Is my life worth living?

Question

im posting this to see what other people think about me.

Im 19 years old, and ive had a not so perfect life. Ive never seen my dad, ( he left when i was born). And my mom was a drug addict. Ive lived with my grandparents my whole life. I consider my self very anti-social, i dont like talking to other people, and when i do i never know what to say, and mix up my words and say something that makes no sense, i prefer to keep away from talking. Ive been like this my whole life, ive never had any friends, and never had a girlfriend. Ive felt alone my whole life. And now my grandparents forced me to get a job, or i get kicked out of this house, so i got a job at a grocery store, ive been working there for about 2 weeks. I HATE IT, i hate seeing people, i hate talking to people. Everyday i wake up depressed. I have no choice but to be depressed and work, if i quit the job i have no place to live, i see no point in living... pretty pathetic i know.. tell me anything good or bad.

Answer 1

First of all, you're not antisocial. Antisocial disorder is "characterized by an individual's common disregard for social rules, norms, and cultural codes, as well as impulsive behavior, and indifference to the rights and feelings of others." Seeing as you're not going out and committing crimes because you don't care about others... Seems you're just very very introverted, and that's much easier to deal with.

What I would suggest is that you take a step back, and choose one thing that you think would make you happy. If social interaction stresses you out, perhaps take up a form of art or writing for stress relief? And remember that your situation now won't be forever. Nothing is. You won't be working in a grocery store for the rest of your life. And someday you will meet someone who will appreciate your need to be by yourself, who will LIKE the way you mix up words, who will think that you are smart and funny and deserve better than you have.

Answer 2

You had a bad start in life but now you are an adult and can change what you don't like. You might want to see a doctor about your problems or join some type of support group. Not everyone is a social butterfly but there are a few good people left in the world.
Maybe try to get a night job like stock clerk or something where you won't be with many people. There are a lot of job search engines on the web. If not try to enroll in college on line and see if your grandparents will let you lose the job till you get some help.
I think if you see a trained professional you could become a really great person. Just remember you can't change the past but you are now in charge of your future and you can make it great.

Answer 3

Well, you are not saying anything I haven't thought, so if you're crazy, I am, too. I continue living despite it all by ignoring the world at large. I seldom watch national news and never international because I am just not interested, unless it's something remarkable like some disaster that catches my attention. I have noticed that regardless of what's going on outside my immediate area it has never affected me in anyway, so I don't care who's in office or who we're at war with, etc. Especially who we're at war with. Calling the invasions we do today wars is laughable. If you can count the numbers and name the bodies of everyone who died each day; it is not a war. I think that even the media supports the view that little matters in the long term. Have you noticed how some story will grab their attention and they'll flog it and push it for however long they can and then something else will happen and the first one will disappear from all reporting; as if it never happened. You never know the outcome or the resolution, if any. It's just not important anymore. Because of this rather insular attitude I get my pleasure and value from the things I do each day. Caring for the animals with whom I live and any others I can reach. (I feed numerous wild creatures daily.) Giving pleasure to my children, who are grown, gives me pleasure and keeping up with what's going on in their lives is also interesting to me. But you are right. Eventually every body fails and I have known since I was 12 that if I lived long enough for that to happen, then I would kill myself in some nonpainful and noninvasive way. I have already decided upon the method, which requires no tools and no assistance, only the time remains uncertain. One should always remember the advice of Epicurus, who I paraphrase here, when life ceases to be a pleasure the only alternative for a thinking person is to end it, and he did.

Answer 4

Life is is not perfect and life is what we make it, so they say. If I had the chance to tell you what my life was like before, you would have said, you are luckier than I am. I didn't have anyone to turn to, my parents, one was very sickly and the other was just there. The place where I lived is not even a house but just a shelter to keep us from the heat and cold. Our main problem was where to get the next meal to keep us alive for another day. During that time, I thought that was just a normal thing and so I kept going. Because of my background, I was terribly shy, aloof, lacking self esteem and with zero confidence in myself. I didn't have friends because I was afraid/shy to mix or socialize with people. To make story short...I was able to survive all those storms in my life. Now I'm seeing life in different shades,,some dark and darker but most of them very pretty colors.

so,...just keep going. You are still very young and you'll soon see the the brighter shades of life. Good luck and don't lose hope.

Answer 5

well your parental situation is pretty crappy indeed. sounds like your grandparents didnt have you interact with other kids let alone adults. as far as being depressed, you are in your teens with few friends or family and a job you hate. very understandable. but....my belief is everyone has a purpose in life, even if its just to affect someone elses life. What is your dream job? or at least one that you wouldnt hate? do you have online friends you talk to?(they are a whole lot easier to talk to than "real" people!) Keep your chin up and try to see the good in whats around you.

Answer 6

Life is worth living. You need to get out and get on with living. Why do you not like talking or people? Life is what you make it. And right now you aren't givibng life a chance. Nobody has had a perfect life, things happens good and bad things. you have to roll with it. Tkae each day as it comes.
Seek help for your deporession and make some friends. Get a hobby and you'll see that there are good things to look forward too. Best wishes.

Answer 7

You sound like a nice person and its a shame about feeling like you do. I dont want to talk to people sometimes but thats only sometimes. I like em but can also lump em. Having a jobs a good thing because youre old enough and why should the grand parents keep you? They dont owe you anything theyve kept you all these years so give something back. Life is good enjoy it. Do something that you like. Like play guitar or busk or whatever. You have to talk to chics . Do it dont be shy. Join a group where chics go..What a waste of a good bloke

Answer 8

Every life is worth living and you are going to make your life EXACTLY what it is.... in other words---if you want a better life, it's up to YOU now (as an adult) to change it. Do you WANT to be working at a grocery store all your life and living off your grandparents? Do you WANT to be all alone in the world--these are YOUR CHOICES!!!!!! Want to change? then DO IT!!!! Try to find something in life that you LIKE to do instead of always looking at life NEGATIVELY---we've all had bad childhoods...I was molested by a close relative, and my mother pretty near abandoned me but I didn't let what THEY did affect the way I was going to live MY life.... I also was born with Multiple deformities and organ dysfunctions and a year ago YESTERDAY was told I have 2 TERMINAL ILLNESSES, but I'm fighting to LIVE because life IS worth having... I LOVE my life---I am happy, I have a TON of friends, I have a VERY loving and Handsome son who is about to get married, and I don't WANT to die... my life was NOT easy, it had a TON of obstacles I had to cross but I DID IT.... you can too---you just have to WANT something better for yourself---and you ARE worth it... so go back to school, get a college degree, LEARN to be social, learn to LOVE LIFE and learn to love yourself!!!!!! It's a lot harder being MISERABLE then it is to be HAPPY.

Answer 9

Use your job as an avenue to another path. Save the money up and enroll in school. Technical stuff, like computers, requires no real 'people skills' or 'people liking' (unless you wanna do tech support, but who enjoys that?). If that's not your bag, research out a profession that you would like. Mechanic? Electrician? Data entry clerk? Janitor? Dunno, but there's lots of jobs out there that don't require all that much interaction with people.

Most people do hate their first jobs, that's pretty normal. You won't be living with your grandparents forever, and trust me, not all parents are a winning set.

Answer 10

I understand completely and I want to say God has helped me grow and change so I can love Him and people and myself~even though it seems like other people have it all together, realize that inside they too have problems,
you have to know God loves you and has a plan and a purpose for your life and He will use what you have been through to help others
no one is without value
ask Jesus to save you
God will be a father to you and Jesus will be your best friend