How do I get over the bloody ending of my love life after 8 yrs of counseling?

Question

8 years ago I lost my best friend, my neighbour I grow up with and gf into a car accident... and her family and our friends thought it was my fault for what happen... I also felt highly depress and guilt and kept apologizing to everyone and not even my own sibling was going to forgive me... but I never meant to cause any harm... it really was an accident... I come from a trip.. I hadn’t seen her in two weeks and I missed her soo bad so I went to surprise her at her work.... with gifts... a heart necklace with our pictures inside... I saw one of her co worker at the mall on my way to see my gf and she asked me to come along cause I had a car and she was very seductive with me and start to touching me and I respectfully explained to her how important my gf is to me but she kept pushing herself on me... I was a young boy but I still stood up for what I thought was right... and when I pull the car to the parking lot some how I ended up on top of her on the back seat and it was an intense hot sex that we both just give yourself in and I know I should have stop but I didn’t and when I saw my gf coming toward my car I asked the other girl to hide in the back seat and my gf was all happy see me and very tired from work. So we kept driving with my literally shaking in fear of what will happen next and we were listing to radio and my gf was singing a long nothing compares to you by O'Connor and when the song ended she heard the other girl who was hiding behind her seat and saw her in the side mirror and she screamed and was soo scared and she also saw she was half dress and she asked me if I just had sex with her she seem really disappointed... I said no baby no I didn’t she turn nuts and she said she need to get away from me and she opened her door and stepped out from the car while I was driving in the middle of express way and after that day my world turn black... I have been charge for trying commit suicide because I was depress and I wanted to take my life for her just like she did for me and after all these yrs I try to reborn myself and have a normal life nothing seems to help me forget her... every girl I see... every song I hear.. everything still reminds me of her and the last look she gave me... How do let go of her.. I have tried plenty of counseling it just not helping... these Dr. doesn’t understand me or believe I was in love with her

Answer 1

O you were in love with her, doesn't stop how much of a thoughtless jerk you were. No wonder people hate you, that little transgression with the girl in the back seat SHOWS that your purpose in life is just to get your rocks off. Which was most likly all you expected from yourself, tell BAMB, your girlfriend did something stupid in reaction to your something stupid. Which guess what buddy! MEANS YOUR WERE A THOUGHLESS IDIOT!!! I know you loved her, just by the nature of love, but you didn't have a clue on HOW to love her. You show'd that, had hot steming sex with her friend, yea you actually deserve this heck, I'd tell you, your fix, but you know what, suffer, suffer long, suffer hard...... I hope it burns..... No wait theres no way a person like you could even use the fix, to fix yourself becaue your so out of touch with whats real and whats not that it couldn't even help you cool!!! Hahahah!Really it comes down to purpose, which is what you've lost sight of, again, and agian, and again, and just like everyone else again!!! enjoy! Hahah sex in the back seat while waiting on your girlfriend! I hope your parents are proud! Cool thing is that you'll always suffer from this, because you've never learned from it! Man I love the way this stuff works, people don't think bad things happen to bad people!! Hahahah!!