4 or 5 not sure dont remember when it really started by my older male cousin i was sexually abuse! now that i'm older i feel so depress alone in this world i just want to die i hate every second of my life i think about dying everyday a day doesnt go by without me thinking about.i just really want someone to like for me i'm a good person damn it i deserve better! but now that i'm older i feel confuse by what i am straight gay bi because of my abusion as a small boy i feel like it was my fault. everyday of my life i feel regret and discussed with myself i feel hatered at myself and others i just want to be happy i see my friends having someone that cares for them and i feel jealous i have the urge to kill myself when i see them happy i have the image of stabbing myself i just feel hopless, alone, lost,and abused. this is the first time i told anyone about it.
2007-10-12 16:43:13 · 9 answers · asked by Richard 1 in Family & Relationships ➔ Singles & Dating
So what's the question? This is Yahoo Answers, not Yahoo Confessional.
2007-10-12 16:46:07 · answer #1 · answered by janicajayne 7 · 0⤊ 5⤋
Well---I am not sure how to address each part. Let me just say this, 15 sucks. I hated being 15, I was not happy at all. Luckily, that passed and now I am good. I have fabulous friends, freedom, my family is there for me, and I am actually doing some of the things I've always wanted to. I know you don't want to hear the common, "Things will get better with time" quote - but for me it was true. I can't promise that for you. However - I would highly suggest that you tell someone you trust about your abuse. I think its really important that you share your burden with someone else. Abusers are terrible people - it wasn't your fault.
As for finding someone to care about.....
Well, its really hard to expect someone to care about you if you don't care about you. The best advice I have: Get some of this stuff off of your chest, work through it, gain some confidence - you will be turning dates down. Confidence is a major turn on.
2007-10-12 23:52:11 · answer #2 · answered by Amy G 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I am so sorry. they have a little boy that i know that got sexually abused too when he was younger. I dont want him to feel this way too. Maybe you should try to be more open minded with people. You should prove to people that you are a nice guy. I am the type of person that would give anyone a chance once they keep on trying and when they prove that they have a nice personality so you should just keep on trying.
2007-10-12 23:52:23 · answer #3 · answered by Olivia 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm so sorry to hear that. Before doing anything bad like that, find someone you trust the most and talk to them and tell them how you feel. You could even join a support group and they can help you through this. Your life is a gift and you shouldnt throw it away. Trust me things will get better.
2007-10-12 23:56:53 · answer #4 · answered by ♥Love Love♥ 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I understand how you feel but you have to forget the past! your worth living here so don't say that you want to die, all you need is some support and attention and when you get that you will feel better inside....just wait patiently in the mean time just go hang out and start metting different people!
2007-10-12 23:49:35 · answer #5 · answered by In love! 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You need therapy. There are Somethings we can deal with, and somethings are just to rough to bear. But you´re not the only one, everyday happens things that we "humans" should be ashame of. And everyday people decide to forgive and forget, bcause you need to do that to survive. You need to go to therapy...Is not easy and will take time, but you´ll make it.
Life is too beautiful give it a chance---Someday you´ll see the past as a terrible experience but you´ll be stronger and loved and loving...But please right now Ask for help!...You just can´t do it all by yourself...
2007-10-13 00:02:01 · answer #6 · answered by jackielafemme 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Don't let yourself be HIS victim again, seek counselling,being abused does not make you gay, people choose how they live, free will, you were his victim, it was NOT your fault in any way shape or form. Call a victims hotline. Get help now. You have such a great future ahead,,, allow yourself to be happy. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!
2007-10-13 01:40:37 · answer #7 · answered by Penny Mae 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It may be a bit drastic but you need a girlfriend or at least a one-nite stand. I mean think about it ..it was not your fault for what happen to you when you were little nobody asks for this. Please don't think about death ...i know its corny but what good can come from it . life is too precious to waste on something so stupid. My friend died about a month ago ...(car accident ) and i can tell you that her family was devastate not to mention her friend .
What you need is a friend from the opposite sex .. or maybe from the same sex.
There are groups out there with people with the same problems as your ..trust me your not alone.
Hope this helps :)
2007-10-12 23:55:13 · answer #8 · answered by Kelly j 3 · 0⤊ 2⤋
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2007-10-16 23:51:56 · answer #9 · answered by neicy 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋