how do you just be 'happy'?

Question

I used to be the following:

Caring, nice, honest, helpful, and just happy,

i used to always have fantasies of myself being a huge singer and song writer singing beautiful songs in front of a crowd

wearing the most beautiful clothes and jewerly and hair styles

my passions were singing, writing, dancing, fashion, and starting a girl group

i loved the pcd search and was hoping to be on the next one

its because i picked up christianity and felt like a saint and happy and love in my heart.

but then i had convictions of my sins

and accepted jesus when i thought i already did

but later denied him and believed he did miracles by the power of beezlebub

then believed god was the devil

is that the unpardonable sin?

i think so because i even started feeling hate in my heart and anger and lost all my good qualities. and then i feared death and hell. and the holy spirit told me that i wont go to heaven.

Answer 1

Your avatar name speaks volumes. You are experiencing mental illness masquerading as religious enlightenments. For those of us who are believers I know God, the Father/Son/Holy spirit would ever let us feel such misery. This is coming from a delusional state and there are professionals to help you. Whether or not the delusional state comes from an outside evil is an aside, get the help you need to put these delusions to rest.

Answer 2

The LORD [is] my strength and song, and he is become my salvation: he [is] my God, and I will prepare him an habitation; my father's God, and I will exalt him.

Exodus 15:2


If you feel you're far from God, guess who moved?

Mal 3:6 For I [am] the LORD, I change not;...

Not to worry, though. He's still there.

..lo, I am with you alway, [even] unto the end of the world.
Amen.
Matthew 28:20

Unpardonable sin:
http://www.gotquestions.org/unpardonable-sin.html

Answer 3

No that is not the unpardonable sin. Aren't you happy that God loves us so much that He gave His only begotten son Jesus as the ultimate sacrifice for our sins, so that all our sins past, present and future are covered in His blood.

You can not earn your way to life with God. Jesus is the way, the truth and the life and no one comes to the Father except through Him.

Now that you realize you were being fooled by the devil, turn back to God who loves you.

Answer 4

youre lost in a maze of doctorine which does no suit you. i suggest you get a deck of Tarot cards, and follow the path of the Fool as he proceeds along his spiritual path. Or just look in to Buddhism. Anything but this guiltmongering backward belief system.

Answer 5

You use the words "I" , "my", "used", and "had" close to 15 times. You might want to consider the plain and simple fact that your ego doesn't want you to be "happy". Further the only way for you to be happy is to divorce yourself of your ego, listen to the holy spirit for direction, and live in the eternity available in every moment.

Answer 6

Happiness lies within.

With meditation u can find its source from where it bubbles out.

Its somewhere in the region of heart.

External environment may help it bubble out or stop its bubbling. But when u know its source, in any situation just be there and it starts bubbling out.

with love

Answer 7

Work Hard

Play Hard

Answer 8

See, you didn't start feeling like crap til you got into Christianity and were TOLD to start doing so. What a shame.
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Answer 9

What can be gained and lost was never yours.

If you used to be (past tense)...you never were...it was you (an ego) faking it.

~ Eric Putkonen

Answer 10

Just exist and be yourself. Don't let anyone impose themselves on you, and don't try to impose yourself on others.